Starting again (CD1)

[blackfriars]

Anyone else right at the start of a new cycle? I could do with some cycle buddies.

I'm 32, cycle 5 and TTC first baby. Regular cycles of 27/28 days.

Feeling bummed today - I really thought this month could be our month after all the DTD! Had my first TTC cry yesterday. Is that pathetic after just 5 months?!

That's amazing!! I think this is turning in to a lucky thread..!
How many days dpo are you? And did you try anything different this cycle?

@keeponsmiling2019 amazing news! Congratulations! Hopefully this is a lucky thread

Eeeek what a lovely line @keeponsmiling2019 💕 wishing you a happy and healthy 9 months xx

Thanks everyone. I'm 14dpo today. I didn't do any opks this cycle just listened to my body. Dtd every other day when I had EWCM then CD13 I had thick blobby cm and tummy pains and knew id ovulated.
I hope to see more BFPs on this thread. Good luck xx

Congratulations @keeponsmiling2019! Amazing news 😊 xx

Omg! Congrats @Wishing56 and @keeponsmiling2019 wishing you both a happy and healthy 9 months xx

Just woke up and did my last FRER with FMU. Should i be worried that the line isnt darker from Thursday night? Although the line does look thicker?

Worried as its so early that this could be a chemical.

Thanks everyone.
@wishing56 I'm no expert but when is your AF due? If you do another one on that date I'd have thought it would be stronger. Please try to stay calm and give it a few more days x

@keeponsmiling2019 not until Weds. I think i will wait until then and take another (and then stop!)

How you feeling this morning?

So I was doing really well, feeling positive etc. until my friend has just told me she's pregnant again (3rd unplanned child). Obviously I'm happy for her, she loves babies and she's an excellent Mum, but I just want to cry! 😢

@Louise190 you are justified in feeling upset, go ahead and cry and let it out, it's totally normal. Yesterday someone in work asked me how my daughter is. I don't have a daughter. I cried in the toilets. And Flo seems to think it's useful this cycle to continually share articles like "12 DPO: early signs of pregnancy to look out for". I'm so sure I haven't been successful this cycle so it feels like it's taunting me. Honestly I think women are just amazing in what we put ourselves through, therefore we have a right to break down and express our emotions when things don't go our way

@Louise190 that's tough. How do people manage unplanned babies?! I'm relatively "lucky that a lot of my friends are very pregnant or not long post-partum so hopefully I won't have too many announcements coming up. But I think it is hard news to hear when you're ttc. And then there's all the guilt etc. Not an easy situation to deal with.

@Wishing56 sorry I don't have advice to offer, but you are still in the very early days if you haven't even missed AF yet so maybe it's ok for the line to be faint? Less sensitive tests might not have picked up a positive by now. Waiting until wed sounds like a good idea.

Good idea. I'm a bit light headed a feel a bit sicky but trying to embrace it and not moan because I know I'm so lucky. My horse is lame at the moment so it's actually been really helpful because I usually compete him most weekends

Argh - tested with a FRER as soon as we got to the hotel and BFN. I'm so confused as I'm now 2-3 days late, but a FRER should definitely have showed a line if I was pregnant, even if it was the afternoon and I've drunk a lot of water today (which is how I was trying to justify it earlier...)

Means I've started our honeymoon with a big cry - ugh. Gonna use the second test tomorrow morning to be sure but I just don't get it!

Will read all your posts below later - just had to come and have a rant! Hope everyone is ok xx

@Louise190 totally justified in feeling that way. Just cry it out, you may find it therapeutic. Does your friend know that you are TTC?

@blackfriars sorry i missed your message earlier think it was a crossed post.
Hope you are ok. Lets us know how you get on with the 2nd FRER. X

Just did the second FRER and also a BFN. Feeling less upset about this one as I was prepared for it at least. I guess I must have ovulated late and maybe that explains why I never got a static smiley on my fertility monitor?

Really annoying as not only am I not pregnant, but I guess my cycles aren't as regular as I thought so will still need to use OPKs going forwards, which I was hoping to do away with.

God this really is an emotional roller coaster sometimes isn't it. I was really convinced I was pregnant, and had let myself start to think about milestones of when we were seeing various family members in the autumn and could tell them...stupid really. So sad to disappoint DH too - I had really got his hopes up and I feel bad for that. Really glad I'm away with just him to get him head straight. None of my friends have ever gone through this - either got pregnant literally first month of trying or haven't TTC yet - and it's a bit of a lonely place to be I must admit.

@Louise190 and @Dweebette - hope you guys are feeling a bit better today, and @Wishing56 hope you aren't feeling too sick xx

Oops sorry got mixed up there, that should be @keeponsmiling2019 hope you aren't feeling too sick! @Wishing56 not too sure about the lines but I don't think anything to worry about? When will you go to the GP? X

@Dweebette oh wow, that's bad! On the other hand though, I bet they were bloody embarrassed!! I've actually stopped using those sorts of apps now as they were sending me insane!

@Skyla01 I honestly have no idea! It's something that has always baffled me! You're right, it's the why not me, the jealousy AND the guilt.

@Wishing56 yes, she knows we're ttc. That circle of friends are the first and only people I told.

Thanks for your kind words ladies. Luckily DP has some wise words and hugged me whilst I ugly cried. I'm due to go round there with everyone soon and I know that'll be s hot topic and I just don't know if I can face it!

@blackfriars really sorry about your bfn, especially with your body playing tricks on you with the late af. I don't want to falsely get your hopes up but you're not out until AF arrives, and if you did ovulate late might still be too early for a positive test? Just a thought.
I know exactly what you mean about thinking about autumn dates in your head- I catch myself doing the same! With such a potential huge life change on the horizon it's so hard not to think about it. But obviously then really hard when those dates pass by and you're still ttc. I really hope you're feeling better today. And a lovely holiday will be just the thing to cheer you up.

@blackfriars so sorry about your BFN. Use it as an excuse to indulge in a few drinks on honeymoon now though, relax and enjoy it.

@Louise190 what do you use to track your cycles? With mine being so irregular after coming off the pill I needed something to give me an idea of when AF will arrive. I have planned to start temping next cycle though the thermometer I ordered hadn't arrived yet. Also got some preseed, fingers crossed for cycle 7!

My body is definitely playing tricks on me this cycle. I'm 13DPO, CD33. I have cramps (milder than usual), sore boobs, my nipples are giving Jennifer Aniston a run for her money and I'm having insane dreams. Have also had a couple of dizzy spells and a bit of nausea so I think my hormones are just all over the place. I'm sure AF will come on time on Tuesday but it's hard not to get my hopes up when a lot of what I'm feeling is also an early pregnancy sign! Why does pg and AF have to feel the same??

@Dweebette I use an app called P Tracker. I've used it to track my periods for years. It has all the TTC features but doesn't have any of the articles and you can turn certain notifications off. It allows an element of ignorance which I much prefer!

@Dweebette I know what you mean- it's hard not to read too much in to every little symptom, whether you're looking for signs of ovulation or af or pregnancy. I think all hormonal symptoms are the same no matter the cause! That said, you do have some interesting symptoms... you never know! Hope your AF doesn't arrive.
I'm also struggling with irregular cycles. I think I might try OPKs next month to help give me an idea, although I know they aren't fool-proof. I'm not a good sleeper so I don't think temping would suit me. I'm currently cd32. Best guess I might have ovulated yesterday, but I already has two other times earlier in the month I thought might have been ov. Who knows?! My tww keeps rolling over!

@Skyla01 how annoying!! I tried OPKs this cycle hoping for some reassurance but gave up after 2 weeks of testing with not a sniff of a positive. Having really sharp and painful cramps this evening so thinking AF might even make an appearance a day early tomorrow. Just wish she would so we could get cracking on cycle 7 to be honest, the waiting is the worst bit!

Morning ladies,

@Skyla01 I have to admit I still have a little bit of hope...reading lots of false negative stories on here which is probably a bad idea. I've woken up with cramps more like pre AF cramps today and the past two days, but still no sign of AF which is confusing me even more! Your irregular cycles sound really frustrating - what has your longest one been so far?

@Dweebette totally agree that the waiting is the worst bit! I wish we just knew what was going on so we could make our peace with it!

@Louise190 glad DH has been looking after you, and hope you're feeling better today? How are these people getting pregnant by accident?!? I hate to say it but I can't even remember a time when sex wasn't connected with TTC in my head!

Our current plan is to do another test if still no AF when we get back on Friday, and then book a dr appointment I think.