TTC after miscarriage thread #4

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Hello ladies. I noticed the last thread filled up, seemed to happen all of a sudden! Hoping you find your way here (prepares for tumbleweed)

For reference here's thread 3 www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/2593041-TTC-after-miscarriage-lucky-thread-number-3

All those we are trying to conceive a child after miscarriage are welcome here, whether it's your first or you already have DC

Good luck ladies. Let's have some BFPs, we've earned it

If it was me I'd say bake a cake Cheeky. That is how I deal with anxiety. Apart from that just take care of yourself and keep reminding your self you are doing everything you can. Hugs.

My referral to the Recurrent Miscarriage Clinic is through. 25th of May. The day after our wedding anniversary and 1 year and 1 day after we started trying for a baby.

Any other opkers fancy having a look at these tests and telling me what you make of them? I'm really hoping i see a change soon! 34 days now since i found out i wasn't pregnant any more and i feel no further forward!

Started testing when hpts were just about negative

I hope you get the help you need brenna and that you have your baby very soon

I tested again and look darker. Thanks for the support ladies.

Really pleased the appt came through fairly quick Brenna. Hopefully you will start getting answers. Sometimes it can be so simple as needing to take a tablet to fix a deficiency. Got everything crossed for you.

Thanks

They are getting fainter. They look like my background negatives by the last few. Fingers crossed you will see a surge again soon.

That's great brenna that you have you're appointment. I hope they can get things moving quickly for you.

Cheeky definitely darker!!! So exciting! I'm probably the worst person for relaxation advice but I would say do anything you can to keep yourself busy.

Cd22 for me today... Still no ov, temps low... Had this really bad pain earlier but now it's gone! Wish this cycle would get lost! Did get my arse out of bed for park run this morning so that's good! And now shopping for Italy happy weekend everyone!

How exciting for the BFPs :) :)

I had my blood test on Friday. I had the worst dream yet the night before - woke up totally distraught and couldn't get back to sleep for ages so I was feeling pretty emotional and vulnerable and ended up crying a bit they made me lie down and wait for ages afterwards and I felt really silly.

Oh well. I can phone on Monday for the result so fingers crossed for a nice 0 for me! (HCG levels)

Great news about your referral Brenna. Must be v reassuring and amazing that it's not months away as can happen with referrals. Hope you find your NHS guardian angel! Xx

Good luck Bertie!

Cheeky that's a dark line! I'm on CD 22 and waiting to be able to test. I had a 24 day cycle last month so I've no idea what is going on with my body. Pre mc I was always 28 days. Since its ranged between 29-31. Except for last month when it was 24. I took last month off because it all got too much so I'm not expecting anything this month but the 'hope' has got to me regardless!

It only takes one time!!! Don't lose hope X

Evening all.

I've just done a Clearblue Digital and it says pregnant, 1-2 weeks. Phew. Still need to wait until Tuesday to have rising HCG confirmed by blood tests but the Clearblue has calmed today's nerves at least.

My consultant has given me blood thinning injections to do every 12 hours. There is nothing to say I have a blood clotting problem but the consultant said it can't hurt to try. I already have lots of purple needle marks on my tummy which is not attractive but I'll do anything, as I know we all would.

Sending lots of love & thoughts to you all...xx

Amazing news Kate!!!

I've just been out for a lovely meal with some friends. But on my way home I just felt so sad. I spent the evening not drinking... Which I don't even mind... But what makes me sad is that none of my friends know what I'm going through, they don't know that during the meal when I went to the bathrooms I checked my cervix just in case, or that I had taken 3 OPKs today and was wondering how accurate they were.... And so on and so on. It's not that they don't care about me but none of them had kids or have TTC yet so they just have no idea. They know about the MC but no one mentions it or ever talks to me about any of it. Sometimes I just feel so alone in it all.

Sorry for the long message! Thanks to everyone for listening to me! X

JPEG it is a very lonely time. It's hard when people don't talk or ask, even though I see it from both sides. They probably don't know what to say. No words can make it better but I do find talking about it helps loads.

JPEG I know exactly how you feel. It is ever so lonely at times... Even though I am pregnant again now it obviously still hurts. Last week would have been my due date (I was due just after brenna) and I didn't get a single text off a single friend, not a phone call, nothing. I was in work all day which kept my mind occupied but that really stung as it felt like nobody cared.

Congratulations Kate and cheeky. It's such a good month. I've also just got a BFP after 4 months of trying (felt like forever). I haven't posted for a bit, I was so demoralised this month. Infact we went away to a hotel and had loads to drink on Friday! I convinced myself that I was never going to conceive anyway. I woke up with period like pains in the night at 11dpo which stopped after an hour (no implant bleed though) and just took a superdrug early test this morning at 12 dpo. The line is obviously faint but similar to Kate and cheekys pictures (thanks for posting so reassuring).
I am also really happy and really scared, I don't feel pregnant and I'm almost scared to admit it. I'm very conscious that anything can happen and think about Brennas experience ( you are so strong getting through that Brenna). Have just worked out my due date late January probably not a great time to have a baby (cold and financially broke) but getting pregnant again gives me a lot of hope.
Fingers crossed for Everyone either pregnant or trying.

Congratulations clarity! Here's hoping everyone will follow suit. It is very scary. I'm going from
Feeling happy that I've fallen to feeling sad that I'm not getting excited, to feeling very anxious thinking the miscarriage could happen again, and then thinking about which is worse - miscarriage becoming apparent with bleeding (so I keep symptom spotting and knicker checking) to missed miscarriage discovered at 12 week scan which just broke my heart last time as I felt tricked. Then I keep looking at the test pictures and thinking what does it mean exactly? Nothing really. Just that I've not had AF yet.

I'm just up and down in emotions, it must be the hormones too. I'm trying to convince myself that however much I try to protect myself or give myself free reign, miscarriage will hurt just as much and there's nothing I can for really except try to look after myself best I can.

Think ill tell my mum today. She had 3 miscarriages after me and had all the testing done, but there was nothing wrong with either her or my dad. Then she went on to have my brother, she was closely monitored with weekly scans. Then she had another miscarriage and then was adamant to give me a sister and got preg again. She had a lot of bleeding at 12 weeks and it was classed as a high risk pregnancy/threatened miscarriage. She was sure she had miscarried but a scan showed everything was OK. The whole pregnancy was tough though (I recall as I was 11) and she was closely monitored again.

I think I've shared that story before; hope it can give hope to those who have had more than one miscarriage. Hopefully she can be a good means of support to me, having been pregnant after loss.

Congratulations clarity, so lovely to see another BFP!

cheeky your mum must be a really strong woman- she will be a great help to you during your pregnancy. I hope that you are able to enjoy it soon.

I'm off to see a someone today who is due a few weeks before i would have been. We were really excited to be pregnant at the same time and i'm worried she'll keep her distance now for fear of upsetting me. I know her pregancy will be the hardest for me to watch, but i hope it doesn't spoil the friendship.

5star, I was in the same position last weekend. Saw both of my pregnant friends who were roughly same time as me. Both I'm close to and both didn't tell me as they feared how I would be, which sort of hurt actually. I had a good cry when I heard they were pregnant. Was happy for them but so sad for me. I was dreading seeing their bumps but actually it was easier than I expected.

Biggest congratulations Clarity!!!! Great news.

cheeky you take the words right out my mouth. Hope you get some reassurance from your mum today.

Good luck for today 5tardusty - I saw a friend at the train station last week who was due a month before me & I had to quickly just walk the other way. Think she saw me but I couldn't stand the pain of it.

Xx

Clarity congratulations!!

I said in an earlier post that I had a good feeling about may, I knew we would get some bfp's!

I'm 6dpo today according to fertility friends and my temps. My temps have been really low post o this month and my ovulation pattern really wasn't clear at all but it's drawn my cover line and is certain it happened cd11 which is really early for me. I had pressure and pain in the left cd11-cd13. My temps have been around 36.3 but this morning they shot up to 36.71, will see how they go over the next few days but I'm not hopeful we did it this month, but I'm still relaxed and calm and won't be upset if that's the case.

JPEG I know how you feel, only two of my friends know how crazy I had become about ttc. The likelihood is they won't have any problems getting pregnant or staying pregnant and will never know or understand what turmoil we have to deal with which I'm glad about as if never wish this on anyone, but that doesn't make it any easier for us to deal with.

Last night I was dreaming about holding out baby, all I could see was this baby's cute face, looked exactly like my dd's but I didn't know the sex. Then I dropped the baby down a massive black hole. It was so vivid it woke me up and I was sweating like mad.

Congratulations Clarity!!!! So exciting!

Thanks everyone... Was just feeling really low last night and needed to get it out!! Cd23 and temp rose this morning but had negative OPK yesterday. Just wishing this cycle would be over so I can start again!

Jpeg I can totally relate to the feeling of isolation. I suppose a positive sign is that you friends aren't pregnant yet or have babies so you aren't 'behind' as that can make it hard too. But whichever way you cut this experience, it is hard. so I feel for you. It will happen very soon I am sure.

Good luck Amy. One thing I have learnt is bodies don't respond in the way you think they will, you think you are out and then boom! Hope that happens to you.

Off to see my uncle and aunt today for a big family lunch. My uncle has MS and is deteriorating. It is extremely sad. It hit him in his early 30s and so him and my aunt never had the option to have children. She has basically looked after him all her married life while she has seen her friends have families....

Meanwhile, my boyfriend who went out into London at 8pm last night is STILL NOT HOME! I got a sheepish text at 6am saying he was still out but that he would be back by 11.30am to go to my parents to see my uncle and aunt. Naughty boyfriend.