anyone else just fucked off with this lark and want to moan?

[stillvicarinatutu]

come on then.
moan away.
ill start. i m just so fucking fucked off. lost one last year at 44....i thought its a miracle!! wasnt to be but filled me with what appears to be false hope.

been trying ever since. and no. every month the same. this month as well as AF ive another surprise - a cyst. where no one ever ever wants one.
so this month will be lost. along with all dignity as i beg the hospital to lance it.

moan away. go on. you know you want to.

Muckipup - I think you're amazing. I'm so sorry about all of it. Cuddles xxx

That's just rotten Mucki I hope you aren't feeling too ill.

Bless you Mucky you poor thing! sending positive vibes and energy you way xx

So I've had quite a bit of snotty creamy cm which is also stretchy. I usually get one instance of it before AF but this has give in for days... Boobs also don't feel as heavy as usual before AF.

@Muckipup I'm so sorry you've been through the mill. It must be so hard but the amount you have battled through is inspirational. None of us can know if we will get our baby in the end but you are never going to doubt that you gave it everything. I really hope it happens for you.

Have you had any counselling? If you haven't it might be good to have someone to talk to regularly about it all.

Xxx

@juneybean am I allowed to be hopeful for you? Extra CM may be a good sign. I really hope so. You deserve your BFP x

@janefx40 can I just say you're such a sweetheart and your posts are always so reassuring and positive!

Sounds hopeful @juneybean - I would be so happy to see you get your BFP!! 🤞

Thanks @PinkChocolatex that's nice to hear. I'm never sure how my posts come across.

Xxx

@juneybean when are you due?

@muckipup what an utterly shitty time for you :(

@juneybean got everything crossed for you!!

I knew you lovely people would understand. Thank you juney, peaches, limp, pinkchoc and jane for your very kind words.

It's heartbreaking hearing all of this. I've given in trying I'm now throwing all my energy into being the fittest I've ever been. DH can't keep his hands off me so hoping it will happen naturally. I've deleted glo off my phone and thrown away all the early pregnancy tests. I can't handle crying every month and blocking people off social media when I see their announcement .... jealous much

Thanks MrsJones. Suggestions for your business name - Knotty But Nice? Or Professional Leg-rubber (quoting Karl Pilkington there!) x

Just got tests back to confirm I’m ovulating. I was feeling kind of positive this month but with af round the corner (tomorrow or Thursday) I’m starting to get those all too familiar cramps so I guess I’m out. I’m only on cycle 11 of ttc and I already feel so over it :(

Any update @juneybean! How many DPO are you?

Amazing news ovulation has been confirmed though @Lilypad15 - sending positive vibes your way.

Just got my period :/

Ugh negative frer at 12dpo. It couldn’t actually have been more blazingly negative. Oh well. Roll on af on Friday then :(

@juneybean aarrggh I'm sorry. It doesn't get easier this does it!!! Is your partner supportive? How does she cope when AF comes around?

@Lilypad15 sorry about the BFN. Technically you're not out until AF arrives but I know you said you were also having cramps etc. Sorry if this turns out to not be your month x

Stupid silly sterile September eh?! Bring on October instead x

Boo hiss! Sorry to hear that @juney!

I hate & love it - but sterile september made me chuckle @Janefx40!

Agh no @juney!! Hope ur indulging yourself now in wine/beer/vodka/any kind of alcohol and chocolate!

Thanks all! It's bloody shitty. Hope you are all doing okay!

Sterile September! Snigger. Bloody feels like it. Hope no ones too distraught.

Just entering the tww half heartedly here. First time since coil removal I'm looking at a normal cycle and ov CD14 but I can't get excited. Massive piss up due at the weekend, not great timing but blowed if I'm not seeing 40 in with a bang.

I reckon I'm getting a book to encourage some more adventure in the bedroom. Getting bored!

Beginning of fertile week and having a huge row with 'd'h, grrr. I don't want to look at him nm do anything else!!!