anyone else just fucked off with this lark and want to moan?

[stillvicarinatutu]

come on then.
moan away.
ill start. i m just so fucking fucked off. lost one last year at 44....i thought its a miracle!! wasnt to be but filled me with what appears to be false hope.

been trying ever since. and no. every month the same. this month as well as AF ive another surprise - a cyst. where no one ever ever wants one.
so this month will be lost. along with all dignity as i beg the hospital to lance it.

moan away. go on. you know you want to.

@juney. Let's hope it's a premonition!!!!

My brother (3 yrs younger) and his wife have 3 kids under 4, when she announced her second pregnancy I had miscarried about 3 months before. When they announced the last one we had been trying again for 4 months and just got another BFN. I felt jealous and angry that it wasn't me but now the kids are here I love them yo pieces

Ughhhh, been ttc since April and with no results. Tried tracking and bding on only the mostnfertile of days, tried leaving st alone and letting it happen naturally orbits own accord, nothing. Now I'm just losing my patience. All the while the 2 dd's I have keep asking me for a baby like listen honestly I'm working on it. It's not just magic you know guys. Then I've got dh's family on me about it too. Honestly people I'm trying I don't know what more you want from me. I want it more than any of you people do trust me. coffee, wine! Survival kit!

I love you for this!!!! My turn..........

My best friend has a little one who is near 6 months and we were talking yesterday about someone we knew being preg and i happened to say everyone is these days and she turns round and says she would go again soon now dont get me wrong shes more than welcome to work away its her life however....... im still sitting here with no babies and she knows me and dh have been trying i just thought it was very insensitive of her or im just bery hormonal and sensitive myself af due im very sore and no sign of her yet 😞 thanks for the rant!!

Feeling negative nancy today, feel like it hasn't worked again (although only 7DPO)

Just feel like it'll never work.

@juney I hate days like that it just makes you feel so fucked off. Even the kids at school (I'm a teacher!) Have started now cos two people in my dept are pregnant. 'miss why aren't you having a kid?!' I want to answer...I don't fucking know!!!!! I'm trying my best!!!!

I am pretty sure I am being ridiculous & won't be upset if you see nothing. But, I have just done an OPK & a pregnancy test - I am sure I can see the faintest whisper of a line on the pregnancy test.

Can you see anything?! Or am I officially TTC Line crazy!!

OMG I think I can see it!!!

This is the picture inverted which helps sometimes to see...

Oh my goodness @juneybean - if this is correct it means I ovulate only a few days after AF! Trying not to get my hopes up & stay calm - it's hard though!!

So... when do I test again?! Advice please xx

Wait 48 hours and it should be much darker!

When do you think you ovulated?

9 or 10 days ago - so VERY early @juneybean! Gosh / will have to use all my willpower to not test in the morning!

That's so exciting! We've been together on these threads for months haha!

I'm not going anywhere!! I still thought when you said that that the test isn't showing a line, I need to see it again first!

I have loved hearing all your progress & always look out for your updates @juney! 🤞

I see it too!! All the very best xxx

Feeling pretty low today like I'm never gonna manage this. I so desperately want to be a mum. I know it can take a healthy couple 2 years to conceive but I'm so impatient, I have wanted this for years and really thought it would just happen right away when we started.

I don't have anyone IRL to moan about this with, none of my friends are at this stage (although DHs friends seem to have all started firing babies out!) and I'm embarrassed about it not happening. I feel like I'm barren, especially when we see DHs lovely pregnant friends and ones with babies. I'm so jealous and I feel like it's never going to happen for me.

Had a BFN this morning with FMU so think it was a false alarm! 😩

So sorry to hear you are feeling like that @micropig - so hard isn't it. It's SO tough with pregnant friends & family. X

Oh no love sorry to hear that :(

@micropig sorry you feel like that, but i feel you!!! Seems to he everyone is firing out babies left right and centre these days! 😢 how long have you been trying?

@juneybean sorry for your false alarm 😢 when is AF due?

@juneybean SORRY!!! Tagged wrong person!!! 🙊🙊😳😳

@LovePinaColada meant to tag you!!! 😳🙊

Love sorry to hear about your false alarm!

Been trying since May but been wanting to start trying for over a year before that. Not been OPKing or anything though yet.

Just went on BuzzFeed to take my mind off it and it was plastered with the news that one of the Jenners is now pregnant argh!

Ahh @micropig sorry missed your post. It's utterly shit isn't it. You can rant to us anytime we totally understand what you're going through.

Ok ladies I need your help!! Currently training to be a sports massage therapist to try and take my mind off of the shit that is TTC and offer me half an out road of my current job....I'm absolutely loving it! However need to start thinking of markets and advertising. Problem is I'm the least creative person in the world!! Anyone want to help me to try and name my business??? Would love some input! I realise this isn't strictly TTC but thought it would help have some giggles of we come up with some good ones? I liked knots and niggles but someone already has that!!

Thanks ladies! Goodness knows when AF is due I have been having long cycles, short cycles, random heavy bleeding & light spotting in between cycles! Who knows!

I still have hope for this month/the start of next - trying to remain positive! Good luck to everyone here.

Best of luck Mrs Jones - I am self employed & love a good biz start up chat! Will rack my brains for you.

Just hopping on for a moan!

Been ttc since December. Not been pregnant at all (no chemicals and no mc) had all the faff with timing intercourses, tracking, attempting bbt, taking opks. Been for scans (first found an anomaly, follow up found nothing but they couldn’t give me any definitive explanation as to what the anomaly was or why it was gone the second time) just had some blood tests done to check my progesterone levels. I’m only 10 months in and I’m already fucked off with it all.

My younger sister got pregnant by accident earlier this year. She terminated. Then in June she got pregnant again by accident. She’s now in the full throes of pregnancy. Huge bump already, scan pictures galore. Everyone in the family talking about baby names, buying clothes etc etc. I’m so excited to have a niece on the way but it’s like everyone has become insensitive to my feelings. I mean, I don’t expect them to just never talk about it around me but I’m just so fed up of putting on a face and making out like I don’t die a little inside every time my period shows up after another failed month and everyone around me seems to be getting pregnant by accident. It’s just not fair. I hate myself for being so jealous and obviously I would never say anything to my sister or my family but it just hurts. I’m a week away from period number 11 since starting ttc and I just know deep down it’s another failed cycle and I feel like drs aren’t taking me seriously about my fertility concerns. Scar tissue in my uterus/tubes was banded about as a possible reason for the anomaly seen on my scan initially and lighter, shorter periods kind of go hand and hand with it (Ashermans Syndrome) but instead of sending me for proper testing like an hsg or something, they’re making me start from the bottom having progesterone tests etc. I know this is the NHS way but I feel like I’m wasting time because I KNOW something is wrong and I’ve told them what it most likely is but instead of looking into it, they’re ruling everything else out first.

Argh. Anyway. Much love to you all