TTC after MC April 07 - Return to the Mother Ship

[popsy76]

Hi Ladies, thought I would just grab the bull by the proverbial horns and get this going. Hope the name is okay. MrsMc I am afraid we will all be thinking of you and your DH (and his light saber) everytime we post

Too many individual posts to go back and answer so I thought I'd start with a positive message for all of us from the March thread and for any MC newbies...

Today is my 1 month MN anniversary and I do not know what I would have done without you all. It is the ability to get on here and "let it all out" that keeps me going. I have been blessed to have found you all and whatever lies in my future - your kindness and advice will stay with me forever.

Big Love and Hip hip hooray for a fabulous new positive thread POPSY xxxx

p.s. Gilly get your arse down to london - we can drink the bars dry of Rose (purely medicinal of course )

Mrsmcjr - thanks for asking. I'm okay thanks. I have ascan tomorow just to ensure all has completely gone...

But I know I will have another baby one day...

MrsMj
Pls don't worry about sounding happy - it is great to have an injection of hope and happiness It reminds me that it is possible. It made me feel really excited to imagine you both watching the flickering heartbeat. Sorry to sound sappy, but the whole thing is such a miracle - at least this wait has made me truly appreciate it. Tbh with dd I was mostly feeling sorry for myself re morning sickness. Oh to have my head down a loo now

Hee hee my dastardly plan worked I was so alluring last night that he forgot the condoms hurray

ellieG fingers crossed for you
harveysaunt I am totally perplexed and trying to guess who has been missing from the thread for a while arghhh (are you about to move to London?)
everyone hello from me!

Hello Alittlebitshy fingers crossed AF stays away.

Mumto3girls ? thinking of you today hon, if it has to be over, I hope it is the end and that you don?t have to go through anything else, hugs.

Iwillbe ? thanks

Hello EllieG ? well done!

Popsy hello!

Well, after all my relief, I started spotting last night, nothing major, brown cm really (sorry to TMI) I was shattered anyway when I discovered it and totally freaked out. As a consequence, I slept badly and feel even worse today. I?m still spotting too. I know it happens and I know all the reasons why it could be happening and still be ok but because I also know the dark side, I can?t help but worry and I just feel exhausted

oh MrsMC , I won't go through all the things it could be, you will know them all. I would be just the same, having suffered a loss in the past the possibility will always be on our mind. How are you feeling otherwise, do you still have other symptoms? Are you at work hon? Can you get away early to get a cuddle from someone close to you? Am thinking of you xxxx

Hi everyone else- I will catch up in my lunch break- there's alot to read!

oh mrs mcj, have you rang your doctor?

Hi MrsMc
God these babies give us a run for our money don't they? Everyone will be giving you loads of advice so I won't weigh in with more of the same. Just take some deep breaths and remember how strong and amazing you are and the fact that we are all here for you. Huge hugs.

Hi MrsMc - don't worry, everything will be fine. There is such a low risk of it going wrong once you have seen a heartbeat on the scan. My heart totally goes out to you though, there but for the grace of God go all of us.

My AF came this morning - after six weeks! - and I go from being quite bright ("Oh well there's always next month"/ "March is a better time to have a baby anyway"/"It is only my first month trying") to being absolutely distraught ("I'll never have a baby"/"My stupid body"/"Why is everyone else PG and not me")

But I have dragged myself into work and feel OK right now. The weeks are flying by anyway so it won't be long till I can symptom spot again.

We didn't have sex on the right day last month (so annoyed at myself for that) as EWCM came a week before so can't complain really!

Well done Ellie for getting DH in the sack with no condom!

Mrs Mcj
Can imagine how you are feeling but just keep thinking of that strong heartbeat. It will take nerves of steel but try and just rest. (Sorry to state the obvious once again!)

Have just bumped into a friend who broke the news that she is pg again. Has a child a year younger than dd, then another one (about 9ms) and is pg again. I think I made a reasonable attempt at seeming pleased for her but have come home and keep crying. Why is this so bloody difficult??

MrsMC: thinking of you. big hugs x

Iwillbepositive - my heart goes out to you. My SIL had her scan yesterday. She is 12 and a half weeks. Why is her baby OK when mine died? I didn't react very well when DH told me. It is his brother's wife so my DH is delighted for them.

I think they are the spawn of satan

MrsMcjr - I hope all is well for you. I know you will be an expert on why people spot, how much, what colours mean etc etc, but I will have my fingers crossed for you.
My scan this morning revealed an empty womb, just very thickened and irregular lining, which is apparently normal for someone miscarrying.
Unfortunately they can't call this over until hcg levels have been checked today and perhaps again in 48 hrs.

I also had a blood test for lupus today.

Mumto3 - sorry for you hon

MrsMc - try and rest - thinking of you and hope is all OK.

nh - how you feeling now?

I have bought myself an ovulation stick thing to test to see if was ovulating when jumped DP last night. Think am getting a bit sneaky and obsessive. Should I be worrying?

Hi all

Ellie I like your evil plan!! I don't think you should be worried at all

herby I agree with it being worse your crap consultant is female, you would hope she would be more understanding regarding a matter which is so obviously going to be emotionally tough. Sorry if I raised your hopes- the homerton consultant was in dermatology so nothing to do with ttc. Perhaps zita west would be an idea, at least lifting the burden of decision making off your shoulders. I agree it's tiring. At the moment I feel every decision is too much and I've lumbered it all on DH.

Hi winky- when is AF due? Hope you aren't driving yourself mad symptom spotting

popsylissienhiwillbe- I agree with you about the pg friends being so tough. I had a bad day of it yesterday and whilst I wouldnt wish it on you lot, I was glad to know its not just me being mad and sad. Yesterday it seemed that everyone was coming up to me and announcing there pregnancy. I really felt like shouting 'why the f* do you think i'd care'? I went out with an old male friend last night who never talks about anything remotely to do with girls or babies, so was looking forward to some male banter when he revealed his friend has just got his girlfriend of 4 weeks pg!!! I nearly slapped him. I am like a nervous wreck, whenever someone starts a conversation with 'i've got something to tell you...', I literally go white and start shaking (even though its usually just gossip/new job/engagement/ skirt stuck in my knickers etc). I have lost the plot!

nh so sorry AF is here, but on the plus side if you can find one at least you know a bit more about your cycle. I found my 2nd AF was much stronger than my 1st so have told myself that each time my womb is getting much thicker and stronger to carry a baby safely.

kensgirl- good luck!! keep us posted.

mrsmc I hope you are feeling a bit better and can take time to send positive vibes to your blue beanie. You are not flaunting your pg girl! far from it, I find you a real inspiration. And my rant about pg women above in no way applies to you or anyone else on this thread!

alittlebit good luck to you too! and its good to see your cycle seems to be getting back to normal.

mumto3 really sorry you have to go through this , big hugs to you xx

OK - am confused. According to ovulation calendar on babyhopes etc I was at most fertile yesterday/today ish but have just peed on an ovulation stick thing and it says no elevated 'LH surge' thing - does this mean am not ovulating when I thought I was? I cheated a little bit with the test as I did it a bit before it said you should cos I needed the loo really badly don't know if that makes any difference.
Is all very confusing. Wouldn't it be nice to go back to the good ol' innocent days when getting PG seemed like such an easy, natural thing?

What I meant to ask was - is the little stick thing the most reliable indicator of ovulation? Or could I have still BD'd at the right time?

Hi Ellie - no idea about OV sticks, but they seem to me to be more trouble than they are worth, I don't think anyone can work them out.

I am feeling OK about AF now, still a bit teary but haven't burst into tears since a mammoth breakdown at about 11am. It still just feels so unfair though!!!

Torres, this AF is much heavier than the last and painful, the first one after MC wasn't painful at all so maybe it wasn't a proper period. I like your theory about my womb getting stronger though. I was worried about getting PG this month and then thinking my body wasn't ready like last time when I got PG straight after coming off the pill.

Mrsmcj - Oh..How are you? Try to think of that hb just short time away. Browm is usually old blood, maybe from your cervix after the scan if it was internal. Try to rest and stay calm, have you been able to see a doctor. Thinking of you, and sending positive thoughts your way x

Mumto3 - so sorry to hear, hope you are OK, even though I know you won't be x

Oh, nh, sad that af has arrived, I had hopes for you, it helps me if I see cd1 as a chance to pamper myself and mope, and then try and see cd 2 on as fresh chance. Easier said than one, I know only too well.

Hi Torres, I'm trying to focus on af being here within the week or so, think I have all usual pre af symptoms, plus a need to wee lots, that I'm promising myself is the start of a UTI then I can't set myself up for a fall. Again.

Hope everone else is bearing up .

Hello everyone,

Im so sorry that im hiding who i really am but im too scared to. I hate the was that mc stops us from enjoying pregnancy. It should be a wonderful experience but its not. Its terrifying (sp).

popsy - Im not moving to London, sorry.

Im desperate to tell you all but im just far too scared.

Any advice for early pregnancy would be greatly appriciated girls.

mrsmc I would CAT you but dont have the facility. But thank you for the offer.

(Oops nearly put my real name then) xx

How are you today MrsMcJ?

Hey ladies Its my 31st Birthday today!
I am having a fab time already
Today is officially a non- MC day yipeeeee (and I can have a cheeky lunch time drink!)
xxxxxxxxxx

happy birthday popsy!! hope you have a truly wonderful time and get spoilt loads- I'd have more than one lunchtime drink if I were you!! xxx

Happy birthday Popsy! Hope its the start of a great year to come!

How are you today mrsmc? Thinking of you x

Happy birthday Popsy! Have a great day lady, hope there'll be plenty rose this evening!