Thread 30, TTC #1 | Hilda hopefuls are still riding the shag wagon

[Jamon]

Calling all OPK-ers, Temp-ers, Clomid-ers, Femara-ers, IUI-ers, IVF-ers and anyone else on the TTC #1 Bus.


We've been going a while now so the novelty has well and truly worn off and we're slightly battle scarred and bruised in the cervix area. We don't get a lot of baby dust in these here parts, we just keep it legs spread and fingers crossed (LSFX). We love a baby bomb from a prior bus-mate but if we get told to 'just relax and enjoy it' ONE MORE TIME you will get a punch in the face!


Hop on board, post your stats and prepare to be dazzled by the wealth of TTC knowledge we long-timeys have to share...


Key:
HS - have/had sex
GOS - good old shag
ELH - enthusiastic lavatory happenings
LSFX - legs spread, fingers crossed

Thanks skipper.

otters thinking of you.

How are you doing pyjamas?

I have had two pregnancy dreams this week, a happy one on Monday where I had a baby and a sad one last night that I was pregnant again and it was another ectopic. I'm in fertile week but so far we've only managed CD8 and CD9, now I'm on CD 11 and got my first positive OPK this morning, so hoping if we get on it tonight, tomorrow and Friday we'll be ok.

Well after I'd been so proud of myself for handling it all so well - I had a complete fucking meltdown at work today and am now at home feeling dazed and exhausted. All triggered by the fact that I saw a tiny amount of spotting on the loo paper (haven't seen any since), uncontrollably cried in loos (thank goodness I was alone), then had a meeting with my boss and cried at him and the whole story came out. Now feel a bit like an idiot.

Just seeing the spotting triggered the failure I feel every damn month, especially as the timing is right - I'm 7dp5dt which would put me at 12dpo in natural ttc terms, which makes it right on schedule 😢

Oh pyjamas. Hugs for you. Was your boss at least understanding?

Don't beat yourself up for feeling this way, whatever the outcome the whole process is a huge emount of emotional and physical strain.

Thanks flash - yeah he was really understanding and told me to work from home for he next couple of days (if I felt up to it)

The meltdown really came out of nowhere - I feel a bit stunned and have a cracking headache!

Are you home now? Could you take a nap?

Massive hugs. Hope headache goes and maybe a nap is in order. X

Totally understandable pyjamas, I'm glad your boss was sympathetic though and hopefully you feel a bit better being at home. Thinking of you

Pyjamas - so sorry, a huge virtual hug from me. I hate to be 'that' person but are you sure it is what you think it is? Spotting isn't the be all and end all (although I totally understand your mental processes and I'd be thinking the same too). What day were you going to test? Was it Friday?

Thanks so much everyone. Jeez, this is hard. Much harder than any other part of it.

Feel a bit better after being away from work - I just haven't got the Headspace to deal with work pressure as well as this pressure and everything got too much. The spotting has stopped (for now), which is a relief.

You're right skipper - it really could be anything and I even remember the dr saying spotting is normal in IVF at the transfer appointment. I guess seeing it just triggered all these negative feelings I've been trying so hard to keep in check! Yep - test on Friday.

Oh pyjamas I wanna give you a massive hug and a little shake. I know you see spotting as a negative but it's sooooooo not. Not for everyone and not in every case. You said it yourself it was a tiny bit. It can be completely normal. I have a friend who spotted throughout her first trimester and stressed probably more than she would like to admit but it was normal. It was just her wombs way of coping with such an intrusive little madam. Her daughter is still a little madam now!! I know it's super hard, but trust your body. You are amazing!!!! Xxx

Nothing more to report from me. I'm bloody hungry though and I don't want to tempt fate but it hurt when I sneezed today. Last time that happened... hmmm. I'm probably just feeling sensitive.

Pyjamas - make sure you spend the rest of the working week at home and get your zen back. IVF is a terribly tough process both physically and emotionally and you must take care of yourself above all else. Fx for Friday.

Mouse - painful sneezes is a symptom? Why have you told me this, I had a violent sneeze earlier and thought my eyeballs were going to pop out. 😂 Not at all because of the high pollen count. When are you due?

Big virtual hug for you pyjamas I'm glad your boss was so understanding. Stay positive I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you 🤞🏼

Fx skipper and mouse also let's hope strong sneezes are our thread BFP thing

I had a good symptom spot yesterday - was really itchy! Groin armpits scalp. Googled of course and one of the first link says 'pregnancy' 🙄🙄🙄

Paha, well it felt like I was being stabbed in the V when I sneezed. I'm not even sure it's a symptom 😂😂 (it's definitely freaking not) I'm due Monday. I have no idea how many DPO I am, maybe 10?

Thanks so much mouse, skipper and jam - I've chilled out a bit now. Fucking hell, haven't had a meltdown like that for ages, I'm exhausted! Feels a bit silly after a tiny bit of spotting, but I think it was the thing that finally pushed me over the edge and everything came out all at once.

Sneezing and itching ha ha love it 😂

I still remember the cycle where my cereal tasted of bacon and not only had I convinced myself I was pregnant but everyone on here too. I miss those crazy days a little bit.

Stabby vag pain and bacon cereal. We should write a book. 😂😂😂

Ah me too skipper I had a cycle where my tea tasted metallic. I had another with heartburn and ran to boots in the morning to buy a FRER. Got home to pee on it and saw blood. What an absolute douche! I can't remember when I last tested now. Gone are those heady days!

Pyjamas an emotional blowout is no bad thing. IVF is an emotionally and physically draining process you are entitled to cry xx

Glad you're feeling a bit better now pyjamas, are you staying at home tomorrow? I think a meltdown at some point during IVF must be inevitable if only because of all the hormones hurtling around.

Ooh I was really itchy yesterday Jam, maybe I'm pregnant with a miracle baby. I'm sure google will tell me that it's perfectly possible for sperm to live for two weeks if I look hard enough!

Oh girls, have had worst work week in a long time and I've barely slept let alone kept up to speed, sorry 😞

See there are some more congratulations in order! Fab news rainbow 🌈🎉

Chloe what's the puppy update???

Pyjamas have been wishing that little blasto has bedded in nicely, huge fx for you. The spotting might be nothing- really hope it's just your body settling into pregnancy 🤞Good that your boss was so understanding and hope you're feeling a bit better now

What have you guys decided about looking into the variocele privately jam? You are very right about the backwardness of the NHS

Glad you're feeling better Bassett 👍

Skipper the honeymoon sounds AMAZING. Wow! Hope being back at work hasn't been too dreadful

Kathrino you are always so positive- admire that so much! Fx there are some super sperm in there for you!

Mouse sneezing stabby vag pain?! that'll be another symptom I can drive myself crazy looking for when I'm being batshit crazy next week

And Otter- I am so very sorry to hear your sad news. Hope you're being well looked after. Take care of yourself 💐

DH is working so late we're not going to dtd tonight. Boobs have started aching and tummy aches so wondering if I've already ovulated. Ah well, thats probably me out this month. I can't even get worked up about it.

Sorry to hear you've had such a stressful week binky.

The crazy symptoms make me laugh!

Yeah am staying home tomorrow kath - will keep an eye on emails, but will help massively not being in an open plan office pretending nothing is happening. Don't get me googling about super sperm - I've googled just about everything else this week 😂

And thanks binky - I've still got some hope! Really sorry to hear you've had a bad week - hope things look up soon 🙂

And you're right jam - thinking about it, it would be weirder if I didn't get emotional about it all at some point!

Sending you aaaaall the sticky blasto vibes, pyjamas. Sorry about the meltdown; FX for Friday!

Bunny, sorry about the rough week.

Sorry you've had such a tough week Binky, hopefully the weekend is in sight for you now! I've had too many of those weeks recently and it really drains you doesn't it?

Flash, that was us this month too. Either one of us was working late or out so it never happened. Like you though, I struggle to care. I don't really feel like actually having sex will improve my chances at this point!

Pyjamas, hopefully you can have a nice chilled out day today. Totally agree that open plan offices are really not where you want to be when so much else is going on.

Hope you're ok otters, so sorry to hear your news. It's just absolutely horrible. xx

binky the puppy is absolutely gorgeous! He's just so cute and loving and it's so nice having a little companion around the house :) I'm already absolutely in love with him and am so pleased we've got him.

Hope you're doin ok pyjamas. can totally understand the meltdown! Everyone says the wait is so intense and is the hardest part so well done for keeping it together as much as you are! Keeping everything crossed for you.

We went for follow up appt this week and DH's sperm has already improved from taking Proxeed Plus and he has to have the op for his varicocele on Monday which is really quick so that's really good. It's expensive but half the price of what IMSI would be and if we don't get this done the problem will still be there so chances are IMSI might not work anyway so it's definitely the right thing for us to do at this stage.