Pom Poms, Placards and Picket Lines. The Berries are putting up the barricades and will not be crossed! A delightful bunch of 30 something Ladybros TTC #1.

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The Berries have strict entrance criteria: TTC #1 for 12 months+, over 30, NO instadiffers, must have a special pimping pot and absolutely no mention of baby dust/dancing. Not that we're fussy!

Current Ladybros:

Smidge 39, TTC since Jan '13. Unexplained. Some high NK cell immune treatment. IVF#1 Short protocol Jul'14 BFN; IVF#2 Nov'14 and IVF#3 Feb'15 both Long protocol BFNs; Natural FET Jun'15 - Another BFN. Trying to work out what to do next.



Happylass, 37, TTC since Aug 2012. 3 failed ICSI cycles, 1 failed FET and 1 abandoned cycle due to poor response. Awaiting next and final cycle with own eggs hopefully Feb/March time. HATE THIS SHIT!!



Beaky 35, ttc 3 yrs, 2x failed iui 1 long protocol ivf cancelled, 2 short protocol IVF both BFN, very low amh/poor responder etc. 3rd IVF in January.



Tigerdog, 35, ttc since Jan 2013. Unexplained. IVF #1 chemical pregnancy. Currently redoing tests in preparation for IVF #2.



barkingtreefrog 36, ttc since Dec 2011. clomid bfp summer 2013 then mc @7 weeks, iui bfp summer 2014 then mc @6 weeks. Factor V leiden thrombophilia diagnosed at the repeat mc clinic. IUI bfn Jan 2015, IVF bfn April/May 2015. FET bfn August 2015, remaining frozen embryo perished. Private tests showed high nk cells activity and th1/th2 as well as mthrfr gene. Started downregging for long protocol ivf in Oct 15 plus two intralipid drips, and got pg. Third mc @ 6.4 weeks despite heparin, intralipids, metafolin and prednisolone. Last Ivf attempt starting February 2016 then on to adoption. 



Kuma - 40. TTC 2.9 years. Low AMH high FSH - DH antisperm ABs. Failed IVF June 14 and March 15, cancelled cycle June 15. Last try Jan 16. 



Lucieloos, 36, Low AMH & sperm motility. ICSI#1, April 2015, Czech Republic, BFN. Icsi#2, cancelled before EC. Icsi#3 & 4, Embryo Banking. 3 blasts in freezer. Icsi#5 in Czech in Jan. NHS cycle in Feb / March.




Sesame, 40, ttc 2 years with no dp, multiple failed IVFs, 4 ETs, 1 bfp followed by mc, poor responder with v low AMH, but still looking for the golden egg.

Nolly, 33, TTC 3 years, 1 confirmed MC, 2 more suspected. still in limbo. 



Funkymonk 33. Ttc since October 2012. Mc June 2013, Mmc dec 2013, mc June 2014. Factor v Leiden thrombophilia. Abandoned IVF Jan 2015 due to thin lining. Abandoned FET Aug 2015 due to thin lining. 4 embies on ice. Currently experimenting with different cycles in an attempt to thicken lining.

Clem, 39, ttc since 2013. diagnosed with anovulation by nhs so on a course of clomid. no male factor issues. all other test results have come back okay inc. ovarian test reserves. currently being referred back to nhs for single funded cycle.

Nolly, 33, TTC 3 years, 1 confirmed MC, 2 more suspected. Starting IVF in January.



Antonia79 36, ttc #1 since 2009, adhesions made for sticky insides & one tube removed, confirmed NHS IVF route Sept 15, TTC naturally again as recommended by doctor until IVF cycle starts (early - mid 2016) if not conceived by then.



Grin - 35, TTC 3 years, NFI why I can't get pregnant,, 3 X failed clomid attemots, 2 X ICSI failed fertilisations, 1 x IVF BFN. Doing another cycle in Mar 2016 and thinking of embryo donation.



The Roll of honour:

Pip - Quite simply the Best In Show.
Lumen - The Legend that is....

Sorry for the absence berries!

Yes Tiger please let's fill this one up. Are you still dr'ing? What is next? Everything crossed.

Smidge how are you? I'm so sorry to hear of the news of your sil's pg. it is just gutting to hear this type of news. I'm also sorry to hear your dad hasn't been well, I hope he is on the mend. How's things now? Are you working now too?

Ant I am sorry it was another crap result. Even after years each effin cycle doesn't get easier. When do you start IVF? I am crossing my fingers and toes it works for you.

I've been waiting for ov to go back for a second biopsy but for some reason this month I've not had a positive, it's like day 20 or something now and I never ever ov after day 14, except for last month which was 15. I was hoping to get going on another IVF cycle after this biopsy too. Grrr.

Just read some of page 1 Sesame I am so sorry for what happened to you. Christmas jumpers ALREADY. I am just getting over the kids holidays. Ffs

I knew someone who went through IVF 3 times and on her 3rd time she got pregnant at 45.

Argh, how annoying beaky, why is it that things go awol when you're waiting to get on with stuff. Hope you get a positive soon. Have you decided where you are going to do your next round?

Yep still DR beaky, I have finished the northisterone and can feel the rage subsiding so just burserelin for now until AF arrives and I have to go for a scan. We're away Weds-Sun so am keeping fingers crossed that AF doesn't arrive until Friday otherwise the logistics could be a bit tricky. Really looking forward to a bit of sea air and some time to chill out.

Although outwardly I'm not feeling much about this FET, I am definitely feeling pretty anxious inside - weird unsettling dreams, middle of the night waking, and just worrying about stuff and hiding from the world a bit. Also getting a lot of pressure to sort out Christmas plans and I am really not feeling it.

smidge, any news? Hope you're ok.

ant are you kicking off ivf now then?

Monday, blurgh. Thankfully only a two day week for me though!

I think ov mustn't have been picked up Tiger, it's cd 20 now and this has never happened for me. I usually have 24-26 day cycles. I don't understand what's going on in my body and I hate that. I can't keep messing around with days off work either. Yes we're going to cycle in Prague. Just trying to sort everything out but I haven't got a clue on organising logistics etc!

Glad you're getting towards transfer in the next few weeks Tiger sorry for the rage, I've had that recently but for different reasons! Where are you off for your long weekend? Sorry to hear about the stress dreams, it's so shit having to go through this

Any sign of Ov beaky or are you just going to go ahead with the biopsy? Prague seems like a good choice - if you have to travel it may as well be to somewhere that is both cheaper and has good results. I think we would consider Prague too.

The unpredictability is so hard isn't it? I'm really lucky that my boss is amazing and my job is very flexible working so I can manage my appointments without too much difficulty, but it is still hard making plans.

We are off to Devon. If AF arrives tomorrow I'm stuffed, and Thursday would be a bit of a bugger too, so fingers crossed it holds off for another two days. No real signs at the moment and feeling heaps better now I'm not taking northisterone!

Really looking forward to a few days away, will be glad to be out of the office and by the sea!

Just sticking my head round the door to say that I notice the new update to Apple iPhone iOS includes fertility tracking.

Oooh have fun in Devon Tiger. Sea air helps get your head straight I reckon.

My second interview has been pushed out again - now not til Monday. That makes it 6 weeks since the first one!! Bloody ridiculous. I want to feel useful - carrying a baby or at least earning some cash. Hurumph. At least I'm getting to enjoy this lovely long summer though, I shouldn't complain - just worried MrSmidge will think I'm a loafer.

No positive opk yet Tiger I think it's been missed. I can't have the biopsy without a positive so this has really messed everything up in terms of timescales for that and then fitting treatment in between now and Christmas. So annoyed.

Anyway how's things going for you? Any sign of af yet? Did you get away to Devon ok?

Smidge they really messing you around eh. Like you say at least you get to enjoy the long summer.

Ant any news?

I think I had a chemical pregnancy. I've only just stopped bleeding, AF was a week long and it was heavy, which was very similar it to when I had the failed IVF. In light of this, we had a talk and have decided to try again naturally. I guess I see it as a little spark of hope that it can happen without the IVF and I've convinced DH to give it another go. This time instead of waiting to test, I'll start testing 12dpo instead of waiting until after AF is officially late.

Sorry to hear your missed ov Beaky, what's the plan now?

Hope your enjoying yourself in Devon Tiger!

Smidge good luck for Monday interview, if they don't move it again that Is!

Hello everyone else waves

Oh sorry to hear that Ant, what nightmare. I hate that we have no idea what is really going on in there. I never had a positive at all and have now started pre af spotting, how annoying! Grrr.

Tiger any news? How is your FET cycle going?

That's so frustrating beaky. Will you try again next month?

I often wonder if I have them ant. Good luck for some more natural cycles then.

Well AF arrived, so I am booked in for my scan on Monday and will hopefully start estrogen at that point. I think it'll be a further scan a week later then transfer around a week after that.

Devon has been very nice, back to reality and home later today.

Oh and masses of good luck smidge! Hope the interview goes really well.

Good luck with your scan today Tiger hopefully all is looking good in the palace. Not sure what I'm going to do as if I wait to have the biopsy I can't fit a cycle in before Christmas for various reasons.

Smidge good luck today!

Ant hope you're doing ok.

Thanks for the good luck messages. Trying to pretend it's just going to be a chat.

Ooh and good luck for your scan tiger.

Good luck smidge, thinking of you!

All fine in the palace, not back in until 28th September. Starting oestrogen and reducing burserelin and then all being well, transfer 5-6 days after the next scan, so some time around 3-5 October I guess. All seems to be taking an age....

Aw beaky that's really annoying. So bloody hard to make plans....

How did you get on smidge?

Great everything is looking good Tiger fx this bit goes quickly.

smidge any news?

I think we are going to head over the fc for bloods etc soon, need to have some updates ones before we cycle. It's such a nightmare working out your own timings!! I miss my printed out plan from old fc. I think I'm scared to go ahead too arghh.

Beaky it's been a long time, I'm not surprised you're feeling scared about going through it again. It sort of feels safer knowing you've got another chance down the line. Actually taking that chance means you're left with the 'what if it doesn't work' thoughts knowing the back up plan has to change. I think I'm glad I did mine all in quick succession so I didn't have too much time to think about it.

My interview went fairly well in the end I think. The new FD seemed more smiley than her predecessor, which was a positive, and I found out they're moving to swanky (my iPhone just changed that to 'swampy' ) new offices in a couple of months. But I'm still not sure I want it... I think I'm really scared, it's been ages since I had a proper job, and going in at manager level now that I'm older (and lazier) is freaking me out. I had to wow them in the interview and I can't live up to all the promises I made in there as to how great and enthusiastic I am!!

smidge you've hit the nail on the head there. My frosties feel like a good chance and I'm scared of using that up and being back to square one.

Go for it on the job front I say. Fingers crossed you get it. I'm sure that you'll be able to deliver on your interview promises, or at least keep up enough of an appearance that you are! I am shit at work compared with my old self pre-IVF, but managing to hang on at a senior level despite not giving a fuck.

Just got the rage listening to the today programme about IVF funding. Classic -trying to pitch the argument as IVF funding taking away the money to treat dying babies. So angry!

Grr tiger I would be as well. Fuckers. Hope your cycle is going well.

Smidge I think we all feel like that sometimes, channel your inner man, they basically over promise and then brazen it out. When will you hear?

Still haven't heard - apparently I'll find out this week. Still not sure whether I want it though! I went to a nice new Waitrose near my parents house the other day and started thinking I'd rather work there. Think all this time away from my career has impacted my confidence - and also made me reassess what I actually want from life/work balance!

I think the massive gap between initial interview and now has been so great I've had too much time to think about it

Hard to evaluate a job until you are actually in it I think smidge. If they offer it will you accept?

I want to run a Galgo rescue somewhere in Spain, or a small restaurant in Whitby or somewhere else by the sea....corporate life is becoming less interesting by the day...

Scan tomorrow, fingers crossed I can schedule the FET for next week. Intralipids done and were fine. Slowly progressing.