The Hut of Gl/doom part IV- it's still never going to happen- but ^in^ ^style^, yes

[duchesse]

After all that desert sand, we are in serious need of slightly damper place...

This one is a hamam, complete with essential oils and thick Turkish towelling bath sheets. Mosaics on the floors, marble pools. You get the picture. It still needs some decorating though.

We have had a few graduates (OK, quite a few), which is good, but time to dust off the old Hut for those of us who are still barren.

I can't think of anything suitable to say. It's terrible, and I am so sorry for you both.

Lots of love to you both, Lissie and Rainbowdays.

Lissie, Rainbowdays, how are you doing today?

Thanks for all the messages, I spent much of yesterday crying, but it was quite cathartic in a way, I was dreading coming to work today and having to test the babies this morning, but I survived and it was ok, I think I was just running on autopilot, but it was ok. My dh and I had spent the previous day laughing and joking about names and we had started calling the 'baby' Thomas. It is strange how it has seemed to have helped to acknowledge the little life, even if it did not last for long. So overall today I am feeling much better, but I don't suppose I can say I am over it or recovered, but time will help.

Lissie, they told me it was no point in scanning as there would be nothing to see! I am not sure that is exactly true, but I was pleased to be able to know the hcg levels were decreasing, just to know for certain. I hope that the doc is sympathetic with you today, and I really hope that they will start taking it all more seriously for you and look into if there is a reason that you have had so many losses. Hope you are taking it easy on yourself. I did take the day off yesterday, and I am glad that I did, I needed the time to greive with dh and spend time at home.

Rainbowdays, I'm pleased you and dh are able to talk and cry freely about this. That sounds healthy. My heart goes out to you.

I was coming in for a little moan but then I read the threads.

I am so sorry Rainbowdays, I know that doesn't really help but at least you know you are not alone.

Lissie I am thinking about you to.

Hope everyone else is ok and I will chat later

Hi sorry I have bounced up and feeling too ok to really be here, but I wanted to come back to see how Lissie is. Thank you all for your kind words, it really did help. I have been pleasently surprised at how nice my body has been to me over this, I keep thinking it can't be over yet, but hey if it is then it is!

Babybratt - do moan, this is the place for it!

This place is a safehaven from the odd people that keep posting weird things like "am I pregnant" and expect an answer!!!

Oh god, have you noticed those weirdos as well? Surely they arent for real? How the feck am I supposed to know if they're pregnant?

Oh yes, using my special powers. The ones I use to get pregnant when I want to...

So sorry to hear about the losses for lissie and rainbowdays.

Lissie, if you have had a number of m/cs, have you had any medical advice on ways to maybe help? I have a friend who had about five m/cs prior to having a successful pg. She was given aspirin and that seemed to help.

I'm not entirely that would help Lissie, Newkid. Her problem as I understand is the amount of scar tissue present in her uterus and tubes, that cause repeat ectopics and miscarriages. It may be that there are other issues, and i know that aspirin helps where there are clotting problems with the woman, but am not sure it would help Lissie.

i thought lissie is taking aspirin?

hoping she is ok, she has been quiet the last day or 2.

hi all! yes, i am taking asprin and high dose folic aciid, tbh i think the prob, as duchesse says, is the scar tissue on my uterus and tubes. add to that the uterine group b strep that went undetected for 10d . sorry ive not been on, been hibernating. this hillls thing knocked me as well as the obvious.

Hi lissie! How feeling?

not too bad, sad/angry/confused but sadly, not surprised. i just keep thinking should i give up?

Ah, yes, that tricky old chestnut.

Different in your case than mine of course, since you actually do get pregnant. Depends on how much crap you can suck up with your long-term goal in mind...

I do apologise for that revolting simile- I am eating lunch too, so you'd think I could type without making myself feel sick...

Also sorry if that sounded insensitive. Didn't mean to be. Am just bitter and twisted. Sorry.

im just drained now. i hate having a scale for mc's. dh asked how i was i said not as bad as last time but worse than the third one. still at least i didnt nearly die this time. i know that sounds callous but i cant even think of them as pgs anymore, and im terrified of getting pg again.

Oh Lissie, DO make sure you are looking after yourself VERY carefully.
Take a very comfy chair in the haman and a nice cup of tea (can be Turkish but am thinking maybe just PG!).2 year anniversary of last m/c on Saturday. Am looking forward to that! Will that be the day I 'give up' on ever getting another chance? Don't think that's likely. Going to a party on Saturday and I'm just hoping no-one announces any pgs.

Lissie, I've just heard, I'm so sorry for you.

xx

oh soreheart! im sorry.

bella, thank you.

Is it just me... or has anyone else started to get really wound up by the "help!I think I might be pregnant, faint BFP at 3dpo" threads?

I know I sound like a complete and utter bitch... it's totally irrational, and most unlike me. But argh. Sigh.

Sorry.

Ok. As soon as I clicked POST, I knew I shouldn't have posted it that. Sorry ladies. I am just having a Negative Norma day.

I do hope I haven't offended anyone. If I have, I am sorry.

hehe.

rant away, its the ones moaning about ms that get me. i would fucking love morning sickness

Haha. I am so glad it isn't just me then. Phew.

Don't get me started about MS complaints, my BF is "suffering" with that, and it takes all my strength to not tell her to FECK OFF. I would LOVE MS right now!