The July 19ers - The rollercoaster continues, scream if you wanna go faster

[Frazzlerock]

We can do this ladies.

We can take on anything

Coping edi because what else can I do really. Not very productive at work (hence replying so quickly on here lol). I'm going to go try and see my dr tomorrow morning although I expect her waiting room will be really busy with pregnant ladies cause it'll be Saturday morning. Oh well, I'll try and get there early enough that I can be seen first. The good thing about Malaysians is they're never early for things so being British I have the advantage there...

How are you feeling? You must be getting to the stage where symptoms will hopefully start easing off soon?

@Rather I agree with @edidxb that 9dpo is still very early so you're not out yet.

@Kinsters I'm so sorry! This is just so shit.

Yep it is InDreamland, back to CD1 with a bump. What cycle day are you on now?

@Kinsters I can't believe this. I really can't. I'm so so sorry xxx

Me too Tigsy I really thought this one would be OK. I'm young, healthy weight, don't drink (unless I'm on holiday), have cut out caffeine, don't smoke, take vitamins, not hugely stressed. It seems really unfair.

This will be my third as I'm pretty sure I had a chemical before the pregnancy that went to 8 weeks. I can get pregnant easily it seems (especially considering we've had a few cycles with poor timing). They just don't stick.

Came on here with my fx'd for good news... @Kinsters I am so, so sorry. I hope the cramps aren't too bad. Sending you lots of love xxx

Thanks @edidxb & @InDreamland - I know it's early but have all the standard AF signs. Have no tests in the house so will try to wait until Tuesday when AF would be late. Hate seeing the negative tests 😢

X post @Kinsters...
It's always the way isn't it. And you see the women puffing on fags with a can of cider in their hand with a massive bump pushing a pram... so, so unfair.

And that awful woman in the papers this morning whose the mother of baby Pearl

I agree with you on the negative tests, hate them. Still holding out hope for you though. I really don't think it's possible to tell from luteal phase symptoms (not for me anyway).

@Kinsters I'm on CD9 and OPK just gone flashing smiley this morning. Hoping it goes static by Tuesday.

@rather you're not out until the witch shows. I totally agree with what you say, I feel like screaming at pregnant women who just carry on drinking, smoking, doing drugs etc. It just feels so unfair when we're doing all the right things and yet we are here yet others who just lead an obviously extremely unhealthy lifestyle seem to breeze through and can have a baby.

So sorry Kinsters. Is so very hard when you feel like you’ve done everything right but things still don’t work. We’re the same as you - seem to fall pregnant quickly but then can’t retain it. I keep saying to myself that at least they test for reasons once you’ve had three mc. That is the only upside if I do mc again.

Morning all, @Kinsters really sorry to hear what's happened. It is maddening isn't it when you're making all the effort and yet there's no discernible reason why they go wrong.

I get really cross too when I see parents/carers being unkind to their children. Especially when they are getting cross and being cruel to them because they're just being kids. You know? Yes kids can drive you a bit nuts sometimes with their relentless energy and it's tiring being endlessly patient but it kills me when children are branded as 'naughty' when they're just being, well, kids. I can't stand seeing small children being punished for not acting like mini adults. It makes me sad and cross.

That rant was brought on by the smoking/drinking while pregnant conversation by the way. Not just a random rant!!

It's ok @Betty, none of us thought you were just venting I totally agree with you. One of my nephews is constantly slated by MIL (her DGD) for being "naughty" and not wanting to play football/rough games with his cousins. Instead he'd prefer to sit in and quietly draw/bake/Lego etc. Really upsetting to hear how "rude" and "stubborn" he apparently is, simply because he doesn't want to kick a ball

Although... some kids are just a pain! My step nephew is a real nasty piece of work, sly, manipulative, constantly picking for a reaction out of his cousins and then crying when he gets it in order to get them into trouble. He's a product of his environment tho as my sis-in-law is a prick too!!

GP booked me a re-assurance scan next Friday at 7+2. I feel like the minute it was booked all my symptoms stopped and not I'm in worry mode 😩

Now* not not

@kinsters I suppose getting on with it is the only way.......just sorry it’s so rubbish. Hope the doctor can help maybe tomorrow. Not sure how but maybe some tests etc?

@tigsy my symptoms got loads better at the start of this week. Wasn’t as tired, some nausea but not as much, metallic taste gone etc. then I went to the doctor on Tuesday and by Tuesday evening they were back with a vengeance and I have felt rotten ever since.

@rose68 and @frazzlerock I wasn’t really posting the other day but I just want to say I hope you are both ok. I totally get why you would want to disappear as TTC is such a tough thing especially if you want to TTC and it’s not even happening. However we all really care about both of you and I hope everything is OK.

@pegase how are you doing now and feeling?

@indreamland I am sorry you are feeling so rubbish about everything at the moment. I wish I could wave a magic wand for you. Do you have any more tests coming up?

Really sorry @Kinsters sending you (((hugs)))

Fingers crossed @ratherbeshowjumping we could do with some more good news!

I have good news, DH and I chatted last night, all v calm and no drama and he’s agreed to cancel the appt for the snip obvs I hope I conceive (and stay pregnant!) ASAP but it’s such a relief having the pressure off of this cycle being my last chance! He’s a diamond ❤️

@DartmoorDoughnut I knew it!!!! Yes!!!!

And like that guinea pig murdering child you had to deal with Tigsy! Symptoms are so finicky, they seem to come and go for loads of women.

Ah that's great news Dartmoor, must be a big weight off your shoulders.

Haven't seen @TwittleBee for a while - hope you're doing ok and not too stressed with your work situation x

I'm pretty emotional this evening. I think I'll wait a couple of weeks before going to see my dr, I just know if I go tomorrow I'll be a sobbing mess and it'll be embarrassing and awful for everyone. The healthcare system here doesn't really do appointments so I can just turn up at her office whenever I feel ready. I don't know what I'd want from her really. I guess just to talk about whether I should be getting any blood tests to check hormone levels, maybe see if she can scan and see how my lining looks and whether there are any obvious fibroids or uterus issues etc (though I'd have thought anything like that would be visible on the scans I had when I MC'd).

Yayyy @Dartmoor that's absolutely fab news. So thrilled for you!

@Kin I was thinking of that girl too whilst reading @tigsy's post. Awful child.
I'm so sorry you're feeling so down. I literally have no words, I genuinely don't know what to say to make you feel better. It's so sad and it sounds like you have been really strong so far I hope your DH doesn't have to go away any time soon and can stay home and look after you? xxx

He's off on Sunday for ten days 😭 at least I have my cats...

I think the only thing that would make me happier is someone telling me that they could see into the future and see me and DH with a happy family! I'm OK though, we can get through this.

So pleased he’s changed him mind for a while @dartmoor, great news.
I often think of that crystal ball scenario too @Kinsters. These things are ridiculously challenging but life goes on and we make of it what we will. The more time spent dwelling the less time progressing ay. Glad you’re being positive hun x

Very sorry @Kinsters. I swear when I can TTC again I won't test until about AF is a month late as having the hope snatched away is so cruel. Although I know that won't happen really because it is just so tempting.

Still bleeding here and on sex ban post ERPC so no news at all

I think we all understand @Betty. When we were at the EPU for our first pregnancy/mc the were some pregnant women standing outside smoking and I felt like screaming and slapping them. I'd just lost my baby and there they were still obviously pregnant smoking away.

@edidxb just waiting for results from my NHS blood test and DH's DNA fragmentation at the private clinic.

@tigsy is good you have a reassurance scan.

@Dartmoor that's great news ans such a relief for you as it must take off the pressure.

@Kinsters this is just the shittiest thing to go through. Definitely ask for all the tests possible when you see your doctor. If you find that crystal ball can you let me know as I'd like too have a go too.