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TTC #1 after miscarriage - looking for some buddies

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Clareinthemiddle · 29/08/2015 13:29

I have been ttc for 10 months. I'm 34.
Took it very easy the first few months and then went for it with OPKs, no caffeine, reduced alcohol and got my BFP in May, but sadly mmc at 12 weeks (a few days before my scan). The little thing had not made it past 5.5 weeks :(
Took July off to recover and then back on it again in August. Heard/read a lot about increased fertility the few months after a miscarriage so was really convinced August would be my month, but af arrived yesterday. Absolutely devastated.
Can feel a very lonely place, especially as I either have friends who conceived within 1-3 months, or those who always knew they would have issues so started with IVF a few years back and have thankfully all been successful. I guess I just thought I would have an easy ride, as my sisters did, but no such luck.
Thought it would be nice to share the journey with others dealing with similar situations or with success stories after a miscarriage. Please say hello :)

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Sakura03 · 06/11/2015 08:03

Sounds promising rhodes
CD28 here, I caved and did a hpt last night and got a BFNSad... I know I'm not out until AF shows her face but I'm convinced I'm out...
How is everyone else doing?

Vap0 · 06/11/2015 09:22

Morning All

I'm on cloud 9 today! We had a static smiley on the cb ovulation test Smile. Thank goodness we are ovulating this month! I chased dp to the loo like a crazed lunatic waving my smiley face at him. He laughed, but in a nice way! Can't wait to get home tonight and dtd! Twice if we can! So excited! 1st time this wave of darkness and disappointment has left since the mc.
frankie thanks for your reply! I'm not sure what either of the things it check are but at the min I just don't care Grin
clara thanks for the Cake, I think I'll have some Cake and Wine this evening!

Ooh, just saw a new emoji on here! Must use it in a sentence. Has anyone seen the new John Lewis [santa] advert yet?

claire best of luck for Monday!!
rhodes best of luck for next Friday!

I know it's easy to say when it's not you but I'll be clinging on to every bit of hope and positive statistic if we ever get another bfp - "less than 5% or women will have 2 consecutive miscarriages, and only 1% have 3 or more consecutive miscarriages"

april to answer your question on caffeine and booze - well my take on it anyway - caffeine - don't drink tea or coffee, but before the bfp was a total diet coke addict, 6-12 cans every day. On the day of bfp stopped drinking it and found it easy as I knew I was doing it for the baby. Same with booze.

Of course that pregnancy didn't last very long but it was long enough for me to kick my diet coke habit. I decided not to drink it again as I knew it wouldn't do me any good and would need to stop eventually! I feel like someone from AA - I have been clean from diet coke for 10 weeks now Grin and I honestly don't miss it.
Booze on the other hand - now that is a different story! I just love it! This year I haven't drank in the week much, which was a big cut down from drinking every day in 2014. I've done the whole cold turkey thing on certain months thinking it may help. All it does to me is turn me into a hermit, not wanting to go out as I'm sick of the questions, prying looks and awkward excuses for not drinking which then makes me even more depressed. I have now made the decision that until I get that bfp (testing each month at where I should in theory be 10dpo with a frer) I will continue life as normal as my mental wellbeing is under enough strain with this infertility crap (month 27 now) without torturing myself even more. Until the placenta is formed the egg survives on its own reserves and so takes nothing in from you like booze.
You've done really well on the coffee thing, they say 1 a day is fine. I wouldn't feel guilty drinking until you get your bfp. I think i would have had a total breakdown by now if I'd stopped drinking 27 months ago! I have 1 infuriating friend who keeps telling me to get pregnant you need to "stop drinking and shag like rabbits" wow, thanks for that, I've done that for enough months to know that it doesn't work along with most other "useful" advice. She should bloody know better too after 4 consecutive mc's. Although she got pregnant easily and quickly.

brenna post a pic of your OPK line. Yes I'd start ttc when spottong! Especially if you have a line appearing! You don't want to miss your window! Argh to your mum! What does that mean a "real loss"? And you are going through that apparent "real loss" too as well as this "unreal loss??". I haven't told my mum as I couldn't deal with her "helpful" words of wisdom from someone who was easily pregnant twice exactly when she decided she wanted to be.
sakura did you test again today with fmu? If not maybe wait and test tomorrow with fmu? Good luck!

Clarab0w · 06/11/2015 11:09

hi brenna! glad to have found you guys. and amazing that you're getting the smilies already - really glad your body's finding its groove again! can't believe your mum's misfire...keep biting your tongue, then you can come here and vent Grin

vap congrats - and fingers crossed for you

sakura it ain't over til AF sings - thinking positive for you, you're still in until you're out!

frankiepants1 · 06/11/2015 11:33

woop woop for the static smiley Vap - get dancing that baby dance!!!!! Grin
xxx

AprilShowers16 · 06/11/2015 13:22

vap0 that's sounds like good advice, I'm using TTC as an excuse to be a bit healthier anyway but the drinking is one step too far. It's my birthday soon and I know I'll get comments if I don't have a drink so just going to try and take it easy and not worry about it. That's really interesting about the placenta and makes me feel better :)

brenna that's so hard about your mum, people say the worst things even when you know they mean well. Other than when I told her about my mc when she was very supportive my mum hasn't mentioned it to me at all which I find quite hard. She vaguely refered to me having had a hard time recently but she hasn't asked me how I'm feeling about it or anything like that. I think she just doesn't know what to say though.

Ladies I couldn't sleep last night due to cramps and back pain, I've never suffered from this with my period before and am 8dpo, I'm sure I'm not imagining it now and hopin it's a good sign but also it reminds me of the feelings when I mc so reminds me of how hard it's going to be even if I am pg and everything is well.

frankiepants1 · 06/11/2015 15:50

April it could be the womb preparing for implantation? Ive had small cramps for the last 3 or so days that remind me of early pregnancy round ligament stretching, just telling myself it's my body gearing up for either implantation or AF (hopefully the former!)
had a really emotional few days at work, feel like I want to cry at every little thing and its been so hard not to just be blubbing at my desk. again, hoping it's related to impending pregnancy, however could be that I'm always like this following O? sigh. at least it's Friday, and I'm off now until the 17th. and I am definitely having a drink this weekend!! xxx

Turi1983 · 06/11/2015 16:20

clareinthemiddle keep us posted with the scan. I am keeping everything crossed that it all works out for you.

rhodes15 glad to hear the scan went well!

aprilshowers16 when I first miscarried I drank like a fish – stressed. Last month I didn’t drink at all. This month I’ve been somewhere in the middle. I gave up caffeine when I was pregnant and just never bothered starting up again. You just do whatever feels natural to you.

brenna24 my bleeding stopped after three days but I had spotting when I was ovulating so perhaps that is the cause.
I am sorry to hear your Mum has been insensitive again. Sometimes people don’t know what to say. I was talking to my Mum last night and said, ‘I think I’m going a bit crazy’, and she agreed with me. I think she meant to be sympathetic but it made me feel self-conscious if I’m honest.
My dog has been a wonderful comfort during this time. My wee fur-baby.

Sakura03 Poo. Sorry to hear about the BFN. It’s just horrid isn’t it?

Vap0 Hurrah! Fantastic news. And, may I say, massive well done for ditching diet coke. Nasty stuff!

I am 13 dpo, AF due tomorrow. I have had some v light brown spotting but my temperature continues to go up. Stupid body playing tricks on me.

I discussed the possibility of having a break with DH and he’s not keen…

In the meantime, I have an Aqua scan booked next Friday to find out more about the fibroids – they have to insert saline solution into my uterus. Sob Sad.

AprilShowers16 · 07/11/2015 08:58

frankie I think it could be that, don't want to get my hopes up or overthink it but I read up about implantations pain last night because I had such a strong pain in my left hand side. I also had a bit of a cry and I think my dh was just trying to distract me with the internet. Woken up this morning feeling much better bit hoping that that's what's going on

Northernlight22 · 07/11/2015 09:19

April, glad your feeling a bit better today. It's tough time isn't it?

AprilShowers16 · 07/11/2015 10:32

northern thanks :) yes it is, I didn't even know why I was crying last night! I couldn't decide whether it was because I was worried I wasn't pregnant or worried that I was! When are you testing?

Northernlight22 · 07/11/2015 11:43

Not til Friday, I'm trying to hold off haha

sundayraspberry · 07/11/2015 13:44

Glad you're getting your cycle back Brenna. Is it worth seeing if your sister can have another quiet word with mother? At least she is asking how you are.

Hops you made the most of ov Vap0 Wink Really nice to hear you upbeat. Those statistics are a comfort to know as is the info about placenta.

Turi is your aqua scan involving ultrasound? I'm just intrigued. Hope it goes OK, have they given you info about what to expect during the procedure?

April I still drink alcohol and will do until I get bfp, I've been ttc for 14 months and knew I would have problems ttc before we started so it would have been a boring time! Like turi, I never bothered changing from decaf tea after mc and don't have much coffee anyway. I still have caffeinated tea at work but I'll swap to decaf once preg, my colleagues know I'm ttc so I won't have make a story up!
Hope you are feeling better today.

No symptoms of preg or af for me so just waiting for something to happen. Around 8dpo ish. Happy weekend to all x

elaine32 · 07/11/2015 14:41

Hello, I too had what was termed a "missed miscarriage". I found out in June at my 12 week scan after some slight bleeding and some pain (which I thought was just a pregnancy symptom). I opted for a d and c which took place 10 days later. Luckily that was straight forward enough. I cautiously started ttc pretty much straight away even tho hubby wasn't too sure after what had just happened. I thought I'd be pregnant after 1-3months.
Here I am nearly 6 weeks to my due date and still not pregnant ?? I bought an opk this month and finally today got a smiley face. So maybe this month will be my month. Trying so hard not to stress but just so desperate for our rainbow baby.
I joined this forum today as I really hope getting the smiley face from the opk is the start of my journey again. And your posts all ring so true with me. It is lonely and it does suck for us and our babies.

Brenna24 · 07/11/2015 15:54

Here is a picture Vap0. Glad you got a smilie Grin

Thanks for the support people. Mum does love us and mean well but she was never overly maternal, only really had us to keep Dad happy, and she just doesn't really think.

It is hard Turi. Best of luck with your scan. That does sound quite unpleasant.

Ooh, April, I hope that is implantation. Maybe try bringing it up with your Mum. She is probably too scared to bring it up if you don't watnt to talk about it, or to say the wrong thing. I think you are right about the ovulation. I have lines on the OPK and then last night I had ov. pains down my right side. I only ever get them on the right side. They are not normally as bad as these were, these did kid od remind me of the m/c. This morning I woke up. No blood and no pains. Did BD this morning but - tmi alert - OH unable to finish so hopefully later on today will be soon enough. Crying is good in my opinion. It gets rid of the stress and help you process things.

I cut out all but my morning cup of coffee before ttc last time. I cut out the morning cup too one I had my BFP. I was only drinking alcohol in the first part of each month and keeping the amount down then. I still haven't had caffeine (apart from accidentally buying one and forgetting to ask for decaf, I was on the ceiling all day at work that day) but I have drunk a reprehensible amount of alcohol this past 3 weeks, well it felt like that much anyway after having had none for so long. I am going to cut back on that again now but wine and food have got me through the last few weeks. My friend has just started on chemo again and they have banned her from several of both our favourite foods, including blue cheese. She has told me I had better get pregnant again VERY quickly so that she has somebody to sympathise with her Grin. We share a very inappropriate sense of humour, so I found that hilarious.

Welcome Elaine commiserations for being here with us, I hpe you aren't with us for long Wink . OH is cleaning. I really should go and help him.

TTC #1 after miscarriage - looking for some buddies
elaine32 · 07/11/2015 17:23

Thanks. Hopefully we will all be moving onto other boards soon??

elaine32 · 07/11/2015 17:24

Smileys from my phone appearing as ? Hmm.

sundayraspberry · 07/11/2015 17:47

It's tough for our other halves too Brenna. I'm trying to give mine enough info about clomid and ovulation to make him involved but not too much to put pressure on Confused Your OH is making up for it with the cleaning tho! Hope your friend's chemo goes ok, if she has a good sense of humour then send her some well wishes from us random baby-crazed ladies!

I think you would have been due about the same time as me Elaine. The desire to be preg again before due date is so strong isn't it.

Brenna24 · 07/11/2015 20:06

We are both scientists, so we both love a good chart and experiment Grin. OH actually loves all the info. Have successfully DTD this time. Hopefully not too late. We did on Tuesday as well, so that is not too bad.

elaine32 · 07/11/2015 20:32

sundayraspberry, I was due 18th December. I think with a due date around Christmas there's a lot of "7 weeks to Christmas" chat and it's a reminder of how close my due date is. I just really want to be pregnant before the year is up. I think my due date will be a lot more bearable if I have another wee one on the way. Do u have any plans for ur due date? I'm not sure what to do.

Vap0 · 08/11/2015 01:22

elaine welcome! I'm sorry to hear you are still ttc so long after mc and desperately hoping that won't be me too. I wish you all the luck this cycle. My thoughts are with you.
brenna I'd give anything for an opk that looked like that! Only had about 6 positives in about 28 months! Hope you managed to dtd at the right time...
sunday I know what you mean about pressure on oh, mine is struggling so much atm.

frankiepants1 · 08/11/2015 11:44

hey Elaine and Clara! nice to meet you, but sorry under these circumstances - fc for us all soon ladies.

northern I need your help to hold out testing, im 6 (poss7) dpo and have just done a cheapo test - what is wrong wth me?! got my 4th pregnancy announcement in less than 7 days yesterday and I guess maybe it's just making me a little more desperate feeling! AF due on Sat, must hold out a few more days at least!

Sunday, do you have a test date in mind?
Vap, are you now on the DPO countdown?
April how are you feeling? are you 10dpo now?
and Clare, hope all is well with you hunny.

hope you're all good girls xxx

mascaraisamust · 08/11/2015 12:26

Frankie I need to step away from poas too. Did one today 8dpo, bfn of course. AF due Tuesday, once again ive put too much pressure on myself Sad

Got my fingers crossed for everyone, looks like we should be all testing around the same time x

frankiepants1 · 08/11/2015 12:31

ah mascara, a fellow poas addict! lets help each other - if you hold off until Tuesday I won't do again until Thurs?!!! xxx

sundayraspberry · 08/11/2015 12:37

I also caved today and poas. Not disheartened by bfn as I know its too early. I'm waiting till weds which I think will still be too early but I haven't any idea when af should be due so think I can be forgiven!

Hope appointment goes OK tomorrow mascara

frankiepants1 · 08/11/2015 12:59

seems like the day for poas early! let's not be too disheartened girls, we knew it was too early...........

I have lots of cheapies and 2 sparkly frers that are going to taunt me! despite saying above that I won't test until Thursday I'm already thinking I'll use a frer on Tues! ??

hope all is ok tomorrow mascara xxx

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