We're ovulating again, so let's jump our men. It's TTC after miscarriage thread ten!

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I hope I did ok with the title (thanks for the inspiration Emwithme). I felt a bit lost without a thread to post on so I thought I'd have a bash at it.

Dancing I got a whiff of a line at 7dpo everyone said I was mad.. got a faint line on a FRER at 10dpo though! Thinking of you it's so hard the wait x

I'm intrigued to see what my CBFM says tomorrow morning

Can I join you ladies?

I've been lurking from afar but I didn't feel right joining in. I had a mmc in August 2015 and I've only just started trying again (new, less twattish partner, settled lifestyle together). Everybody seems to have mc so recently (I'm really sorry for your losses) and mine was a while ago but starting to TTC now all the old feelings and emotions are flooding back. I'm struggling with TTC - my mmc was really traumatic, I chose to have a natural miscarriage but it all got...stuck... and I ended up in A&E, dosed up to my eyeballs in morphine for days and being messed about with. The doctors and nurses were amazing, I'm grateful for that but it's my only experience ever in hospital.

I'm stressed something was damaged in my mc so I wont be able to conceive (I had an ultrasound after to check I was okay and got the all clear, but I'm still scared), scared that I for some other reason wont be able to get pregnant and I've lost my chance, but also terrified of getting pregnant and losing it again!

Please tell me I'm not alone and just losing my marbles :(

Lilsnooze, sorry you're here and for your loss. It is completely, entirely normal. I also had the same, "omg they damaged something" panic for a while (I had surgical management folllowing mmc). The only little shred of super unhelpful advice I can give is to keep busy so you're not over-thinking things. You are fine really, they won't have damaged anything. Try to relax (so easier said than done I know!) you're in great company here x

Grumpy and dancing, I have the opposite problem with testing - I'm always scared to! Ignorance is bliss and all that... I'm 7dpo today and going to hold out testing until the day of a night out a week Saturday and hope that if we're not in this month af will have arrived the day before so I can save my test. I know, I'm weird. Does anyone else feel like this? I think it's my controlling personality... haha!

@LilSnooze I understand - I had the same experience in A&E. I was meant to have surgical management the next day but it happened naturally and then I ended up having to have the tissue that got stuck removed manually (no anaesthetic) - a grim experience. I'm actually quite angry they let me pass the baby on my own and didn't prioritise the surgery I had requested (I had to wait 4 days and they knew it would probably be too late).
All the best for your TTC journey x

Hi snooze. I can imagine that this process would bring back a lot of memories for you, and I think it's completely understandable to feel this way. I walk a tightrope of being excited about the potential of being pregnant again and being terrified of it all going wrong.

Ladies - this happened this morning. It's the faintest BFP I've ever had and at 13dpo I think it could be a chemical - plus I have no symptoms at all! I feel sick. Can I stay with you guys a bit? Xx

@NicolaC17 that looks like my BFP at 12DPO I think you are good! Fingers crossed it's a sticky bean.

So for no reason other than I felt like it, I tested yesterday. I can't even tell you why- I have no symptoms at all that I couldn't explain as something else. Imagine my absolute shock when two bloody lines appeared. Two! The strongest positive I've ever had two days before I'm due on. Now I'm absolutely bricking it. Fingers crossed all the wedding planning takes my mind off it and I sail through to 12 weeks.

Fuck!

Snooze I'm sorry about your loss. What your feeling is completely normal. I spend all my time flitting between what if I can't get pregnant and then if I do what if it goes wrong. I hope you don't have to wait long to find out and in the mean time we're all here if you need support.

Nicola and NoParticular woooo! Congratulations to both of you! Stay here as long as you'd like. Wishing you both very successful pregnancies.

I didn't test this morning, no sleep last night as I had an absolutely banging headache. I ended up drinking tons of water and peeing loads! I thought there wasn't any point in testing as it was a slim chance anyway and this would have made it almost non existent!

Maybe tomorrow - we're going out for dinner in the evening. Not that I'd trust a bfn at this point......gahhh maybe I should just wait till Monday!

Wow!!! Congrats Nicola and Pattern. Amazing news. :D

Tiffin I tested. 🙈 Who the hell knows why!

Nicola just reread your post. Loads of people don't get symptoms early on. Really hope that it is a perfect sticky one for you, but definitely hang around! ❤️

Thanks all. I got up to wee in the night so this was second morning urine so hoping that's why it's a little lighter. I've had a much stronger positive at 10dpo and with the ectopic, miscarriage and chemical I can't help but worry. I'll test again on Saturday I think and hopefully see some progression.

Congratulations @noparticularpattern

Wowzers, massive congratulations Nicola and NoParticular, that's amazing! So happy for you both xxx

I tested and got a BFN so I'll leave it a couple of days and try again. Had some really low down cramping this morning so hoping if I'm out that af shows up asap so is done before we're away.

So sorry for your loss Snooze. I'm not surprised it's all coming back now you're ttc again. Share your worries and thoughts and fears and hopes and stress etc here, we're all here for you. I hope your partner is supportive and understands how you're feeling, it's so important.

Welcome to our little gang, hope you're not here for long!

Congratulations to you both, how lovely!!! Hopefully this is a really long run of bfps for us all!!

I'm on Day SIX of positive OPK. And the line is getting stronger, not weaker?!
I haven't got any symptoms of pregnancy that I did last time, except slightly crampy & kind-of tender boobs probably where I keep poking them to see if they hurt 🙄 so I'm mystified.
I'm holding out until Saturday to poas because I'm convinced it'll be a bfn.

Congratulations nicola and noparticular! Fingers crossed for you.

snooze welcome, sorry for your loss. That sounds like such a scary experience, I think it's totally understandable that you're worrried now.

emvy I'm scared of testing too! I sort of want to but I worry too much about it to actually poas. At least it stops me spending a fortune on them I guess!

anne sorry you're still in limbo. I hope you get some certainty either way so you can enjoy your holiday.

Just realised my oh is likely away during my fertile week this month which is annoying, although I'm thinking maybe this month it means we can just dtd when we want to rather than feeling pressured to keep trying at the right time even if we're not really in the mood (I think I'll still end up feeling really pressured though. I can't quite switch it off)

Congratulations @nicola and @noparticular They are both really clear positives!! Lets hope we all get lucky on this thread

I didn't have any symptoms when i got my BFP first time round and i only tested as i forgot when my last period was...oh to be that carefree again. Fast forward 4 years and i'm peeing on anything that I get my hands on haha

@Anne As you said test again in a couple of days and see what the outcome is, would be nice to know for sure either way before your holiday.

AF has eased off now so bring on the roller coaster that is TTC for another month. At least the sun is shining...x

Amy totally. I peed on a hpt and an opk this morning. For no reason whatsoever. It's far too early to show anything.

I feel really queasy though. Need to be talked down!

Still BFN here too. And I've run out of Folic acid.

@Dancing, What are you testing for? Ovulation or Pregnancy? I went crazy last month and bought so many pregnancy tests OH found them scattered all over the house and i swore i will never do it again!!

I'm 8dpo Amy. So realistically, neither!! I'm just mildly crazy!!

Dancing I know how you're feeling. Just sitting here wondering. I've been feeling really queasy and tired. Which is definitely because I've had a headache for a day or so now - bleugh and I didn't sleep! But somewhere in my head I think it could be a symptom.

yellow fingers crossed for you for sat! I hope it's good news.

Anne I hope you manage to get an answer (preferably a positive one!) before your hols. It's horrible waiting isn't it.

Tiffin, I've been feeling really queasy too. But when I'm busy I don't really notice. It's like I'm sitting and wondering 'hmm, do I feel nauseous? Yes, I think I do. Put it in an app quick'. And then for some reason keep checking the app every few hours, in case it will somehow magically tell me I am or am not pregnant!!

So sorry about the bfn Anne. Hoping it's just too soon for you.

Congratulations of your bfp's Nicola and no particular, fantastic news!

Anne, really hoping your bfn turns into a bfp over the next few days!

Glad I'm not alone on the scared to test thing hometown! It doesn't seem to put me in any better position - I'm still gutted whenever af arrives!

Ha, Dancingunicorn, I'm the same with symptoms but trying my best to attribute them all to impending af so as not to raise hopes. Last month I had nausea, sensitive nipples, headache, bloating, you name it. Af arrived. I knew deep down because although I had all those symptoms they just "felt" different to the pregnany ones I had before. The main difference being the underneath of boobs hurting rather than my nipples. So it's that symptom I'm on the lookout for!