@MyHeartIsBrokeButIHaveSomeGlue how you are feeling after seeing the BFP is completely normal after what you've been through, and 100% the reason this thread exists... It's an awful feeling wanting to bury your head in the sand at a time like this when you feel like you should be feeling really happy and joyful; but there are no shoulds. You deal with this pregnancy how you need to. I would encourage you to call your GP and discuss how you're feeling, and definitely get your early scan... But apart from making sure you're being sensible about looking after your body, you can totally give yourself permission to distract the hell out of yourself and attempt not to think about it most of the time (if you can). Stay strong! You can do this!
@ikphillips That does seem like a ridiculous amount of time to wait for results! Maybe ask for a copy of your results and/or notes. I'm pretty sure they have to oblige within 30 days of a written request... Hopefully you'll get a call from the consultant though. Mind you, thinking about it, it doesn't surprise me. Going through RMC I had tests done in early December and didn't get my results until 16 weeks later... So frustrating, BUT I wasn't trying at the time so didn't feel the need to know the results ASAP, which I completely understand you wanting to do as you're still trying.
fnej01 Yes, from what I've heard you have to wear a pantie-liner if you insert the pessaries in the front entrance. 
. I've only been prescribed one a day.
@Mistymeow We might try to get away somewhere this year...
I like doing physical activities to distract myself too. When I was recovering from my first MC I made two cushion covers, an apron and a patch-work ball... DIY isn't really an option as we rent... I'm going to think hard about what project I can start.
@InDreamland No, no one is allowed to judge you for how you cope with having lost two babies... especially babies you thought were your little miracles after so long trying. If anyone says anything and you feel unable to react how you'd like to to their face, either write them a message after (you don't have to send it to them, depending how you feel...) or find a pillow to shout at as if it's their face and really go to town letting your feelings out. (Tip: Punching pillows as hard as you can is not illegal... Just saying ) Hugs xxx
I chased up with my GP today because I handed in my hospital prescriptions the week before last and the pharmacy hadn't received anything; I hadn't had chance to chase them up with the wedding distractions of last week. They've now sent the prescriptions through to my pharmacy, so I should be able to pick them up at the end of the week. I've decided I'm going to start taking the meds to lower the prolactin as soon as I get them (was wondering about waiting until after the heart echo, but no one has explicitly told me to wait, and from what I've read it's not a routine check and I think my endocrinologist is maybe just being hyper-efficient without actually needing to be... I'm sick of waiting around, so I'll plough on instead). I'm still going to wait until my next cycle to start trying though, just to give my body a chance to react to the meds. From what I've heard they work quite quickly though. I'm actually feeling excited at the prospect of trying again. Three months ago the thought still terrified me. 