Hi ladies,
Just checking in to say I think I'm checking out. I turned 43 last week and DH will be 50 next year. The loss of our precious little girl has put the frightners on us. We simply cannot go through it again.
We have DD (4). She's my world. I've spent the last week testing out my new decision on my everyday life. It feels ok. I've let go.
My delivery should have been a couple of weeks ago. It was really hard. My mum made her a memorial stone which now sits on my GP's grave. She's not coming back and I have to be ok with that.
I want to re-emphasise that the spina bifida was NOT age related. If we have a happy accident and everything goes ok then I might be back on here! But I think I have stopped striving for it.
Baby dust to all of you. Thank you for your kind words and support during my darkest months. I wish you all every happiness. I'm sure I'll still be reading 😉 xxx