anyone else just fucked off with this lark and want to moan?

[stillvicarinatutu]

come on then.
moan away.
ill start. i m just so fucking fucked off. lost one last year at 44....i thought its a miracle!! wasnt to be but filled me with what appears to be false hope.

been trying ever since. and no. every month the same. this month as well as AF ive another surprise - a cyst. where no one ever ever wants one.
so this month will be lost. along with all dignity as i beg the hospital to lance it.

moan away. go on. you know you want to.

Welcome Blondiee sorry to hear of your miscarriage :( xx You're not the only one doing handstands afterwards!

Thanks juneybean!
Honestly my OH must think I'm mad, I watch him fall asleep as I'm moving around like some half trained circus performer!

Hey ladies, how are you all doing? I am super fucked off with this lark tbh. I ov’d late last cycle, I’ve always been super regular before then. So I’m cd10 today of a 28 day cycle and felt like I’d wet myself in work but was just a bunch of watery cm so I’m thinking okay let’s get this show on the road. Dtd this afternoon despite a negative opk (usually doesn’t get positive until cd12) and have sexy times planned out all this weekend. But now I’m dry as a bone. Wondering if maybe I’m imaging things and going to end up ovulating late again. Such a nightmare

Love the golden ticket idea, also appropriate as pregnancy and beyond is a whole new set of craziness, much like getting the golden ticket and going to see Willy Wonka haha.

@juneybean so glad you're back! Can't wait to see your upduffed thread too!

With you guys on the buses, tried that when I first started TTC but I was the last one standing which made me really feel like there was something wrong with me, and I was only starting then!! I've not been trying as long as most of you guys (since April/May) and I'm still quite young, but DH & I have never ever even had a scare (can't believe I used to think of it as that!!) and we've only used condoms for protection for years with a few times without. It just feels like surely something would have happened by now. I do feel like maybe I'm barren. I feel really quite convinced that I can't have kids to be honest.

@Janefx40 Good luck at the doctors tomorrow, hope it's something treatable and harmless!

@LimpLettice it sounds harsh, but I've got my parents to stop mentioning me TTC by saying "maybe I can't have kids." whenever they drop hints. Eventually they stopped mentioning it as I've made it so awkward haha.

@Blondiee sorry to hear about your miscarriage. I can't even imagine what that's like.

totally know how you feel re: living in four week cycles, it's a nightmare! And about everyone making my sex life (which is what it is, really) their business. I even had a pervy guy come into my work recently, stare at my pre-period breasts (they get a bit bigger, painfully, right before AF) and say "oh you're pregnant now" 😭 I mean a) creepy that he noticed the change in my breasts and b) BUGGER OFF YOU NOSEY TWAT!

Also I keep bookmarking and reading threads like the current "labour tips and tricks" one as if I think I'm going to need it anytime soon. I had one about cloth nappies saved for ages but eventually figured I could search it again sometime if I even came near to needing it. It was too painful seeing it in my "watching" bit.

Why do I keep reading the labour one!? Properly torturing myself here.

Sorry not read the thread as too long but pre pregnancy things helped me:-

Angus castus (til bfp)
High concentration evening primrose oil (til ovulation)
High concentrations folic acid

Worked for me so spreading news albeit they’re quite well known
Good luck

I’m awake and very poorly and baffled.

Fuck off flumpy Jesus Christ.

@Justwaitingforaline what's up? Hopefully you're asleep by now x

@juneybean haha!

You alright, Just?

God almighty can people not read?

Blimey Micropig stop saving those threads. That way madness lies. Ha. Parents already know I can, DD and miscarriage attest. I just need them to leave it utterly alone.

Hello Blondie.sorry for your loss. This is the perfect place for insanity, rant away 😁

I finally got to sleep at 3.30 am for a grand total of three hours. My eyes are little tiny slits. Thank god I have nowhere to be today and can feel sorry for myself in bed.

DH has has flu, I should have seen it coming, but my throat feels like someone has rubbed sandpaper all over it and I can’t lie down without choking on my own saliva.

It’s probably advisable I’m not pregnant this month, given the amount of pain killers I’ve just shoved down my throat

Just. Get better soon :(

Aghhhhh currently 4 days late; have been doing pregnancy tests still Saturday all negative results 😟

Don't understand standard where's aunty flow?

Hey Blondie! DH and I are in our twenties with dogs, we’re also crap at making babies! I hope you enjoy it here.

Justoneme Ugh, I’m sorry, that’s the worst, especially if you’ve held off testing for when you were late. If it’s any consolation, my auntie didn’t get a positive test with my cousin until she was about 6 weeks gone - you aren’t out until she’s she comes!

@Justwaiting feel better soon! This was me two weeks ago, I'm so insane that I wouldn't take burfen or decongestants or anything good until I'd POAS even though it was going to be neg either way!

@blondie welcome! Sorry to hear of your loss and difficult times but this is a fabulously supportive arena to vent and offload!

Happy Friday-eve! Sorry if there's any weekend workers here, the whole Friday thing used to irritate the hell outta me when I worked shifts.

Oh and FB is the work of the devil, I'd urge anyone who finds the stream of wedding/baby/engagement/look at my amazing new job posts irritating to get the eff off there. Deactivated my account at new years and the only thing I ever log back on for is to read posts on my dead mom's wall (ppl still post memories at Xmas and happy bday posts).
Saw a quote recently "cheers, may your life be as wonderful as your Facebook makes it out to be"
Sorry for the fb rant!

How long have you been trying @justoneme ?

I hate Facebook for that summer I have unfollowed a lot of people! Most recently a girl I know who has 6 kids (her eldest two were taken off her) has just had a full hysterectomy done because, and I quite, “she just can’t stop getting pregnant” and she was always complaining about how it kept happening to her and so I unfollowed her lol so petty

Hope you feel better fast, Just. A lot of it about. Trite but true - feet off floor and take it easy.

Yes yes to FB. It is just the biggest crock really - no one really has that perfect a life, and good for them if they do, but if you are struggling it is just evil. Don't blame you Bubblegum I would have to block as I am sure my itchy fingers would make me say something I would regret.

Hope af sorts itself one way or another Justone. It is so annoying when it just won't show. Mind I would be happy today if mine would eff off now - still way too heavy even a few days in.

I know this is a moany thread but I could cry with the phone call I’ve just had. My GP has agreed to do my day 2 and day 21 blood test, a repeat ultrasound of my ovaries to see if my polycystic ovaries are still present/ if it’s turned into a syndrome and swab tests too along with asking me to get DH to arrange his tests too

Thought this thread would appreciate my most recent gift from my mother.

She doesn’t know we’re trying to conceive, but she does know i have fertility issues (namely a dermoid cyst that has completed shut down my left ovary).

Thanks mum.

Way to make me feel like shit and make this all about you at the same time

nimble oh nooo :( how insensitive. I’ve had people I know say to me “at least you’ve got one” because I have a 9 year old daughter from a previous relationship. I know I am blessed to have her but that doesn’t mean that I can’t be upset that I can’t have a baby with the man I love. I think sometimes, they don’t really know what to say and so they use cliche lines like that or like your mum, attempts (and fails) and trying to find humour in it. Hugs

@Bubblegum89 think you might be giving her the benefit of more doubt than she deserves.

She hassled me and my husband at a family wedding recently about not having grandchildren, and how all her friends have them and she doesn’t.

Fuck off mum. This isn’t about you