The July '19ers - knocked down, but never beaten

[Frazzlerock]

Hey @TinselBee, @Rose68, @BettySwoll0cks

Here is the thread I promised us.

Somewhere for us to help eachother, pick one another up, cry, scream, laugh..

Some of us may be looking to try again, some may be putting things on hold. Whatever our plans, lets get through this together.

(I don't know whether conception was the right choice of topic, I can always have this moved to a more suitable topic if anyone would like me to)

I will look through our threads again and see if I can @mention anyone else who might like to join us

edidxb watery EW is closer consistency to the fertility lube is texture so must be? I often find my EW gets more watery closer to Ov I get. Usually just mark it down as EW still though out of habit.

Totally understand that odd sensation of happy but also sad. It is hard.

Thank you edidxb and Rather I will try to stay positive

@Rachy I agree with Twittle, which would also fit with you thinking your last cycle was annovulatory. I expect it will happen this month, but I think your body is still recovering.

@Betty I don’t know much about pregnancy and breastfeeding, but I do know that plenty of women conceive and go on to have healthy babies while breastfeeding. Including my Mum with my sister (bfing me) and my sister with my niece. In both cases it was the breastfeeding that was affected and not the pregnancy. I know you are looking for reasons, but it’s so unlikely to be anything you have done. xxx

@edidxb she thinks she is?
It'll be great for her if she is, but uugghh for you x

I guess you might be right :(
I’ve called GP and asked for furher hcg test to check its zero
Had to tell a teeny white lie and say hpt shows feint lines still.... but hey ho, that’s why I see that NI deduction off my pay each month!!!
Waiting for call back now x

See if you can talk to her about the odd bleeding too? Are you feeling well in yourself btw? If not, then see if you can get reffered for an Ultrasound to check it has all passed?

I feel ok, a little cramps at times.
I might ask for it anyway can't hurt x

@Frazzlerock she is in the TWW and has all the symptoms she had with her previous baby but is yet to test....

Rachy certainly worth asking! Hope all goes okay

edidxb must say I am pretty surprised she shared that with you when she doesnt know for sure? Surely she would have known it would be a bit hard to hear?

FRERs have arrived a day early so gonna test tomorrow now

Urgh FF reckons I'm only 5dpo and I've got solid cross hairs with that!?!? Urgh!!!!!

That's so frustrating Twittle. It's impossible to know what effect the factors leading to the open circles on CD19, 20 and 26 had on your temp. Changing them would probably affect the crosshairs. Fingers crossed for the FRER. Don't stress about one night of not enough sleep, I think it's probably more important what your average is.

Rachy hope you get some answers from your gp. I've only been in limbo what's going on with my cycle for 5 days and I'm already going spare so for a month or more must be so hard.

ratherbe you're so right. I don't think any of us could have stopped this happening by doing or not doing something.

edidxb yeah I don't think I'd take progesterone. I'd probably "cash in" the prescription and take it only if progesterone was low but keep in mind that it was probably not going to work out. Ergh it's so hard to know what to do.

Frazzle glad your temp is continuing to go up. Your cycles sound really quite regular. Do you think your pcso is "in remission" (can't think of a better word)?

Jet lag is catching up with me and I'm knackered this evening, thank god its the weekend. No more cm and no more opks in the house. Should dtd tonight but I'm so tired. Will see if DH is up for an on my back quickie 😂

Might have got a promotion at work despite telling my boss about the miscarriage and embarrassingly crying about it (he told me privately that he'd recommended me for promotion but nothing has officially been announced).

Okay so top one in pic is current chart, second one is if I remove the anomalies, last one is if I remove the OPKs...

I am now thinking those 2 BFaintP were picking up on residual hcg and I'm only 4/5dpo...

So rather getting a BFP on my birthday I will hopefully have conceived on my birthday instead... ah well...

I guess that could be the case Twittle but whatever you do to your chart it looks like you ovulated prior to the positive test. Is it possible to ovulate with residual HCG in your system? I guess maybe it is because isn't it HCG they use in ivf to trigger ovulation? I'm not sure though.

Like I said upthread this whole thing is a mindfuck.

Don't we usually have around 10miu in our systems anyway? So perhaps I have around 15miu as still bit residual and that's from MC but still low enough to ovulate?

Fuck knows though, you're right. complete mind fuck. Gonna have a drink tonight, fuck it

Ffs, I am so sorry this is all about me atm! But I just went to the loo and I had, what can only be described as, mucus plug in my pants... can't really mistake it for anything else. Big jellyfish, bit green on colour. Had this last pregnancies too... so mind fucked.

@twittlebee you need to use one of your Frers. If it's positive I think we Can you are pregnant. If it's negative I think at this stage it's probably negative.
I think you are pregnant! That's what I am putting my money on!!
You are right though. What an absolute head messing game this is.

Ohh @Twittle what could that be? I remember you saying something about the plug in our July group. But surely not this early on!?
When does the plug develop?

I agree you should do a test, if you're getting pregnancy symptoms then you should be able to test. It would be annoying to waste a frer though if you're only 5dpo, I agree with edidxb though and think you ovulated earlier.

@Twittlebee I had something similar in my pregnancies, strange discharge stuff some was jelly like in the very early days before I actually took a test. Use a FRER first thing in the morning and fx it's a BFP for you.

I think AF has started, little pink when I wiped after using the loo. That's all chances of being pregnant by the time first baby's due date gone - I should be 37 weeks today.

Everyone is being ever do polite.... for the love of god @twittle do a test!!!!! 😂

I decided to do a digital test myself just to double triple check my levels were low ebough not to register .... £14 for a twin pack.... BOTH came up with error and no reading!!!! 🤬

Got blood test tomorrow and can discuss scan if results not 0 on Tuesday.....

There can’t be retained product if it’s 0 can there??

For blood tests I was told in November when I had one that HCG below 5 meant not pregnant.

I agree @rachy do a test Twittle.... we are all rooting for you!! xxx

Little update, I did another test just now and got a solid smiley... little cramps on my left side so hoping that's ovulation. Absolutely hoping and praying dh doesn't have "performance problems" again tonight

Yeah go @rather! Slip some viagra into DH's dinner

keep sending him raunchy text messages to get him in the mood