TTC after pregnancy loss - lucky thread 13

[TheGrumpySquirrel]

Hi guys I couldn't see a new thread so hope you don't mind me starting it off @BertieBotts ?

Weasle and blue - it's pretty depressing there's 3 of us graduates from HG thread here. Hopefully blue and i can follow you over soon. Makes me so angry when everyone tries to placate me when I had HG telling me I was lucky to have symptoms and it was a sign of a healthy pregnancy. Well that worked well - I was still vomiting for almost a week after erpc.

I hate that 'you're lucky to have symptoms' too @beanhunter. They mean nothing.

Annnd there's an Ad for maternity clothes
Above my comment box! Jesus fucking Christ.

I'm so so heartbroken tonight ladies, I don't think I've cried this much since I was a child. I seem to be feeling worse the further out from the miscarriage I get rather than better. I genuinely don't know how much more of this infertility pain I can take.

Oh @KerryLeanne84. I'm so sorry my love. Have you thought about counselling? I'm going to see my GP after work today to ask about it and see what's out there.

KerryLeanne have you got someone to talk to about everything?

The TWW is so boring!

It looks like I'll miss out on next month's fertile window, as I've planned a trip to my parents without DH. Unlucky that my whole cycle has been so delayed after mc. Drat!

Kerry sending you a big hug xx
I had to delete the history on my phone to stop pop ups for the baby related items i had been browsing.
grey oh i know only 5dpo and soo bored. This really is the worse part of ttc. Aww no how annoying that you'll miss next month 😣 Can you not go a few days before or after? I would hate to miss a cycle, I get way to obsessed. My friend's think I'm mad🙈
bean aww no! 3 of us well hopefully we'll all be back on that thread again soon. Goodluck! I do dread going through HG again, it makes me feel so depressed and like such a bad mum that i struggle to care for DD. Xx

I would be delighted to be there again. I'll not complain Again - though was non functional!
I'm now around 7dpo I think. Period due on husbands birthday and then I'm off to London the following day. Wasn't going to test u til late but now as would need to start clexane I'll have to test on time.

Though actually I've always had symptoms by 12dpo if pregnant so maybe in the absence of those I won't bother as I'm not a fan of tests.

I would BlueSpottyTiger but it's flights that I already booked. Just my luck

Sorry to hear you guys have suffered from HG.

Thanks for the hugs and advice everyone - I've taken today off sick as I couldn't stop crying. I do have people to talk to but I worry that I just make them worry about me by revealing how low I'm really feeling.

I do have an appt with a counsellor at my fertility clinic tomorrow but it all feels kinda pointless. I am / was a happy, optimistic person before all of this. I was soo happy the months I was pregnant.

Flat ❤️

I'm in London this weekend too bean are you doing anything nice?

Sorry you'll miss a chance grumpy - if there's no way round it perhaps you can try and look at it like a month holiday from ttc - no sticks etc!

So sorry you are feeling awful @Kerry hope the counsellor does some good, you never know, it might do... worth a go.

@beanhunter do you mind telling me about the clexane, is it for a clotting issue or are they trying it 'just in case'? Is it a result of recurrent miscarriage clinic? I've been referred but not had appt yet. I've heard the NHS clinics are not great...?

I absolutely hate being sick, I can't imagine you guys having to go through all that sickness and not getting your reward

Filly - it's a just in case though tests have gone off - I suspect they will be normal. It's more that while mmc at 12/40 isn't that uncommon usually baby has stopped developing a few weeks earlier so mine was classed as unusual. Who knows.

I've just had a wonderful appointment with my fantastic GP. She's such a good listener, is sympathetic and says all the right things. It really helped. I have downloaded an app she recommended called 'headspace' and am going to refer myself to Talking Therapies to deal with the anxieties I have developed since the MMC. Feel like I'm beginning to make a few small steps forward.

I got a positive on IC OPK today on CD 14 (this morning and when I got back from the docs). I wasn't going to use them, but then I read Clearblue digital can give false positives, so I wanted to double check. Just as well I did! I'm not feeling 100% today with a bit of a temperature and not eating much (so many bugs going round school) so to be honest I can't be bothered DTD when hubby gets home, but I'll try and force myself!

Glad you took the day off @KerryLeanne84. I had a day off 11 days ago as I was bleeding and couldn't stop crying. You must put yourself first. How are you feeling now? X

Not read the thread today so apologies but will catch up and try to be helpful where I can!

We are canning our Sicily holiday - due to fly back Friday but weather is dire and this last hotel is crap. We had hoped this would be nice after last one where we were for 5 long nights but it's worse! So we've thrown Amex at the problem and are flying back tomorrow.

Really really pissed off as we needed a good holiday after MC. And instead we've just had shite for last 6 days and are going home less than amarous!!!!

Luckily we love our home and our cat so maybe it will all be ok!!!

And then we can start TTC again!!!! Xxx

Hi @coastalchick. So sorry to hear about your holiday! Hope you feel more comfortable when you are both back at home. Xx

That sucks about the holiday coastal 😔 Glad you'll be back with your lovely kitty soon.

Glad you had a productive appt flatwhite - I've used headspace before, it is very good. I'm okay thanks, not been crying so much today ❤️

@coastalchick how gutting about your hols.

@Flatwhite31 my GP is great too. Makes such a difference.

Just woken up from such an awful dream. I had triplets without knowing I was pregnant and because I left the hospital to get baby stuff they were taken into care. One of my colleagues was saying how I wouldn't get them back etc. I just cried & cried, no one would listen.

Arghhh!! Felt so real. Not a great start to a Wednesday!

Hi ladies, have posted this on another thread too, so apologies if you're on both! Do any of you get ovulation pain? I've been up most of the night with what feels like period type aching on the right hand side of my abdomen. It isn't sharp pain, but hurts when I press down on it. It hurts enough to make me feel pretty uncomfortable, and I know I'm going to find work hard with it. I was feeling a bit off last night with a mild temp, but that's gone now and I don't actually feel ill this morning, just sore (which makes me think it's not something like my appendix). Is ovulation pain sharp, and how long does it last?

I do Flatwhite, feels like mild period pains more though....

Well af got me today the bitch. The only upside is I seem to be nice and regular with cycles now at 27 days and this next fw comes just before and on our holiday.

flat can't help with ov pain I'm afraid but I always use both cheap opk and clear blue to double check... glad you got to dtd last night that's great.

coastal sorry you've had a shocker with the holiday. Hope you are happier when you get back home.

This will break your heart but it's worth a read. She so puts into words why we've all ended up here to support each other.
hollymaria.com/my-little-heartbreaker/

Hey ladies, ive been a lurker on here & hope yous dont mind me joining in. Im 35 & have had 2 losses in last 6 months, mmc 2 weeks ago the most recent one. Picking myself up at the minute since that one.

Flat - yes i get pain at ov especially when on right side, it be’s sore when i walk etc, it usually lasts around 8-12 hours for me.

di626, so sorry for your losses. Welcome!

Coastal oh no, gutted about your holiday. I love a staycation too, hope you have a fun time at home at least.

Great that your GP is nice Flatwhite.

@di626 so sorry for your loss  we're a very supportive bunch on here.

@NoCatsHere Sorry about AF.
That piece was so moving. I had a better time of it in the way I was told & dealt with. My hospital is one that recommends ERPC but two of my friends were just sent home to crack on with it.
I remember during my first mc the on-call doctor patted my hand & lectured me about 'implantation bleeding'. I was 10 weeks pregnant at that time, I had strong cramps and fresh red blood. I too felt I was given hope where there was none. I wish miscarriages weren't as taboo as they seem to be. I wish I didn't have to endlessly google symptoms & horror stories because that's the only information I could get.

Oh wow I’ve just read the holly Maria piece on my lunch and struggling not to cry. So glad she wrote that and was so honest. My story is so similar. I was sent home from A&E three times. Passed baby at home and kept fainting. Wish I’d stayed in Spain where the scan ladies were nice and rubbed my arms and talked to me and told me they’d do an ERPC straight away if I was staying. It’s criminal how the system here lets women suffer. The hours I spent pacing in A&E wondering if I would die. Fuck. It’s brought it all back. Got to get a grip!