Ah thanks guys - I don't feel very strong today, but I do feel better and you've all played a part in that. Nothing could have prepared me for how much today was going to hurt, but I know I need to, and can, ride it out.
I'm so glad you've all found my posts about IVF helpful. I'm not going to lie, not having a happy outcome hurts like a bitch, especially when rightly or wrongly (but it can't be helped), IVF has been a comfort blanket in the background during all the disappointment we've already had. But, it has shown me that I can handle the process, and I've surprised myself with how much I can take in my stride if I really want something. And today's disappointment has shown me I want this more than anything. I'll do it again, and it may fail again, but I'll get through it. I'm going to take some time to grieve, because it is a loss, and I won't let anyone make me think otherwise, and then DH and I will fight again 
But for now, all I need to do, is enjoy the cheesiest pizza in the land and a huge glass bottle of wine (see picture - it really is the cheesiest!). AF has arrived in full force, and it's a real bitch this month.
I'm so sorry about the BFN skipper and spotting mouse - we're all in the same shitty boat, but we will get there!
DH has been amazing skipper, he's sad, and we cried together, but therapy has really helped us understand how we each deal with hurt and how we can support each other.