Thread 29 | The one with the BFPs (please)

[Londonjam]

Calling all OPK-ers, Temp-ers, Clomid-ers, Femara-ers, IUI-ers, IVF-ers and anyone else on the TTC #1 Bus.

We've been going a while now so the novelty has worn off and we're slightly battle scarred and bruised in the cervix area. We don't get a lot of baby dust in these here parts, we just keep it legs spread and fingers crossed (LSFX). We love a baby bomb from a prior bus-mate but if we get told to 'just relax and enjoy it' ONE MORE TIME you will get a punch in the face!

Hop on board, post your stats and prepare to be dazzled by the wealth of TTC knowledge we long-timeys have to share...

Key:
HS - have/had sex
GOS - good old shag
ELH - enthusiastic lavatory happenings
LSFX - legs spread, fingers crossed

Rabiya, I've had two longish cycles recently. The first one must have been one where I didn't ovulate for whatever reason. In the second one, my body geared up to ovulate but then I was super busy/stressed at work and it didn't happen and happened two weeks later. That was a long and tedious wait. Do you temp or track ovulation at all?

Jam, hope the review went well today! I've got my year end performance conversation this afternoon and I've just had a cheeky glass of wine with lunch so not sure I'm really in the right frame of mind for it....

Kerry, hope your DH feels better soon!

Flash, I'm going to be home alone all weekend and I think my diet will be 90% cheese 👍🏻

Aforementioned wine (plus a steak) means that I don't think I'm going to have a very productive afternoon...

Please don't read the 20 week scan disappointment thread which is trending. It is vile, and I'm fairly sure also written by a troll. I read it thinking someone might have had bad news and need some reassurance.

I hope it's ok to post this here - I'm feeling quite sad and desperate. I got a BFP earlier today (well, technically a real squinter on an IC and a clear but faint line on a FRER). I feel absolutely certain that it'll go the same way as the last two. I don't feel any optimism at all, and I burst into tears as soon as I saw it - I feel like now I just have to prepare myself for another unpleasant ordeal. It feels like I'm being tortured, or like someone's playing a sick joke on me. I don't really know why I tested - I was sure I was out this cycle, and I'm only 10dpo anyway - and maybe I shouldn't have. Perhaps I should try and stay positive, but I just know it won't work out. I hadn't even started with the aspirin or anything else to try and boost my chances. I'm sorry if this post seems inappropriate for the thread, I do know that lots of people would like to be looking at a BFP, but I just feel so desolate and certain that I'm going to have a nasty disappointment yet again.

Oh lisa don't apologise at all. I'm so sorry you feel worried but given what you've been through it's perfectly normal.

There's nothing I can really say to make you feel better but you are pregnant now and you've got a line even at 10 dpo. Both of those are good things. Is your DH/DP there to support you?

And I forgot to say, congratulations, for when you feel ready for them.

I've been so terrible catching up over the last few days that I've made a conscious effort to reply to as many of you as possible. Normally I read along at work but its so hectic I've hardly picked my phone up recently. So...

Welcome Rabiya, wishing you all the success with your ongoing TTC journey.

Jam - I would say the only side effect I had from the clomid was one night where I got over-emotional for no apparent reason. The ovulation pain was different this time. Normally I would describe it as a trapped-wind feeling but this time it was a general heaviness from both sides, like there was pressure that needed to be released. 1dpo the sensation had completely cleared. I would admit that even though I had been perscribed the tablets, I was still very nervous about taking it but my fears were unfounded really so I think you will be absoulutely fine. Just be careful with your dosage, they put me on 25mg (half a tablet) from CD 2-6 so I wouldn't do anymore than 50mg CD 2-6 if I was you. Do you have a game plan? Also did you say you was paying for a scan to check your follicles?

Kerry - Oh no, its so annoying when sickness gets in the way of fertile week. Is there any way you can do it quickly and efficiently? I know it takes the romance out of it but hey, you gotta do what you gotta do.

Flash - I'd order pizza. I've put a few links in below to things I make when I'm not a lazy slob.

Lisa - I totally understand your insecurity bearing in mind everything you've been through. But you must be positive! Wait a few more days, try with another test just to confirm and then we'll go from there. I'm going to say congratulations because it is a good thing and there is nothing to say that this wont be the one that sticks.

www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/6616/garlic-prawns-with-asian-puy-lentils

www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/8107/sticky-salmon-with-chinese-greens

www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/honey-mustard-grilled-salmon-puy-lentils

www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/1398/italian-broccoli-and-salmon-bake

www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/1167651/chicken-and-chorizo-jambalaya

I was really hoping DH would agree to order pizza tonight because it's raining and we've both got work to do but he wants something 'healthy' before he goes on a stag weekend so we're having a stir fry. So boring.

Lisa, given everything that you've been through, I can absolutely understand why you reacted the way that you did. It must be so hard for you. Wishing you lots and lots of luck.

Hope your review went well kath. Mine was okay, been put on a 6 month promotion plan but it's already long overdue so I'm still kind of pissed off to be honest

Ah Lisa that's completely understandable. I'm keeping everything crossed for you xx

Skipper thanks for the info. It's really out of character for me to do anything like this against medical advice but having heard the experience of your consultant I feel like I need to give it a go. I am going to take 25mg from day 2-6 and book a private scan for day 12 - does that sound right?

So glad to almost have this week over. I wore new shoes today and went a bit overboard in the gym yesterday so my legs have hurt a LOT all day and my shoes have rubbed skin off my toes and I'm so uncomfortable and now I've got to go home apologise to and feed the cat and go straight to orchestra rehearsal. Want to lie on the sofa so much!!!!

jam I didn't know you were in an orchestra! Me too! What do you play?

lisa congratulations! I can totally see where you're coming from and I've been there. Just take each day as it comes. I would book an early scan for around 7 weeks - once you see a heartbeat chance of mc drops dramatically - and that's only a few weeks to wait. Fingers crossed for you!

Jam - yep CD12 sounds about right for your scan. Make sure they check the thickness of your womb lining too because Clomid can thin it. Alexia suggested to me that I drink 2-3 cups of Raspberry Leaf tea (you can buy it from Holland and Barrett if you don't already drink it) and 1-2 glasses of grapefruit juice daily. My womb was withing normal range so assume it got the job done.

Hi lisa I don't know your back story but I can guess from what you've written. Congratulations and take it a day at a time. Wait a few more days and test again maybe with a digital so it feels more real?

sk1pper those are the recipes that I cook too! Particularly like the jambalaya and salmon recipes. I had salmon with spinach and tomatoes for my dinner tonight.

jam good luck with the clomid. Scan around cd12 sounds perfect. Someone advised pomegranate juice which is what I've been drinking but must get some raspberry leaf tea and grapefruit juice as well then!

I'm still waiting for DH to get home. So tired but got to dtd tonight. Been reminding him but he had a work thing and couldn't get out of it. Hope he gets home before I fall asleep!

Harriet - violin! You?

Ta skipper and otters I will try this famous raspberry leaf tea !

Is this where we find out that Harriet and Jam are actually in the same orchestra given the number of coincidences we end up with on this thread?!

Well done on the promotion plan Jam, sounds like a good result although can totally understand your frustration with delays. My review was cancelled, hurrah!

Think AF is going to arrive tomorrow. Onwards and upwards!

Thank you for the kind messages, everyone. I took an IC when I woke up this morning and it was lighter than yesterday's, so I suspect this one is already all over. I hope it's quicker this time - the last two it's taken at least a week/10 days from the lines not getting darker to AF finally coming and it's such a horrible time. I just keep crying. I really don't think this is ever going to work for me.

Lisa - what test are you using, an FRER? I hope it isn't what you expect, still hopeful x

Woke up feeling very queasy again this morning, what is going on? Maybe it is a side effect of the Clomid - I'll need to check...

A quick google search confirms it can mimic pregnancy symptoms. Also the leg cramps I got the other day were probably from the Clomid.

Hi all for some reason yesterday my posts did not want to post!!! Thanks for all the lovely messages re me worrying ha feel really silly now but tbh it was def last month more about DH being away during FW than anything and feeling hopeless. You guys are great and I have learnt so much!!!

Freaking out a bit to be honest about this. Convinced there was no chance this week the last time we had a GOS was the Tuesday morning (i think) it could have been the Monday night actually because that's when I last made a note and I had positive ov test on the Thursday ...really weird!!!

Thanks, skip - this morning was an internet cheapie; I'll take another FRER tomorrow morning.

It just all feels so weird: six months of trying and nothing, then three cycles in a row of conceiving and losing it. I'm starting to feel like maybe I'm going mad and imagining the whole thing. I've been making DH look at the tests repeatedly just to confirm that the lines are really there! He's been great throughout all of this, but he's always more optimistic than me - I think each time the bleeding has been a genuine shock for him, but not for me.

Feel a bit guilty about my last post been thinking about it on way in to work and know how heartbreaking this process is for everyone generally on this post...and now just read lisa post and how uncertain you are about stuff...seriously I hope this is the one for you!!! I am still in disbelief over the BFP this morning tbh but being realistic about it as well xxx going to catch up on rest of thread not sure why I couldn't post yesterday i typed my post and then the doughnut of doom came up on my phone hmmm

Oh no lisa I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hopefully it will all be ok but if it's not then I've taken comfort from the fact that the NHS will do all their investigations once you've had 3 losses, so hopefully you can find a solution, and if you're going to end up in that place at least you've got there quickly. It feels so unfair though doesn't it. I've ended up seeing someone privately so I could be seen quicker - can send you the details if you need once you know more. And everything might be ok anyway. Will be thinking of you.

congrats missy! Hope you have a very boring pregnancy!

Ha ha kath that would be funny! jam if your orchestra is good please pm me the details as I'm always looking for a good one! Will pm you my instrument as it's a bit outing and I like to be anonymous on the public bits of the internet!

Congratulations Missy! What a great positive!

Lisa I'm sorry you're feeling so anxious. The strength of lines is not always indicative of how strong the pregnancy is, particularly with ICs which I understand can vary greatly in terms of detection of hcg etc.

Jam Harriet if you guys are in the same orchestra that would be amazing!

Skipper sorry the side effects are messing you around. FX that the clomid also does it's actual job and gets you upduffed!

lisa I so so hope you are wrong. Are ICs that reliable? The control line on my cheapy OPKs differs a lot, so a positive OPK each month can look different. Really really hoping for you.

Congralutions missy! Please don't feel bad or guilty. This TTC game is the luck of the draw. WIshing you a very safe and healthy 8-9 months ahead.

Cryptic harriet! Yes I'll pm you the details for sure.