TTC after pregnancy loss - lucky thread 13

[TheGrumpySquirrel]

Hi guys I couldn't see a new thread so hope you don't mind me starting it off @BertieBotts ?

Oh elp that is wonderful news! Congratulations you really do give me hope. So glad before your due date too I know how that feels. Did you do anything different this month? And please don't go far, we are routing for you to have a normal pregnancy so let us know how you get on!

bluee everything crossed for Thursday.

bean hugs for you. Sometimes it just hits you like a truck for no real reason even months down the line. And I agree with filly a good cry is reallly cathartic.

My af is finished so back onto the next cycle. I've been so ill with a chest infection this month but finally feeling better now so hoping to get some action in at the right time. And holiday next week too so fingers crossed. And not that I've checked or anything but a July baby would be just great and I'd be almost 12 weeks by xmas day.

Tested at 7dpo because I have no self control. Obviously a nope.

It's a bit weird but I can feel the individual ducts in my boobs (sort of like weird pipes), and it's driving me crazy even though it's probably just a case that I've just not really paid much attention to it before. Why do I do this to myself?

Congrats @Elpheba that looks a lovely strong line on the IC for just 11dpo! Fingers crossed xx

I know @unicorn it's just so tempting when there is a big stack of tests there! I'll be disappointed if nothing shows by Wednesday or Thursday x

Thanks to everyone for the kind words. I am getting there slowly but still can't help but feel robbed.
Congratulations to everyone with a positive and good luck to anyone waiting to test
I am not using the ovulation tests this time because I got too obsessed before after never seeming to be able to get a positive? I have binned what was left and I'm just going to wait and see for a while.
Hope everyone is having a good day
Xxx

I’ve also been testing when I shouldn’t. I’m around 9/10 dpo but my loooong cycles mean I only ovulated (I think!) on CD25. I’m not peeing on anything else until the weekend now!

Thanks! This month was different in that I finally splashed out on cb advanced digital ovulation as I couldn't get on with interpreting the IC ones and could never hold my wee long enough!
I thought it was quite strong too for 11/12dpo so feeling as positive as I can for now. I do think pregnancy won't feel the same again having experienced loss but I hope it does provide hope that it can and will happen for you ladies. Sending fertile wishes to all your wombs!

Fingers crossed bluee!!

Elpheba aww that's fantastic 🤗 Congratulations to you and your partner!
stowie its so easy to get obsessed isn't it!
I'm abit obsessed again already. 🙈
grumpy Goodluck! 🍀x

I'm not holding out any hope atall for this cycle.
In a way i think i would rather it didn't happen this cycle, Can't be healthy for my body surely after only having a mc such a short time ago but what do i know!

I'm 25 tomorrow and spending my day doing something totally grown up...visiting the zoo haha! Then home for a dominos and i think I'll treat myself to a g&t.. what is the saying 'drink until it's pink' ?? Something like that anwyay😁

Goodluck everyone 💖💖

Fabulous Elpheba that's wonderful news!

I didn't manage to hold out on the testing, tested today at 12 dpo and BFN, so my let down sensation meant bugger all and AF should be arriving on Weds

Have consulted by copy of "It starts with the egg" and my Amazon basket has £££ worth of supplements in, though I'll hold off on pulling the trigger until AF arrives. Bleurgh, bleurgh, bleurgh, it's all just shit!

Congrats @Elpheba ! Great news

Congratulations @Elpheba! That's a lovely line. I got pregnant using Clearblue advanced digital back in June. It's really good. I don't think it has worked for us this month unfortunately, as I have absolutely NO hormonal symptoms at all like last time, but I'm going to carry on using it.

@BlueeSpottyTiger keeping everything crossed for you.

@UnicornsandRainbows1 I have no self control either! I'm a poas addict!

@KerryLeanne84 that's totally normal to feel that way about your friend's scan. I felt like that when I became involved in a drug addict mother case at school, whose babies always get to full term, but are neglected. The injustice nearly me in tears, both for my own situation and for those poor kids.

@Stowie3012 I am not surprised you feel robbed. I have felt like that since my MMC nearly 7 weeks ago.

@KerryLeanne84 really hope this is your month. Xx

Thank you @flatwhite31, hugs ❤️

unicorns - being able to feel your ducts seems like a pretty strong symptom! 🤞

@KerryLeanne84 It'll probably just make me stupidly optimistic. Friday I will be 12dpo so I'll get my answers then

Evening all!

Not posted on here for a while, just been busy busy with work and also maybe trying not to think about the whole TTC too much (well, just every day at some point, it will pop into my head!)

I'm sat here feeling sorry for myself with a glass of wine.
DH is away in the USA this week, over there for a business meeting type thing, was booked several months ago. He left 2 days ago.

And of course, I am CD13 and have had EWCM for the last 2 days. Last DTD over a week ago as I was working late last week (sigh).

So so frustrating...and this would have been our first month after my one session of acupuncture and course of chinese medical herbs...so of course that would've made all the difference!

I told DH about the dates and missing the entire 'fertile window' but I did it in a matter of fact way, there was no blame on anyone, just one of those things...I didn't want to make him feel guilty on top of everything.

But it feels painful to me missing one month- we are on month 15 of TTC- things aren't getting any easier and I we don't have long to conceive a pregnancy so I will give birth before I turn 40.
Last time I was pregnant I was 37 and due to give birth aged 38.

I know that's putting pressure on myself and DH, but I've gone through the whole 'take it easy, wait and see' phase a couple of times over the past year. Once you hit 12 months TTC, you kind of have to take each month seriously as you realise that time is slipping away!

Today I met a lovely new neighbour, she was holding her little girl in her arms and I literally felt myself shudder as she told me she was 9 months old, born on 18th December last year (my due date). She probably thinks I'm a weirdo but I think I managed to style it out by chasing after my 3 year old who was making an escape for the road!

I don't think I'm ever going to 'get over' the MMC until I become pregnant again, however, deep down I know that I have to find ways of making it better/feeling better without a new pregnancy being the solution...but I just don't know how.

Apologies, I am just feeling VERY sorry for myself right now

Hi turquoise I'm so sorry it's so crap but I know just how you're feeling. It's so frustrating to miss out on a month and feel the time slipping by. AF arrived last night so I now have two more months to conceive to give myself a due date in my 30's (no pressure!!)

I've pulled the trigger on a ridiculously expensive Amazon basket of supplements suggested "In It starts with the Egg" and going to try low GI diet to see if that helps things. Not sure it will but I want to feel like I'm doing something.

And I too feel like I won't get over it until I become pregnant again, I was speaking to a friend last week who had 2 MC's before her second DC arrived and she said pretty much the same thing, you won't get over it properly until that happens. I really want to accept it and come to terms with the fact that DD may well be an only but that feels like giving up so I'm resisting trying to come to terms with it for a bit.

Hugs x

Oh @TurquoiseDress, what timing with your DH being away. Have you thought about going to the GP about fertility tests?

I have been awake most of the night stressing about getting my period next week. It's due 2 days before my birthday (birthday is next Fri) and when it would have been our 20 week scan. Crap timing. I'm supposed to be going out for a meal the night before with girlfriends, and I think I'm going to cancel, as there's just nothing to celebrate for me this year. I had been looking forward to a joint 20 week scan and birthday celebration, which has been robbed from me and which I'll never get back. I'm also worried something isn't right with my body. I have NO hormonal symptoms whatsoever, and haven't since my ERPC. Normally by now my boobs start to hurt, even with my period, but there's nothing. I just have a horrible feeling something isn't right, and I can't stop stressing about it. I seriously got around 3 hours sleep, and I have to teach all day today! Can't go on like this.

Today has broken me already. It’s my first due date two weeks today. I could have a tiny baby by now.
I cried all the way to work & I’m trying to hold it together.

If anyone has any positive vibes send em my way

Sending you hugs @yellowfrontdoor. There are no words. Xxxxxx

I keep crying today too...it's just so unfair...

Big hugs to you @TurquoiseDress @yellowfrontdoor and @Flatwhite31 ♥️

I feel like time is passing me by too. If not pregnant by my due date (10 Dec) we will have been TTC for a year. Not hopeful this month as I did an IC this morning and it was totally blank. 10dpo and af is due on Friday. I have my first acupuncture appointment tomorrow. Was planning to do a FRER tomorrow morning but I just can’t face more negatives.

I literally can't get out the door this morning as I can't stop crying. I'm so so teary. Work has been really hard going too, and I'm not sleeping, so I'm tired. I always cry when I'm tired!

Hugs and good vibes yellow and flatwhite xx

They sent me home. I tried really hard but I couldn’t get myself together.

My plan is to snuggle on my Mum’s sofa. Hugs to all of us who are struggling today.