The July 19ers - The rollercoaster continues, scream if you wanna go faster

[Frazzlerock]

We can do this ladies.

We can take on anything

So sorry that AF came Dartmoor, those lines looked really promising.

Hopefully all is fine Buggles, I guess they're super cautious about things like this. Thanks for the article on NIPT, that's interesting.

@Buggles1 FX for your sister

@DartmoorDoughnut .... sorry AF cane... and sorry if I'm missing something... but just cancel your DH's apt? Surely he can't be that set of the snip immediately if you are TTC?? What's the rush??

He does want another baby @tigsyboo I’m desperate for one. He’d cancel if I asked him to but I can’t argue with his reasoning, not only that he doesn’t want one (he’d be fine if either of the two miscarriages had stuck but he’s 44 this year and doesn’t want to be an even older dad) plus I’m a SAHM so financially it’s all on him.

I guess I look at the 'what would I regret more' scenario - giving it another 6 months or literally cutting off your chances. In the grand scheme of things a baby a few months later seems worth it.... hope you don't mind me saying x

@Kinsters thank you. It's hard to not be anxious after mc, don't I know i, I was petrified when I got my BFP in November for our July rainbow. Fx this one sticks though.

@Buggles1 oh no that's so scary. Fx all is still ok for her.

@DartmoorDoughnut so sorry AF showed. That's such a head f**k. I got a very clear line on a FRER (which was way darker than the last 2 days before that) an hour before I started bleeding in November with mc#2 so I understand that feeling.

Still feeling like poo today. Just angry with world and feel like I give so much and work so hard but this is my reward whilst others seem to sail through with no problems.

@tigsyboo no I completely get it, the problem is he’s Army and very rigid about what is right and wrong, he requested the snip when I was pregnant so I was of course on board. He can’t delay the date any further so would need to cancel it and re-request one in the future which he sees as wasting NHS time and resources. So he’d cancel it if I pushed him to but he’d not like doing it and is here already any point in cancelling it if he isn’t 100% on board with a third? I honestly don’t know what to do, would love to ask him to cancel but don’t want him to resent me/another child if we’re lucky enough to even get another!

I'm so sorry AF has showed up @Dartmoor, I honestly can't believe those tests - I would have taken them as a positive... such a tough one re the snip. I don't know what to suggest, can completely see your DHs reasoning but as @tigsy said, it's very final and he could regret it in 6 months.

@Dreamland I'm so sorry you're feeling so low still.

I feel like I've been hit by a bus this morning. Doing what I can with work but just having a lazy day, DH is wth too today so is able to help me out a bit.
Tested this morning, FRER, I'm 9dpo and not even a hint of a line.

@DartmoorDoughnut just my opinion ... I think I'd regret not speaking about it more than the consequences of talking. No one resents a baby. X

Brown bleeding this evening just the tiniest tiniest amount but now I'm freaking out.

@Kinsters oh no, try not to freak, it's probably just old blood from your cervix. Have you had any cramps etc? xx

No cramps but I never get period cramps anyway (except when I started to MC last time). There's enough now that it shows up on the panty liner I put in. Just small spots of brown blood.

Fucks sake.

I don't dare do another test because I'm scared it will be negative.

Have you called the EPU/GP?
No idea whether it could be implantation bleeding? Fx'd it's just baby Kin getting nice and snuggly in there.
Keeping everything crossed xxx

We don't have epu here. I'll go see my Dr in the morning if AF doesn't properly start tonight though.

@Kinsters (((((hugs))))) everything crossed

Thanks for the support both!

I just want to keep running off to check my pants (feel a bit wet) but we're having dinner with FIL and BIL so I can't.

@Kinsters keeping everything crossed for you xxx

@kinsters - I had bleeding this time too. I tested at 10DPO which was Thursday and then I had some brown bleeding on the Friday and Saturday and then it stopped on the Sunday. It must have been implantation so I hope it is the same for you too.

@ratherbe - 9DPO is still very early so I wouldn't count yourself out fully yet.....

I hope it's just that edi.

Home now and there's one small line of brown blood mixed with cm. My period does always start very lightly exactly like this though. Technically I'm not even late yet as last cycle I didn't start bleeding till 14dpo and today is only 12.

I have everything crossed for you @Kinsters, probably absolutely nothing to worry about but it would be impossible not to!

How you doing @Kinsters? Not sure of the time difference but hope you’re fast asleep and your little bean is just snuggling in

Properly bleeding and cramping now so I'm pretty sure it's over.

@Kinsters oh God I’m so sorry, sending you hugs. You should probably test just to make sure x

Thanks Rose. I'm not going to test, it would be a waste and I don't want to see it. There's clots in my blood so I'm pretty sure I wouldn't still be pregnant after this.

I'll start temping again tomorrow and that should confirm it.

@kinsters - oh no - I am so sorry.
How are you this morning? xx