TTC after pregnancy loss - thread 15 - Christmas miracles

[TheGrumpySquirrel]

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@Zoo33 Yeah :) Just sat watching Anastasia because I'm a 5 year old

Hehe good for you!

@weasledee no it's on Monday. Got my parents staying this weekend, so got to pretend everything is fine all weekend! Thank you for thinking of me. Xx

@UnicornsandRainbows1, have been thinking of you today. Xx

Zoo we’ve had 3 losses this year (last one November) and we’re having a break till the new year (possibly calling it a day too)
DH is coping less the more this goes on... maybe it’s just hit yours a bit at the mo?

At least the parents will be a distraction, hopefully flat x

@weasledee Sorry to hear he's coping badly - it's an interesting male perspective but so so sad.

I don't know, my bf seemed to be taking it pretty well but perhaps it was all a show to be strong for me while I was cracking up and now I'm focusing more on the future it's his turn to crack up?!

Unicorns - I hope you are ok and can relax this weekend.

Flat - I hope this weekend isn't too hard with the wait for Monday.

Weasel - I think men do try to be the strong one then maybe it hits them later. Maybe this is his way of saying he's not sure he could deal with it again.

Coastal - enjoy the food festival. I think there is no point putting life on hold for TTC as you never know how long it will take.

I've got to the end of the week still pregnant. I have booked a doctor's appointment for next week which I was nervous to do but if I lose it before then I guess I'll want to get it put on my records anyway.

My anxiety is sky high. To the point I've been having palpitations. I've also lost 2 pounds in weight through the worry (which wouldn't be an issue but I'm 5 foot 6 and only 8.5 stone).

The only thing that has kept my anxiety down a little is repetitive POAS but that needs to stop. It also only works for about half a day now - earlier in the week I'd at least feel ok all day. I bought a clear blue yesterday as wanted to see what it looked like on a less sensitive test - the test line was as strong as the control line which I'm hoping is a good sign at 18DPO.

@UnicornsandRainbows1 hope you are ok.

@voxnihili i can only imagine your anxiety, could you do something nice to try to relax you, go for wee facial/massage or something.

So yesterday was my first m/c due date, always thought i was bound to be pregnant again at that date & im not which sucks! Myself & hubby were both off work for the day & pottered about doing xmas stuff which was nice. Im temping ths cycle which just panics me when i see a low temp so im def gonna stop i think 😔

I'm doing okay. Just had such broken sleep due to keep needing to keep topping up tablets, along with just thinking about the crappy situation. I just want to stay in bed all day and cry tbh

@UnicornsandRainbows1 aw i remember that horrible feeling 😢, you take your time & cry as much as you need to as its better getting it out of your system hun 💗

Well the good news is that the bleeding seems to be a lot better than the last time and it seems to be slowing down/going slightly brown already. Obviously it's too early to tell yet but fingers crossed

Thinking of you unicorns glad to hear the physical side isn't too bad. Sorry it's such a shit time x

Good luck for scan Monday flat 🤞🏼

@voxnihili i would feel the same way, bless you it must be horrible to be that anxious. Can you get counselling or cbt to help reframe your thoughts?

I was anxious like this in March/April when I was pregnant although I hadn't even had a miscarriage yet! Lost weight too. God knows what a state I'll be if I do get a BFP again.

It's my due date tomorrow. Feeling utterly rubbish that I'm not pregnant again by now. I'm 7dpo and have zero hope.

@voxnihili I know how you feel re anxiety. I've been terrible today. Am struggling to eat, and my heart rate keeps going really high. It's horrible. 

@UnicornsandRainbows1 glad the bleeding isn't too bad. Rest up and look after yourself. Xxx

Well I'm just going to pretend that this morning didn't happen. Back to red, with little clots (oh how ok haven't missed you), lining (I think) and some thing which I'm not even going to think about because I'd rather not know.

What a naive moron I was yesterday

I not ok*

Hi Ladies,

Hope you are all doing okay. I have been using OPK's not too sure if I missed my surge because I keep getting flashing smiles which is quite irritating. I'm pretty sure my cycle hasn't been too disrupted because I had a very early miscarriage so think my cycle has continued normally. I'm using cheap Opks alongside the CB and they were nearly positive so now will just have to wait and see.

Is anyone testing soon?!

Hope you are all well.

@Hopefulbunny not sure, keep going with them & see unless u geared up to Ov & then didnt?

Im 5/6dpo & just had pink watery colour on toilet paper when i wipe 🙄, i have been taking baby aspirin this month so wonder does it cause mid cycle spotting? I do spot before AF but usually starts brown & not until about 9 dpo. Both pregs before ive had implantation spotting but that wasnt until 7dpo & 10dpo ... of course now im being hopeful & its prob just being a weird cycle 😏😏

DH has flu and it's my due date. Weekend has been thoroughly miserable and I'm just hoping I don't catch it too. 8dpo and I hate the shred of hope. I'm having my "day 21" bloods tomorrow and we are getting the SA results on Wednesday. Not sure whether to POAS that morning or not? Wasn't going to until Thursday (12DPO) or even Friday (only if my temp is still high - then I will know as it always falls on 12 or 13dpo if af is coming). What do you think?

Hope you are doing ok unicorns. Been thinking of you.
Good luck tomorrow flat. Really hope there's some positive news.
Thinking of you too vox

Gosh, we really could do with some good news on here! I think we're well overdue.
I'm cd12 today and don't seem to have ovulated yet, I have a feeling it will be soon though fx. Feeling positive about it actually as i used to 0 on cd7-9 and I heard that's too early really. Just hope I haven't missed it, I'm on night shifts at the min so that makes temping tricky.

Hi all, I've been lurking rather than posting for a while, as I'm trying not to obsess.

I'm CD8 and have a few symptoms that I've been reading far too much into. Wish I could just put it out my mind but its all I can think about.

A friend who had the same due date as me, and unfortunately miscarried a week after me, just told me she's pregnant. Whilst I'm really happy for her, I wish I was pregnant.

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Sorry to hear it's picked up again unicorns - hope you're being taken care of.

whoops - I'm 8PO, not CD8! Think I need to go to bed!

Hi girls, hope yous dont mind me joining.
Been TTC since June, BFP in August and sadly mc in September. Started trying again immediately as for me it was only thing that I thought would get me through it. The thought of getting to my due date and not being pregnant really upsets me.
CD 12
Positive opk today
Af due between xmas eve and Boxing Day.
DP Birthday is 23rd so I may do a FRER that morning.
Good luck everyone x

Good luck today flat,everything’s crossed for you x

Thank you @weasledee. I'm not holding out much hope!