Pom Poms, Placards and Picket Lines. The Berries are putting up the barricades and will not be crossed! A delightful bunch of 30 something Ladybros TTC #1.

[happylass]

The Berries have strict entrance criteria: TTC #1 for 12 months+, over 30, NO instadiffers, must have a special pimping pot and absolutely no mention of baby dust/dancing. Not that we're fussy!

Current Ladybros:

Smidge 39, TTC since Jan '13. Unexplained. Some high NK cell immune treatment. IVF#1 Short protocol Jul'14 BFN; IVF#2 Nov'14 and IVF#3 Feb'15 both Long protocol BFNs; Natural FET Jun'15 - Another BFN. Trying to work out what to do next.



Happylass, 37, TTC since Aug 2012. 3 failed ICSI cycles, 1 failed FET and 1 abandoned cycle due to poor response. Awaiting next and final cycle with own eggs hopefully Feb/March time. HATE THIS SHIT!!



Beaky 35, ttc 3 yrs, 2x failed iui 1 long protocol ivf cancelled, 2 short protocol IVF both BFN, very low amh/poor responder etc. 3rd IVF in January.



Tigerdog, 35, ttc since Jan 2013. Unexplained. IVF #1 chemical pregnancy. Currently redoing tests in preparation for IVF #2.



barkingtreefrog 36, ttc since Dec 2011. clomid bfp summer 2013 then mc @7 weeks, iui bfp summer 2014 then mc @6 weeks. Factor V leiden thrombophilia diagnosed at the repeat mc clinic. IUI bfn Jan 2015, IVF bfn April/May 2015. FET bfn August 2015, remaining frozen embryo perished. Private tests showed high nk cells activity and th1/th2 as well as mthrfr gene. Started downregging for long protocol ivf in Oct 15 plus two intralipid drips, and got pg. Third mc @ 6.4 weeks despite heparin, intralipids, metafolin and prednisolone. Last Ivf attempt starting February 2016 then on to adoption. 



Kuma - 40. TTC 2.9 years. Low AMH high FSH - DH antisperm ABs. Failed IVF June 14 and March 15, cancelled cycle June 15. Last try Jan 16. 



Lucieloos, 36, Low AMH & sperm motility. ICSI#1, April 2015, Czech Republic, BFN. Icsi#2, cancelled before EC. Icsi#3 & 4, Embryo Banking. 3 blasts in freezer. Icsi#5 in Czech in Jan. NHS cycle in Feb / March.




Sesame, 40, ttc 2 years with no dp, multiple failed IVFs, 4 ETs, 1 bfp followed by mc, poor responder with v low AMH, but still looking for the golden egg.

Nolly, 33, TTC 3 years, 1 confirmed MC, 2 more suspected. still in limbo. 



Funkymonk 33. Ttc since October 2012. Mc June 2013, Mmc dec 2013, mc June 2014. Factor v Leiden thrombophilia. Abandoned IVF Jan 2015 due to thin lining. Abandoned FET Aug 2015 due to thin lining. 4 embies on ice. Currently experimenting with different cycles in an attempt to thicken lining.

Clem, 39, ttc since 2013. diagnosed with anovulation by nhs so on a course of clomid. no male factor issues. all other test results have come back okay inc. ovarian test reserves. currently being referred back to nhs for single funded cycle.

Nolly, 33, TTC 3 years, 1 confirmed MC, 2 more suspected. Starting IVF in January.



Antonia79 36, ttc #1 since 2009, adhesions made for sticky insides & one tube removed, confirmed NHS IVF route Sept 15, TTC naturally again as recommended by doctor until IVF cycle starts (early - mid 2016) if not conceived by then.



Grin - 35, TTC 3 years, NFI why I can't get pregnant,, 3 X failed clomid attemots, 2 X ICSI failed fertilisations, 1 x IVF BFN. Doing another cycle in Mar 2016 and thinking of embryo donation.



The Roll of honour:

Pip - Quite simply the Best In Show.
Lumen - The Legend that is....

[Smidge001]

Ah well, they finally called yesterday and the job's gone to an internal candidate. Saves me making a decision I suppose! But annoyed it took them 8 weeks of stringing me along though to give it an internal... Surely they would know whether they were suitable or not before bothering with external candidates. Hey ho. The search begins again. and I'm not hoping I'll get pregnant instead, oh no

[tigerdog]

Oh that is annoying smidge. Good luck with the job search.

My FET is confirmed for Friday. God it's taking an age to get there.

[Smidge001]

1 week to go tiger, hang in there.

[beakybeak]

How frustrating Smidge! That's really poor on their part.

Tiger not long to go now, gosh it feels like you've been preparing for ages!

[Smidge001]

Got myself some contract work to take me up to Christmas, hurrah! Got a better feeling from this place, even though it sounds as if they're going to throw me into the deep end and expect me just to get on with things and work it out for myself! I start tomorrow.

I've started taking a set of the antibiotics the Prof prescribed me ages ago. Just in case - the tiny blip of a positive test came after I'd taken antibiotics and the DHEA so clearly a part of me is still holding out hope. Anyway, it seemed silly to have them in the bathroom and not at least give them a go.

[beakybeak]

Well done Smidge, I hope you enjoy the new job and it isn't straight into the deep end! I don't know if anyone really stops trying. And if you've got them you might as well take them!

Ant what's happening with you at the moment?

Tiger hope you're doing ok and ready for transfer of the tigerbies.

[tigerdog]

Thanks beaky. Am full of cold and on my way to London for a grievance investigation so could be better!! Acupuncture tonight, intralipids tomorrow morning and then transfer in the afternoon. Quiet weekend ahead, just going to chill out at home and take it easy. How are you feeling after the Prague trip?

Great news on the job smidge, hope it goes well.

[tigerdog]

Two blasts onboard and the insanity begins. Doesn't matter how much you tell yourself it ain't going to work....the hope manages to surface and distort every waking moment.

Otd meant to be 16 days post transfer. I bled at 8dpt last time so expect to test next weekend.

[Smidge001]

Wishing you all the best tiger. 16 days post 5d transfer is ridiculous. I thought my place at 11sp5dt was bad enough. What'a the point in keeping people taking all the drugs for that long, really.

2 blasts on board and all the intralipid work, none of the EC disruption... hopefully this time works a charm - I'm not surprised the hope is back

[beakybeak]

Oh my god Tiger, absolutely everything I have is crossed for you. I so hope this works. I'm wishing this week goes very quickly with a massive bfp next weekend.

I really miss this thread. Saw my neighbour and new baby earlier, that was just great but trying to keep hopeful for cycling again. My amh is now even lower than ever though, it's basically not there! Ffs.

Hows the new job Smidge? Hope it's going well!

[Smidge001]

Tiger how are things going?? I've been thinking about you. Hope all's still in the world of possibility.

My job seems to be ok, thanks beaky. 7 days in. The people are quite quiet, and I've never seen anyone have anything other than actual work showing on their screens (not even BBC news). But I think this could be a good gig. Location's great and they seem pretty smart (albeit quiet). Hope they think I'm worth having on the team!

[tigerdog]

Glad the job is going well smidge.

Clinging on to the world of possibility in a general state of dread and anxiety. Did get a bfp but I think it's going to be a chemical. Tests not getting reassuringly darker and I feel like symptoms have disappeared. OTD not until 14-16 dpt so hanging on till the weekend to see if anything comes of it.

[Smidge001]

Oh wow Tiger what a mindfuck. A Bfp is great but I totally understand the anxiety over a possible chemical if the line isn't getting darker - But then again, remember it may vary depending on when you take the test and how dilute the urine. Fingers and toes crossed for you here.

[Smidge001]

Tiger if you haven't had any bleeding, surely that's a good sign? Pretty sure you were like me and bled before otd when it didn't work?

[tigerdog]

I'm just terrified to start hoping smidge. Otd still four days away and I've no idea what the FC will suggest. Lines are getting stronger and no bleeding. I had tiny bit of spotting a week ago which may have been implantation but at the time made me think the worst.

[Antonia79]

Crossing everything for you Tiger!

Sounds like the job is doing well so far Smidge!

How are you Beaky?

Didn't even try last cycle as I had a virus so any kind of sexy time went right out the window. I'm giving that 'sperm meets the egg plan' a go, trying to make sure I have plenty of his swimmers about at all times to catch the elusive egg. I should peak today or tomorrow. Will find out around Bonfire night as that's when AF is due.

Beside that, I'm planning a new kitchen to try and stop obsessing over this baby business. Hopefully start it next month and aiming to have a lovely kitchen by Christmas!

[Smidge001]

Oh Tiger this is sounding exciting!!! Party party! Pom Poms can come out for a celebration very soon

Hi Ant it's been a while . MrSmidge and I went the natural route this month after I decided to take the last of my antibiotics, but there's no sign of pert boobs and I expect the spotting to start tomorrow, carry on for a week and then bring AF, as per bloody (ha ha) usual.

Love the new kitchen distraction. Great idea.

to beaky

[Smidge001]

When's OTD tiger? Do you go in for a blood test?

My last set of antibiotics didn't work . Spotting started on Friday. Sick of this. On the plus side we're away for the weekend with some friends in the countryside and having a lovely time.

[tigerdog]

I'm sorry it didn't work smidge.

Otd was yesterday but I had to call the clinic on Friday as I was about to run out of drugs. I'd called them the day before and again Friday morning but no one returned my call. I had to send Mr T to sort it as he happened to be London and I was panicking. They were a bit useless, and it took him 2.5 hours to sort. So, no blood tests, just booked in for a scan on 11 November. I am already going out of my mind. It feels like an eternity and I can't decide whether to seek some further reassurance by going for private bloods/scans before then.

[beakybeak]

Tiger I'm thrilled for you, although I do appreciate how difficult this is for you, especially after everything. I've got everything crossed for you.

Smidge sorry this cycle didn't work out. Massive for you in the countryside. Glad the job is going well too.

Ant hello! I love house renovations, what are you thinking kitchen wise? Fx for this cycle for you.

I've started my last own egg cycle now, taking pred and clexane already and the side effects of prednisolone are grim. Clexane is so painful to inject too. I have managed to get a scan for tomorrow thank heavens and just think there isn't going to be much going on, eek. How negative am I. I've decided I really need to sort myself out after this too. And cheer up! More please.

[Antonia79]

I'm cheering you on Tiger!

Sorry Smidge, it's just utterly frustrating and sad. I hope you're managing to have a lovely relaxing time in the countryside, much deserved!

Beaky, kitchen has been chosen and deposit paid today! I'm going with cashmere cupboards, poured concrete effect worktops and ivory coloured underground station type tiles. Also knocking out the archway to make it taller and wider and for an extra cupboard and worktop for more space. Work starts 28 Nov and I can't wait!

Will find out on bonfire night if this cycle has worked or not. Been very irritated last couple of days and this morning had a bit of cry because I saw someone riding a horse and I remembered that I've not ridden in 20 years which is very unlike me. I think it's PMS to be truthful. Ah well... new kitchen though so WOOO!

[Antonia79]

Here's what my new kitchen will look like (without the wooden cutting board).

[Smidge001]

Ooh I like it Ant but you should get the wooden chopping board too.

tiger has it started to sink in yet?

[Antonia79]

AF has arrived. I am very much sick and tired of this shit. So very tired. No time like the present to crack open the packet of chocolate Hobnobs and devour the whole lot with a giant mug of tea. I have a bottle of wine in the fridge so an excuse to have a glass of two tonight

[tigerdog]

Sorry AF has arrived ant. Are you moving onto IVF again now?

smidge I'm still bricking it and time is crawling until my scan in 9 days time. I am however feeling sick and my skin looks shocking so I have to acknowledge that something is happening. Just terrified that it will be bad news...