Pom Poms, Placards and Picket Lines. The Berries are putting up the barricades and will not be crossed! A delightful bunch of 30 something Ladybros TTC #1.

[happylass]

The Berries have strict entrance criteria: TTC #1 for 12 months+, over 30, NO instadiffers, must have a special pimping pot and absolutely no mention of baby dust/dancing. Not that we're fussy!

Current Ladybros:

Smidge 39, TTC since Jan '13. Unexplained. Some high NK cell immune treatment. IVF#1 Short protocol Jul'14 BFN; IVF#2 Nov'14 and IVF#3 Feb'15 both Long protocol BFNs; Natural FET Jun'15 - Another BFN. Trying to work out what to do next.



Happylass, 37, TTC since Aug 2012. 3 failed ICSI cycles, 1 failed FET and 1 abandoned cycle due to poor response. Awaiting next and final cycle with own eggs hopefully Feb/March time. HATE THIS SHIT!!



Beaky 35, ttc 3 yrs, 2x failed iui 1 long protocol ivf cancelled, 2 short protocol IVF both BFN, very low amh/poor responder etc. 3rd IVF in January.



Tigerdog, 35, ttc since Jan 2013. Unexplained. IVF #1 chemical pregnancy. Currently redoing tests in preparation for IVF #2.



barkingtreefrog 36, ttc since Dec 2011. clomid bfp summer 2013 then mc @7 weeks, iui bfp summer 2014 then mc @6 weeks. Factor V leiden thrombophilia diagnosed at the repeat mc clinic. IUI bfn Jan 2015, IVF bfn April/May 2015. FET bfn August 2015, remaining frozen embryo perished. Private tests showed high nk cells activity and th1/th2 as well as mthrfr gene. Started downregging for long protocol ivf in Oct 15 plus two intralipid drips, and got pg. Third mc @ 6.4 weeks despite heparin, intralipids, metafolin and prednisolone. Last Ivf attempt starting February 2016 then on to adoption. 



Kuma - 40. TTC 2.9 years. Low AMH high FSH - DH antisperm ABs. Failed IVF June 14 and March 15, cancelled cycle June 15. Last try Jan 16. 



Lucieloos, 36, Low AMH & sperm motility. ICSI#1, April 2015, Czech Republic, BFN. Icsi#2, cancelled before EC. Icsi#3 & 4, Embryo Banking. 3 blasts in freezer. Icsi#5 in Czech in Jan. NHS cycle in Feb / March.




Sesame, 40, ttc 2 years with no dp, multiple failed IVFs, 4 ETs, 1 bfp followed by mc, poor responder with v low AMH, but still looking for the golden egg.

Nolly, 33, TTC 3 years, 1 confirmed MC, 2 more suspected. still in limbo. 



Funkymonk 33. Ttc since October 2012. Mc June 2013, Mmc dec 2013, mc June 2014. Factor v Leiden thrombophilia. Abandoned IVF Jan 2015 due to thin lining. Abandoned FET Aug 2015 due to thin lining. 4 embies on ice. Currently experimenting with different cycles in an attempt to thicken lining.

Clem, 39, ttc since 2013. diagnosed with anovulation by nhs so on a course of clomid. no male factor issues. all other test results have come back okay inc. ovarian test reserves. currently being referred back to nhs for single funded cycle.

Nolly, 33, TTC 3 years, 1 confirmed MC, 2 more suspected. Starting IVF in January.



Antonia79 36, ttc #1 since 2009, adhesions made for sticky insides & one tube removed, confirmed NHS IVF route Sept 15, TTC naturally again as recommended by doctor until IVF cycle starts (early - mid 2016) if not conceived by then.



Grin - 35, TTC 3 years, NFI why I can't get pregnant,, 3 X failed clomid attemots, 2 X ICSI failed fertilisations, 1 x IVF BFN. Doing another cycle in Mar 2016 and thinking of embryo donation.



The Roll of honour:

Pip - Quite simply the Best In Show.
Lumen - The Legend that is....

[tigerdog]

And beaky I am wishing you all the luck in the world with this cycle. Everything crossed for you, you so deserve your break.xx

[SesameSparkle]

tiger woo hoo, so happy for you!

ant and smidge sorry the witch got you both

beaky all the best for this new cycle

Guys, have you spotted you are on the last page of this thread? Finally! Does this mean starting a new one, wasn’t the plan to move to infertility? Should we summon happy back her with her removal van to get started with a new one?

[beakybeak]

Oh Ant sorry af arrived. But that kitchen looks amazing! What's your plan now?

Smidge how's the job? Hope everything is going ok.

Tiger willing this one on for you, fx for a fast next 9 days and then great news at the end. Glad you're feeling sick too.... iykwim! Thanks for the good wishes, somehow 5 eggs collected today (second best retrieval!) and just hoping for good news tomorrow.

Waves to Sesame someone needs to start a thread I think, I don't want us to loose the Berry thread and each other! Hope you're doing ok too.

[Smidge001]

Congrats on the egg haul beaky fingers crossed for a great fertilisation rate today.

[Antonia79]

I've been looking at IVF in Czech as it is considerably cheaper. Has anyone done this here? We're wanting to start the apppointments and consultations in January. Any tips would be appreciated.

DH best friend has told him that they're expecting baby no. 2 in May late last night and DH is devastated. There's nothing I can do other than just be there when he's ready to talk about the announcement. Me on the other hand, I am trying to ignore it. I can't bring myself to congratulate them yet because I don't currently trust myself to just say 'congratulations' without adding something on the end like "Hooray for you and your FUCKING accommodating womb and coming off the pill and getting pregnant twice just like that. Telling everyone it's so easy getting pregnant. Fuck you and your working reproductive organs."

Ah... maybe I'm not immune to it after all after just reading back what I wrote. I need to keep an eye on myself as I could very well just slip underneath the depression duvet. I think I'll be okay though. Just hunker down with my helmet on and ride it out.

[Smidge001]

Ant I'm pretty sure some of the berry graduates/chopper residents got diffed via Prague. Possibly Spain too. You should try those threads if they are still running. They certainly seemed to offer good value for money and from memory were very responsive over email etc.

[Antonia79]

Thank you Smidge, I'll have a hunt for those threads just info gathering at the moment. Hope you're okay?

Hope everyone is alright, it's been rather quiet in here!

[Smidge001]

Anyone still around? I've lost track of what's happening. Beaky what'a your news? Is it just you, me and Ant left?

[Antonia79]

Seems like it Smidge! I'm just about to bugger off to yoga class for a couple of hours!

[clementineclouds]

hi everyone, I'm still around, I just don't post on mumsnet much anymore, just the other place.

after my loss back in august, its taken a while to get to a place, where we were happy to start another cycle.

recently started my 2nd cycle tho, so its going to be a busy few weeks, with all the jabbing.

hope you are all well. x

[beakybeak]

Hello berries, sorry for being awol, hope you're all ok. Otd was today for me (I sneaky tested on Tuesday night though) and unbelievably I have a bfp. I'm so shocked and am scared to move incase it goes away iykwim. Blood test tomorrow so sticking my head firmly in the sand.

Ant, I cycled in Prague, let me know what you want to know and I'll fill you in, feel free to PM me too.

How are you Smidge? How is work going?

Good luck with this cycle Clem!

[Antonia79]

Hi Clem, all the best for the 2nd cycle. Will keep my fingers crossed for you

Congratulations on the bfp Beaky, that's absolutely fantastic news! I'm so chuffed for you! Cross fingers for your blood test tomorrow!

I've just started another 2ww. Not expecting anything to happen but you've got to be 'in it to win it' haven't you eh? At least until we climb aboard the IVF train again.

[Smidge001]

Oh wow beaky that's amazing!!! . Fantastic news!

clem great that you're back in another cycle. Time flies once you start the stabbing, attending appointments etc. Lots of luck.

[clementineclouds]

thanks smidge, how are things with you...I read you've started a new job recently...hope that is going okay. any plans for your next steps?

thanks antonia, hope your 2ww is going okay. we tried naturally for a few months, I really thought I was pregnant last month (maybe a chemical, not sure), but had been feeling very nauseous and dizzy for over a week)..then af arrived out of nowhere...was gutted, to say the least. never gets any sodding easier . hope you are finding stuff to distract you on your 2ww.

[Antonia79]

Pretty much same thing happened to me early September Clem, I had strange vivid dreams, I felt 'different', feeling dizzy and slightly nauseous then af arrived a week late.

Unfortunately AF has arrived on time so my tww is over. I was swinging between crying and being furiously angry yesterday and I think I've got most of it out of my system. Anyway... two more natural cycles to go before then it's IVF planning again. Get Christmas and New Years out of the way first.

Hope everyone is doing okay

[beakybeak]

Sorry af turned up Ant. Hope you're doing ok. Smidge how are you? Is the job going ok? Clem how is the cycle going - how was your first scan?

[tigerdog]

Utterly shit update from me I'm afraid. There was no heartbeat at our scan on Monday at 10.5 weeks. Everything was going so well - earlier scans showed a strong heart beat and the right measurements - so it was a bit of a shock. I had a strong feeling something was wrong a day or two before but I tried to put it down to anxiety. Had an ERPC on Wednesday. Now I'm just wondering how the hell I will find the strength to carry on. Everything feels completely and utterly hopeless.

[Smidge001]

Oh my god Tiger that is awful . I'm so, so sorry.
10.5 weeks, I can't believe it.

[beakybeak]

Sending tons of love Tiger, I'm so so sorry. xx

[tigerdog]

I just don't know where I go from here. I am carrying on as normal, but I feel like I'm being crushed under the weight of all the sadness. The thought of more ivf, or even being pregnant again, is more than I can bear. it'll probably be ages before the hcg is out of my system too, which isn't helping I'm sure. I tested yesterday, a week post surgery and unsurprisingly a very dark positive still. I wanted to start tracking it, but the clinic only want to know after 3 weeks.

I guess this thread is on its way out....

[Antonia79]

I'm sorry tiger. I don't know what else to say other than sorry you have to go through this.

[Smidge001]

Hi Tiger . Just checking in. Been thinking about you a lot and still can't think of what to say to offer any comfort. It's just so bloody awful and I can only imagine how hollow and sad and angry and frustrated you must feel. Still seeing a line must make it worse. What a horrible Christmas.
Giving you a berry squeeze. You will get through this. You're not alone.
I don't know whether the fact you've been able to get pregnant / get to 10.5 weeks is good or bad - got to be a good thing physically for certain, but mentally it could go either way. getting pregnant again won't have the same thrill, that's for sure. But maybe some of the berry graduates have been through a late miscarriage and still gone on to be successful - perhaps they would know how to quell the head fuckery.

[clementineclouds]

tiger I think it took a good 2/3 weeks for my tests to start showing as negative...as for the crushing sadness...it was just time for me...you start off not knowing how you'll make it through the day, with the numbness and everything...but slowly it does just start to lift. not helpful, but just give it time.

[Smidge001]

Merry Christmas berry friends. You've helped me through another tough year. Onwards and upwards