Good morning ladies!
@Mumlili8 I think @Avocuddles is right in saying, keep calling to see if a cancellation might happen. I think that's also how @VenusStarr managed to get an appointment earlier than originally planned. They have cancellations all the time but probably won't proactively call patients to fit them in before their scheduled date, so I'd just try! I think Coventry accepts referrals from 2 miscarriages onwards when I checked online, but you have to be in their catchment area, I believe. Maybe take a look, obviously I don't know if that's your area or not.
I know it's incredibly hard to keep trying and staying in a state of mind that resembles some sort of positivity that there can be a good outcome. You can always come on here and tell us the truth about how you feel!! Our journeys to our Happy End could be long, short, we don't know... best never to know what lies ahead in the future.
When I look beyond what's going on in my life and seeing what happens in other peoples lives on here, on the infertility threads there's ladies who've been through everything one can imagine form a fertility perspective, and then beyond that, I think of all the people who are battling long term diseases and illnesses. It helps me regain perspective but that's how I am, I always need to put my situation in the scales of balance. And the truth is there's much worse situations I could be in, some better too yes, but I'm still grateful for where I am.
Regarding healthy eating, I'm glad I've always been really interested in the science of food and I have exercised to some degree since I was young, I used to have a eating disorder and my therapy lead me to a much better relationship with food.
There's a really good (not free) yoga app called Calm I use, and I think plucking the courage to exercise with others is great, because you go get that team spirit in the classes and it's not that every other women there is perfect. You never know what battles people are fighting.
As with everything, it's one small step at a time. Difficult to tackle everything, for me, I find when I'm exercising regularly, I'm less likely to make any 'naughty' food choices, and that is a cycle that continues and can keep you on track. I've put on a few kg's this year but it doesn't bother me, it was part of this year's journey.
@tmc14 I was only up for DTD as things seemed to have returned to normal for me, which is a relief! The weeks and weeks of sanitary towels and constant fear of going to the loo had really taken a toll on my mental state. Now the bleeding has finally subsided after what was about 4-5 weeks of spotting and bleeding, I feel elated!!!