We're ovulating again, so let's jump our men. It's TTC after miscarriage thread ten!

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I hope I did ok with the title (thanks for the inspiration Emwithme). I felt a bit lost without a thread to post on so I thought I'd have a bash at it.

Congrats to the BFPs and commiserations for the BFNs!

CD37 here, with BFNs every day since last weekend. I don't usually go more than 32 days in a cycle so it's really weird. I don't think I'm pg because I have no symptoms (I've had sore boobs in the past) and had definite af cramps last weekend, but now I'm getting weird cm (which has also been a sign of pg for me in the past).

Ironically I started the ovia app this month and now it's given up on predicting anything!

I really hate being in this limbo. Worse than the 2ww! I don't really know what to do with myself...

I can feel AF on the way... Hopefully will re-establish like normal. I've had a terrible chest infection, so has DH. And I've been milling no end of cake & sweets (I was eating so well, with the baby). Feeling rubbish!
So, when AF arrives it's back to healthy eating, vitamins, walking & lots of bedroom action for me!

Sorry anne too it's really rubbish isn't it. And those of you waiting, I feel it's actually impossible not to symptom spot. Which in a way I see as a positive, good to have some hope yes? Who knows!!
Anyway I'm now on day 11 of weird af/spotting and I'm over it. Going to start my cheaply opks in a couple of days just in case anything is happening...

yellow sorry to ask I forget with the thread moving so fast but is this your first cycle after your mc? Is that why you weren't sure where you were?

And hope you all have a nice bank holiday tomorrow and enjoy yourselves.

So today this happened!!!!! Got a real squinted yesterday on ds's bird at which was 11 days PoV ! And today on day 12 on afternoon wee for this on the free that I amazon primes last night!!!!!!
Am in total shock as really hadn't expect to happen so fast - this is our first cycle post mmc in march! And I don't feel terrified which is amazing as when I envisaged a bfp that was how I saw
Myself reacting! I keep recreating
To
Myself one day at a time and for
Now that feels v v good! Probably next week anxiety will have hit big time but for now team conker are in. Happy place!
Sorry loads of you are being got by af! I would really swear by the opk's! If hadn't used them this month would never have know ov was a week earlier!

Strange that you're still waiting on af or a bfp waterfeature. Keep testing! You never know, lots people finally get their bfp's well after af is late. I have everything crossed for you still!!

Congratulations conkerchops! So so pleased to see a fellow March mmc buddy getting a bfp! Also super glad you're in such a positive place - keep a hold of that wonderful vibe! Yay for another bfp xx

Hello- just read the thread and you are all so supportive and kind. I think I need to venture in too as I am a bit all over the place. Smiling to all and being 'normal' yet comfort eating and wanting to Sleep for days. Then being utterly happy and joyous.
Weird hormones.

Just had my third mc. Went through my second mmc at the end of April at 10 weeks, erpc, repeat of the one( erpc
At 10weeks) in December, only the last one sadly was twins. And a 6 week natural in august last year. I have a 20month old Ds too. No af since erpc. Ugh.

Referred to St. George's rmc and my
Appt is on the 8th June. Am going by myself as dh is on a business trip. Should he be there? What do they say or do?

I am hypothyroid - hashimotos but only got
Diagnosed in may last year. Had a blood test last week as normal monitoring as it is still trial and error on the Meds.

Still in limbo here as well. AF not starting properly but still getting BFN.

I've had a couple of glasses of wine tonight Just kept being so sure AF was coming.

DS said something lovely today. I was getting ready to go out and putting on foundation, he asked "Is that to get rid of your spots?" I said no, it just covers them up and he said "You don't need to use that, everyone is different and you should be yourself just as you are". :) So sweet.

Conker congrats! So happy for you.

Stressville I'm so sorry for your losses. It's completely heartbreaking. I cannot imagine three. ❤️ Everyone here is very lovely.

Today has been a bit crap. It's hit me harder than I thought it would. Keep having little crying spells (having sobbed last night). My poor dh doesn't really know what to do or say and I'm making him sad too. Mostly annoying as I've been busy with friends all day, and have to plaster on a happy face.

Dancing ♥️

stuck I'm sorry you're here, I remember you I think from the November thread, the middle to late one?! I've found it an amazing support. I've only had 2 mc so no knowledge of rmc clinics, but sure someone will help out soon xx

Whispered congratulations @conkerchops. That's how my BFP looked at 13dpo and it's darkened today and I took a digital which said 2-3 weeks. I've felt horrible today though and like I'm just expecting it all to go wrong. I've had mild cramping and everytime I go to the toilet I expect there to be blood. Not sure I can cope with this anxiety over the next 8-10 weeks! Miscarriage is a shitty bastard and will taint my pregnancy even if it all works out which is horrible. Xx

conkerchops

Wow congratulations on the BFP!
Hoping that things go smoothly.

Wow all seems v quick since your MMC in March, you lucky thing!

I had a MMC almost 1 year ago and been TTC since July.

All these BFPs are great but actually, for me, don't give me much hope as it's already taken so long I can't quite believe it's ever going to happen again.

Coming up to the 1 year anniversary of that dreadful dating scan where we found out the bad news.

It's in a couple of weeks and I can already feel myself getting anxious and angry...all those horrible feelings are coming back again.

The upset of being 12+6 with excited plans to tell our family.

The anger and frustration of realising I'd been had by Mother Nature, the baby stopped developing over a month before without a sign to alert me.

I was hugely angry about the amount of time "wasted" as I was turning 38 a few months after MMC.

The thought of TTC again kept me positive and sane.

I remember sitting in the car on that boiling hot day last summer after finding out the bad news. Trying to visualise myself in 12 months time- I was so certain I'd be pregnant or even have had a baby!

How bloody wrong could I be?!

Am actually thinking of seeking out some counselling at this point.

Post-MMC I didn't see any need to seek help as my own "self-help" was TTC which helped me feel positive.

I just don't think I can take more and more disappointment

Turquoise... I'm so sorry you feel so shit. Your time is going to come. Counselling might not be a bad idea, not because there's anything wrong with how you feel but having a safe space face to face to talk through everything might help destress you. Sending internet hugs...

5/6dpo here. Zero symptoms besides insomnia (hence the 5.30am posting time lol) and some bloating. Really hungry too which is usually a sign of AF for me and she's due Friday so I think I'm out. Ovulated really late though so AF probably going to play games with my head. No idea when to test either, probably will try at 10dpo, is that wildly too early?

Turquoise ♥️** I understand and expect that I'll feel the same way if this takes longer than expected.

Today my CBFM decided to start working again and after missing 3 test days I got a High reading! Don't know if it's the first day of High or the fourth day of High, therefore. But either way there will be some DTD action tonight! The cycle I got my BFP I had 4 days of High before getting a Peak. Anyway I'm happy that things are gearing up to return to normal. It's 2wks2 days since I started bleeding and 1wk5 days since the miscarriage completed.

Turquoise un-MNy (hugs). There is a supportive 10 month + TTC thread here if you feel like joining, it can be helpful to find others in the same (shitty!) position.

Have you thought about seeking medical investigation or are you not ready for that yet? We recently hit the year mark too (TTC since the end of March 2016, 2 miscarriages early on in that year, nothing since.)

@turquiose sending you a huge hug - I have been having counselling since our first mmc in October and I can so so recommend it - it has given me and dh a guaranteed safe space to talk it all through and somewhere where you know you can cry and process and will receive total understanding - a bit
Like this thread really. I thought I could cope on my own but I so couldn't :-(
Is there a
Pregnancy loss charity where you live ? We have one based at addenbrookes in Cambridge called
Petals and you can self refer - and get seen v v quickly - I think we got an appt 7 days after me emailing them!
I do feel ridiculously lucky that it has Happened so soon for us - but I know the hideous anxiety about checking for bleeding the the terror of those early scans is just round the corner and just have no idea how to cope with those!
This thread is simply amazing and you guys are so awesome - the support from here has helped me as much as the counselling and the reflexology and the running!!! Xxxxxxx

Bit of a squinter here - it's far clearer IRL though. New mantra "today, I am pregnant".

Now to try and re-wean myself off bloody coffee...I am Not Good in the mornings.

Wow, em congratulations!! Really hope this one sticks for you.

Wow @em congratulations - let's keep everything crossed we both have sticky beans this time!

Congrats @conker and @em!

Yay another! Congratulations emwithme! Great mantra. Wishing you all the best for a "boring" pregnancy! Xx

Wow Congrats on all the BFP's, Fingers crossed they are all sticky beans Hopefully a few more are on the way xx

Pretty uneventful few days for me, going to try to go a bit easy on the OPK's this month and just DTD when we feel like it and not when the second line tells me to!

Amy ditto. Abandoning SMEP and opks. Will carry on temping, as I've found that quite interesting and will help me pinpoint when ov has happened. My cycles are pretty short, and I was surprised how late I ovd this month.

Congrats em and conker great news.
turquoise so sorry you're feeling crap, maybe counselling is a great idea. Massive hugs to you though xx

@Dancing I have been looking into temping as only relied on opks before. My question is, does it tell you you have ovulated for sure? As in released an egg? Basically i have been diagnosed with PCOS and the Dr said i could get false positives on the OPKS (Just want i wanted to f**king hear) As i have immature follicles i am not sure if its my hormones with are out so i get the positive OPKS late in my cycle but may have not actually ovulated...If that makes any sense!