anyone else just fucked off with this lark and want to moan?

[stillvicarinatutu]

come on then.
moan away.
ill start. i m just so fucking fucked off. lost one last year at 44....i thought its a miracle!! wasnt to be but filled me with what appears to be false hope.

been trying ever since. and no. every month the same. this month as well as AF ive another surprise - a cyst. where no one ever ever wants one.
so this month will be lost. along with all dignity as i beg the hospital to lance it.

moan away. go on. you know you want to.

I chart mine. I think it's easier than using opks because I don't want to have to do them at school! Although I might try a.m. opks next month if I'm not lucky this cycle.

@dudemeister I tried but my sleeping schedule is terrible. I wake up 3-4 times a night, usually go the loo at least once and I don’t get up as early at the weekend as I do in the week so I couldn’t get accurate readings!

I wake naturally at a similar time on weekends even without an alarm so I temp and then go back to sleep. It drives DH crazy because he can hear the beeping but I can't because I'm hard of hearing!

Bubblegum - hope your tests go well. I think it'll make it all a bit too real for me. But needs must.

PinaColada - my OH thinks I'm going nuts even though I've kept things super low-key! Apart from a few vitamins and the fact that I have a couple of tracking apps on my phone that is...

Yes totally! Though actually, I think sometimes he maybe going secretly as TTC crazy as me! 😂

Hope your tests go well @Bubblegum89.

@SoozC haha my DH gets annoyed wth me too, he says its like a disco under the duvet (mine flashes and beeps). I set my alarm for 6 am every morning and if i wake up at half four sometimes for the loo i just take temp then instead. It helps that mine saves temp for later if you just wanted to roll back over to sleep again you can. Ive been doing it with opks and i think get my surge in the middle of the night because i never really get darker than control line. Ive learnt that with me once its almost as dark, I'm gonna lay an egg the next day and the temps seem to confirm this.

I used to temp but it just made me over analyse all my post ov temps so I stopped two months ago. So liberating.

Agreed, @juneybean, I didn't for about 9 months. Just started again due to frustration with no bfp. I need to do something!

@dudemeister76, if you've got a system that works for you, that's good! Fx for you!

I just poas. Big mistake. Totally fed up now. Why do we do it to ourselves?!

Oh sooz it's extremely silly to poas late at night!!! :(

Love the lay an egg terminology @dudemeister76!

Argh no @SoozC - how many DPO are you? Try again in the morn! 🤞

Thanks ladies. My blood tests all came back normal apart from prolactin levels which were very slightly high but dr doesn’t think that’s an issue. Partner has had blood tests done today and is taking a sample up to the hospital this week. If they come back normal, I guess the next step would be a HSG possibly. I’ve already had two US so I don’t think they’ll bother with another. Honestly, deep down I think that I have blocked tubes. If my uterus seemed clear on my US and my hormone levels are fine, I feel like that might be the issue. I have had a d&c before so scar tissue is more than possible. Plus I do get a lot of twinges in my ovary area on both sides all through my cycle. I stupidly feel slightly hopeful for this month so I need that slapping right out of me haha

justme I put my tests off for so long. But weirdly feel a sense of relief that I might finally find out what the issue is. I just decided I was fed up of wasting my time, I could be ttc for the next ten years and find out that I would never be able to conceive as I had X wrong with me but that it was fixable, you know? Good luck with it all! It is scary but it’s the best thing I guess :)

I tried doing BBT but wake up too often in the night for a wee so was never in bed long enough for it to work. Now worrying about this as frequent peeing was my friends main symptom of polycystic ovarian syndrome. 😱 probably mainly worrying as it's 0326 here and I can't sleep due to the crying baby and it's stomping parents upstairs, ha...

I know guys, silly right? I'm around 11-13dpo, can't say for sure. Expecting usual pre-af spotting to start any moment and think cramps are on their way.

Glad to hear you're pushing along with the tests okay @Bubblegum89. They might find an answer and I've met ladies who've been lucky after a HSG so fingers crossed.

@micropig, how many times do you wee? Do you drink lots of liquids?

I sleep too badly for bbt, up and down like a yoyo. Also worry about it being too consuming. This is the last month I’m going to do clearblue opks too. I only have a few sticks left but managed to pinpoint in a couple last month.

I’m going to make a gp appt after next af. It’ll be 8 mos and I guess it’s better to know one way or the other but I’ve been putting it off too.

Sooz late night probably no good if you’re not late period yet. F.C. for you.

Aghhhhhhh still haven't come on ....

Still negative tests 😢

@SoozC I don't drink enough water actually but have been trying to drink more. I do tend to have a drink in the evening and I often gulp it down so I think it's partially that.

Only got five hours sleep total last night (two sets of two and a half hours with a three hour break, according to my Fitbit). The baby upstairs wouldn't be too bad but the parents seemed to be arguing with each other and shouting each time and stomping around which is what kept me awake. Grr.

@Justoneme so sorry to hear you're still not getting a BFP. How late are you now?

Thanks to everyone for the messages about my grandma.

@hellybellyjellybean welcome to the moan zone! I don’t have anyone in real life to talk to as only dh knows. So this thread is a god send. I can’t just whinge to him all the time.

@justmeonly are you using the internet cheapy opks? I bought a massive pack of those but I don’t get great lines on them as I drink a lot of water and I think I’m too hydrated for them to pick up the levels in my urine.
I bought the clear blue one which you use fmu to get the results and seems to be better.
@Janefx40 I agree! If you’ve managed to conceive, sod off to the pregnancy boards and stop making the rest of us feel shit.
@dudemeister76 sorry to hear about your grandma too. And AF turning up.
I don’t chart temps as I’m too forgetful and chronically lazy.

I forgot to pee on my clearblue opk yesterday morning. Did it Sunday and got the flashing smiley face. Last night I got twinges which I thought could be ovulation, then I did the opk this morning and got a solid smiley. All my apps had predicted ov day as today but the solid smiley result has pushed it to tomorrow.
But it if I’d taken it yesterday and it had been solid then, ov day would have stayed as today so now I have no fucking clue!
Dtd sat, sun and will tonight so hopefully that’s enough. I’m getting bored of all this faff now. I can’t believe how naive I was about this before I started. I totally believed the school mantra of “just once is enough” 🙄

@Justoneme how late are you?

I should of come on last Monday.... so 8 days late now ... Grrrr

Oh how annoying! I’ve read stories of people not getting a bfp until several weeks in though so I guess it’s still possible until af shows up.

Hope you find out either way soon, the waiting is awful.

Just read a thread where she has conceived all four of her children on cycle one -cries-

This. This is why you shouldn’t temp.

This shit is getting my hopes up way too high

IMO temp is always going to be higher around the peak of progesterone (i.e. day 7) but I really hope it's your month!