anyone else just fucked off with this lark and want to moan?

[stillvicarinatutu]

come on then.
moan away.
ill start. i m just so fucking fucked off. lost one last year at 44....i thought its a miracle!! wasnt to be but filled me with what appears to be false hope.

been trying ever since. and no. every month the same. this month as well as AF ive another surprise - a cyst. where no one ever ever wants one.
so this month will be lost. along with all dignity as i beg the hospital to lance it.

moan away. go on. you know you want to.

@juneybean yay! You're here. This thread wouldn't be the same without you.

@Justwaitingforaline I describe myself as barren too! For some reason I find it easier to say that than infertile or struggling to get pregnant etc. In fact it makes me laugh a bit which is unusual as I'm usually crying about being baby-free! I think cos it makes me sound biblical.

Ah I think we are all on the same page. Of course we hope that all of us gets pregnant and I would want to know if you do. But yes this isn't a forum for showing test results - but I don't want anyone to feel shit - we all feel shit most of the time and don't want to add to that.

I'm not sure what the answer is. Maybe we should give new joiners a heads up tho. Come here to moan - post test elsewhere x

Jane totally agree with you there. Maybe we could encourage people to post tests on their own separate thread so they can get impartial opinions on them. I am part of a pretty large Mum’s group on FB and we don’t have a TTC subgroup for this reason - it’s such an emotive subject and when you’ve been trying for what seems like forever, it can be hard to swallow when someone falls pregnant.

On the subject of moaning, I have the worst cramps ever and I’m not even due AF for a week. Why does my body insist on cementing the fact that she’ll be coming IN A WEEKS TIME. It’s like a shit reminder of things to come during shark week.

I know I need to get to the GP and talk through the messy periods and start looking at some tests, really to find out if the spotting is an issue but I just keep putting it off. Part of me I think is thinking, well, I have an 8 year old, and I'm 40, suck it up. Appts are like hens teeth here anyway.

So glad you are staying Juney, I'm with you. My last thread was lovely but I was the last bloody man standing. First bfp, which I lost, followed by clear bfp for every other poster. I was gonna sack it all off til I found this one and could be the barren old bitch in the corner without offending anyone 😂

Oh Just. Every single cycle I wish I could have some sort of amnesia where I forget ttc for the whole thing except 3 fertile days.

Ah limp that is crap, I often think I'll still be here once you lot have all gotten upduffed!

Let's be barren together!

I’d like that kind of amnesia. That or for my piss to turn purple as soon as conception has occurred and continue to be that way for the whole pregnancy

I have a big moan; Ofsted are in today and tories. Fuckers! God, I wish they'd fuck off. I had two of them and the headteacher breathing down my neck this morning. Yesterday evening I was supposed to go to a fertility clinic open evening with DH but had to cancel as had to be here getting things ready, so that pissed me off too.

On top of it all, I've been having a pressing feeling on my lower abdomen in the evenings and I've had a good sense of smell lately so, of course, I'm so hopeful but deep down I know it won't be a bfp and af will turn up in a week or so.

So I'm feeling properly miserable. I'll join you barren ladies in the corner. I'll bring vodka!

Colour changing pee would be bloody amazing as an indicator of pregnancy! Mines constantly a toxic yellow from the pregnacare vits I'm taking, bloody horse pills....

I totally her That this is the wrong place for posting tests. I joined a thread back in June when I got my BFP for newly pg ladies, leaving that when I found out it was a chemical/early miscarriage saved me my sanity

Oh and my GP said I was "subfertile" is that meant to sound better than infertile? I dunno. Raising a G&T to us all anyway, or at least I will tonight...

I think a code golden ticket type is a good ideas. Agree would like to hear bfp stories but not pictures.

@soocz good luck with Ofsted. I'm a teacher too so feel your pain!

I think if I'm ever lucky enough I'll create a whole new thread titled "juneybean only went and got upduffed!"

Subfertile?! WTF is that?!

Sub fucking fertile. Just as shit thing to say. I'm sub nothing. Barren maybe, bitch definitely, sub not. Colour changing pee would be great, anything to take off the worrying and symptom spotting.

Maybe we should have a dedicated Sub Fertile Fuckers Graduates thread 😜. Except you'll probly all leave me as well ha.

Yer it was shit. Lovely ladies all, but the last one was just ouch. All within about 6 or 8 weeks of my chemical too.

Sooz both my childminder and dd's school have ofsted in this week and everyone is running round in a state of quiet rage and panic. Sympathies.

I'm not a fan of the buses because you see everyone getting their BFPs before the month has even started! It just makes me feel depressed about it all (rather than optimistic like it probably should). This thread is perfect instead because we can all grumble together.

Want to hear something really shit? I've come out in a terrible rash since Saturday and my Mum thinks I may have German measles! So if I do, then even if I did get pregnant this month, we would risk serious deformities! Things just get better and better

Yay! Your back @juneybean - pleased to hear it! Agree it wouldn't be the same without you! Let the baby-making-moaners (BMM) for short - unite! x

Jane I'm assuming you're roughly my age from your nn, were you inoculated? I remember all girls getting the jab at about 12 to avoid just this. Everything crossed it's nothing.

@LimpLettice I was innoculated and the Dr tested me recently to check my immunity status as part of the pre-pregnancy screening stuff / it said positive. But I have a rash all over my torso and feel ill and doesn't fit descriptions of anything else. Drs appt tomorrow so will ask - not that I'm likely to be preggers anyway. But Sod's law this would be the month that catches and I have some deathly anti-pregnancy disease

Maybe I'm being a bit melodramatic

Thanks, @Mrsjones17 and @LimpLettice. It's been pretty fucking awful today, sure the Headteacher isn't happy with me even though it wasn't my fault! I'm wishing more than ever that I was going on maternity. The thought of doing this for another three years is heartbreaking. At least if I could have a year out with a baby I'd feel okay to finish in three years because it would only be two teaching years.

Been getting my usual post-ov cramps. As if having them with af wasn't enough, I have to have them a week before too. I'm so sad right now but pleased I have you ladies to vent to!

Big hugs all!

@Janefx40, wishing you luck and a bfp and no measles!

Thanks @SoozC sorry Offsted are shit and headteacher is being difficult. You definitely have us to vent too.

@SoozC why do you say 3 years? Are you stopping teaching then?

Nothing wrong with a bit of melodrama. Least on this thread 😁 hopefully it's unrelated.

Been out for dinner with parents tonight. Lots of chat about weddings (next year for us) and some unsubtle hints about another grandchild. I'm fairly open with them but I just want it off the table now. They think I'm just dilly dallying. Ha. Be funny if it wasn't so dreadful.

@Janefx40 - yes, I'm currently re-training and then hope to leave teaching in 3 years. I'll still be training then but able to work in my new profession as a trainee. I hate teaching, I've really had enough. I'd leave tomorrow if I could.

Good evening everyone

I use mumsnet for reading responses to questions from people similar to my own questions but have never made an account until today. I have spent the last 2 hours reading the whole of this thread (laughing at the bean bag of loveeeee and some other amusing comments) I just knew I had to join!!!!! (Ofc if you don't mind)

I really really need someone to talk to about this TTC nonsense!!!! Both my OH and I are in our 20s, home owners, in great jobs, have 2 puppies and both drive... one thing missing.... a baby, we dream of our 2 becoming 3 (or for all the other dog people out there, our 4 becoming 5).

We have been TTC since March so currently on cycle 8(sigh). I had been on the pill for 5 years previously but as soon as I came off my periods were regular and AF made her visit every month. Back in June AF was a week late so we decided to test, we did 12 tests, 8 positive, 3 negative and 1 which smeared and didn't work. We went with positive as majority vote but the week later we had spotting, we went hospital to be sure and they did 2 blood tests over 48 hours and unfortunately our little blessing grew their wings.

We are still TTC but are having no luck and I can feel myself slowly becoming insane from living in 4 week cycles, it's either that or too much blood has gone to my head from the handstands I do after DTD from trying to give the baby juice that extra helping hand.

I know we've not been TTC that long however I am sooooooooooo over the constant questioning from people who really aren't that close to us and sometimes even STRANGERS!!!!! If that's not driving me absolutely mad in itself 2 of my friends and my very close cousin are pregnant and due soon, one of my friends has just had her DD. Between that, the strangers comments, cycle counting, hand stands and ALL THE FUCKING "accidents" that I keep seeing announced on Facebook I think I am insane.

Wishing all of you lovely folk lots and lots of baby dust and thank you so much for letting me rant!!!!! Xxx