pospsy - glad to hear you sounding so positive!!!!!! lol at having to restabilise your sugar levels!!!! I know the feeling....... my weakness on the sweetie front is plain old fruit pastilles!!!
beckle maybe i am just not thinking down the right lines, but when you say not much ewcm but plenty of other what do you mean by other . I imagine i am going to be horribly embarrassed and sound rather too interested in your bodily fluids lol.
Well, i cried a LOT last night, and some more today and after a nice morning with dd, went off on one like a total cowbag bitch from hell, and it ended up with us both crying and her telling me i'm not her friend anymore [] we have made up now, phew.
I am still feeling all sorts of unidentifiable emotions about my friend's pregnancy. I don't think I can even bear to put some of the into words, they're too irrational and horrid. I AM pleased for her, cos i know they want a baby and in many ways the odds are against them with her back probs and his epilepsy and other assorted health probs (Bless them, they could open up a branch of boots). However, I feel incredibly sad and jealous that she got there first. I know it's not a competition, but I was meant to find it easier to get pg (well, i did, but my body messed up for me). God how nasty am i sounding?? I am nice, honest.
I am finding it hard knowing i am at the mercy of my cycles. We are deffo not going to start ttc again until af has come. sigh. I know it is the sensible option, and i don't think we could deal with it any other way, but .
Have to do my "checking it's negative" test on wednesday. I kind of can't wait cos once i know this is 100% over we can just wait, for hopefully not more than a couple of weeks when af should arrive.
I've just done the clothes buying thing. only sainsburys mind you, but still clothes for a non pregnant me. thing is, i lost over 2 stone last year (hurrah), and the clothes buying only started in the new size in late august, at which point, although I was getting a few summer clothes, cos we were off to nz in oct (bloody cold it was too lol), it was mainly winter. and i hoped i would not need "normal" clothes this summer. If i get pg next or 2nd cycle (wishful thinking lol) I won't be into mat clothes til at least sept or oct (going on memory from last pg... I was in a size up (that i only got out of last year) from about 16 weeks but not maternity til I was 5 months, i think).
Anyhoooooo. I bought some trousers (summery/springish) in a khaki ish green, a brown top, and to my dd's delight a pink top. we looooove pink!!!!!!
argh - rest of sainsbury's shopping is sititng unpacked in the hall ... i'd better go and be a good wife and mother and unpack it and do dinner.
Thanks so much for all being there. This is the thread i have felt have most belongeed to in all my time on MN!!!!!!