Thread 28, TTC #1 | We may be hormonal giraffes but we don't eat no low fat humous

[Londonjam]

Calling all OPK-ers, Temp-ers, Clomid-ers, Femara-ers, IUI-ers, IVF-ers and anyone else on the TTC #1 Bus.

We've been going a while now so the novelty has worn off and we're slightly battle scarred and bruised in the cervix area. We don't get a lot of baby dust in these here parts, we just keep it legs spread and fingers crossed (LSFX). We love a baby bomb from a prior bus-mate but if we get told to 'just relax and enjoy it' ONE MORE TIME you will get a punch in the face!

Hop on board, post your stats and prepare to be dazzled by the wealth of TTC knowledge we long-timeys have to share...

Key:
HS - have/had sex
GOS - good old shag
ELH - enthusiastic lavatory happenings
LSFX - legs spread, fingers crossed

Arg sorry Jam

Welcome to the new / returning folks. :)

What website did you go with jam? It's something I'm considering too.

Also going to look into acupuncture or reflexology. Not really 'me' as don't really buy into the holistic side but willing to give anything a shot!

Jam - ease yourself into it slowly though okay? I'm on half a 50mg tablet cd 2-6 this cycle so maybe try that.

I got it from the oxford online pharmacy.

Skipper are you sticking with 25g per day for the first cycle? When do you have your scan?

I won't start it until next cycle. Focusing on HSG for this one. Just besides myself with jealousy at my colleagues growing belly today and needed to do something !

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Ugh, looking at MN on my laptop and it's filled with adverts for FRERs. I seriously can't even imagine what it's like to POAS and see two lines and not just be staring at snowy whiteness.

I know kath I don't actually believe its possible just a myth you hear about

Jam and kathrino 💐 I totally agree, I can't ever imagine having 2 lines on a bloody HPT 😞

I've had nagging right sided pain last night and all day, I'm worried it's another cyst getting ready to rupture 😞

I feel like I'm more likely to grow wings than produce a sodding BFP!

Kath and jam - I am totally the same way. Can't even begin to imagine what it's like to actually see that second line.

And really feel for all of you on all the heavy periods! That's at least one thing I lucked out on - they've always been light and only last two days. Other than the mood, I barely know it's there. Which of course comes with its own set of worries and paranoia - can't win.

I was in such a shit mood all day today - honestly can't wait until my mini trip away. I think it's because things aren't quite the same between me and DH and I'm worried therapy will make things worse before they get better (that's been my previous experience - bringing painful stuff to the surface is no fun for anyone, but it was good in the long term).

Just did OPK and very negative although a bit darker than yesterday (expected as FW starts tomorrow). Thank goodness, can't think of anything worse right now.

pyjamas I'm with you - have also had a really shit day! Just feeling really down and tired and grumpy. Think it might be caffeine/sugar withdrawal!

My appointment with private specialist is next Thursday so counting down the days to that. Would be so nice not to be on some kind of internal timetable for once (cycle days/dpo/days pregnant/days until scan/days until it's all over/argh!) why can't it just be 2 May!!!

jam really feel for you with your colleague - glad you've been proactive!

Hee hee, glad I wasn't the only one pissed off with the FRER advert. When I do get a BFP, I think I would assume it's broken.

Jam - well they put me on 25mg to start per day, then I'm assessed on the 12th to see whether I can up the dosage for cycle 2. You probably would be okay to go for 50mg straight away as I'm not sure how you can check your ovaries anyway unless you have a private scan done?

And fuck me grapefruit juice tastes like death.

I had a really good grapefruit margarita a little while ago sk1pper but I imagine that defeats the point...

Glad I'm not the only one who feels the same way re FRER. I'm also joining the shitty day club. Work at the moment feels like total fire fighting and it's really stressful. At least we're nearly half way through the week!

Oh Skipper your comment about grapefruit juice made me crease up!

Ciao from sunny Venice, got sunburned today walking around. Having a great time but I can tell my period is about to start which made me a bit down this evening 😾

Thanks for all the holiday wishes ladies! Sorry to hear work / in laws/ friends are being a bitch for some of you!

Oh and I'm getting the test ads too, and no I don't believe I'll ever see a two liner either 😐

Really can't believe some of the crap people say! You have my sympathy binky & pyjamas

jam hope the baby chat at work calms down; don't blame you for plugging in for a bit

Very interested in the therapy plans/past experience - can I ask whether you were referred or just found someone yourselves? Sorry, not really TTC specific, but something have wondered about for a while (I know I should just speak to my GP, but feel a bit anxious about the prospect - PJs totally get what you mean re this getting worse before better)

And damn those Google Ads - thought they were infuriating when was getting married, but baby stuff is even worse!

I referred myself quiet although you can go through your GP as well.

That reminds me kath - if you get a referral from your GP, then our company health insurance covers private therapy. Bit more of a ball ache but I saved a crap load of money on a year's worth of CBT! And I know a fantastic therapist which is covered by our insurance (based near Oxford Street or Herne Hill).

Hope we all have better days today - nearly the weekend! FW starts today - snore.

Positive news update - a lady I follow on twitter who had spoken publically about infertility and gearing up for Ivf just found out she's fallen pregnant naturally, after four and a half years of converted trying!

Sorry about the frer adverts ladies, although I'm a bit concerned as I seem to be getting mostly vagisil adverts!

Wow Kerry that's amazing. Love a bit of hope like that.

Sorry to hear that you think AF is imminent Kerry, I hope you can enjoy the rest of your holiday. I'd certainly pay good money to be in sunny Venice right now. Thank you for sharing the positive story too; 4 1/2 years of infertility must have been heartbreaking.

Quiet, I also referred myself because I thought if I had to wait on the NHS that I'd probably lose some momentum and chicken out.

Pyjamas, that's really useful to know. I'm a bit at the prospect of paying so much money so, depending on how the first few sessions with this one go, I may change route and go via my GP / health insurance. I was going to ring up and get the 6 free session from the employee helpline thing but I've heard some mixed reports plus I managed to get a regular 8am appointment with the person I've picked which makes it slightly easier to manage.

pyjamas I admire you for taking this step with your DH, therapy is not easy solo as you say, so getting it all out in the open together will be hard. I'm sure like you say though long term. TTC has been such a massive test for our relationship. In my more positive moments I've hoped it is a test that will ultimately make us stronger though. Going through this makes you learn a lot about each other - and hopefully is a learning curve for how the other person copes and how they need to be supported.

I find my DH's lack of communication very difficult. He really hates talking about it at all. If I bring it up he will use any excuse to change the subject. I've said to him repeatedly that I need to talk about it but it doesn't seem to get through, or he can't seem to bring himself to do it. I think he would rather pretend its not happening.

harriet ah the internal clock - that drives me mad too. Am I ever not going to know what cycle day I'm on??

Hope you are wrong about AF kerry

Jam harriet I can't even imagine what it would be like not to have to keep an eye out for ovulation, the 2WW knicker check. It's exhausting. Even when I think I've got a handle on it, I can't keep it up for a whole cycle.

Is anyone testing soon by the way? I feel we're in need of some hope/another bfp.

Argh, I thought we'd HS on CD9 and CD 11 but it was actually CD 8 and CD 10. CD 13 today and worried I've not done enough! I don't think I've OVd yet, but still kicking myself. I am not very good at FW.

Thanks kath & pjs - kath had wondered the same thing re waiting; good luck with it, guys, really hope it helps

Any chance of a GOS today, flash? One last go

Expecting AF/testing in about a week, unless another short cycle comes along, just to make things fun