The BESH are cheating on Luck with Irony, all Hags aboard for the ironiclusterdiff of the decade (for the B's and the none B's!)

[Blue2014]

You know the drill by now ...

Rules of Entry - must be over 30, TTC no. 1 for over a year, be suitably evil and Hag like, willing to shout Cunt at the moon on regular occasions, consume extra gin when our fellow hags are unable to, and to get the nipple tassles out for any successful Hag ...

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Thanks Erica! All done, I've 2 on board which surprises me as I thought I would only do one but we discussed it for a while and ended up with one blast and one hatching blast in. Just the 2ww wait to go now.

How you doing Erica, was it the droid? Barking how's you?

OMFG Blue, this is too exciting!

I am pretty sure it is the droid, just an extremely light version, but considering I have been bleeding on and off for two months, maybe it is too be expected?

Hysto on Thursday then. I promise to report all the gory details!

Hmm, I thought I had replied, this phone is playing up today ..

Good luck for Thursday Hag, gory details will be expected

Blue you're PUPO!!!!! And with Twinz!!!!!

Good luck for Thursday Erica, hope it gives you some answers.

I have 3 fertilised embryos. One egg wasn't mature, the other fertilised abnormally. Transfer already booked for Monday so they're clearly not expecting to have all three to choose from by then .

Sorry to hear it Barking, did they explain why or is it standard for your clinic (I assume that would be day 3?)

Sorry to hear Barking, this is fucking stressful!

Will you put two in, if possible?

If we have two left, I want both back in. Clinic isn't open weekends so Monday is the earliest they can go back. With only 3 on day 1 it's unlikely we'll be taking them to a day 5 transfer. Just trying to stay positive....

Am staying positive alongside you Barking, come on little barking embies (I'm feeding them with cake to help growth see...)

You know what's odd? ... How many people have seen my Fanjo this week. It's just occurred to me. I may as well have been on an Ibiza shagging holiday than a Czech IVF trip ...

Blue Yeah, we will be dropping our pants next time we go to the dentist out of pure habit!

How was your fancy breakfast, and when do you go home and when do you pee on sticks?

Watching First Dates in bed and eating mil chocolate baguettes (also in Barking´s embies honour, of course!)

(that face is creepy but I actually laughed at the dentist comment so it needed more than a smile)

Oh your evening sounds amazing!! I'm sat in a bar with my 5th lemonade starving hungry because the posh breakfast was rubbish and it's not quite McDonald's dinner time yet

OTD 2nd April. There will be no early testing. Aside from not drinking or eating pate, or tuna, or homemade Mayo I'm pretending the whole thing isn't happening until it's time to know more.

Thinking of you for tomorrow Barking, hope transfer goes well

Thanks hags. Shitting myself that they're going to call tomorrow and say they're crap, or that there's nothing at all left. Fucking hate this bollocks. Last time I have to go through it though.

Really hoping for the best, toe holds Hag.

Thinking of you so HARD today, Barking.

Hope you are doing ok Barking

Thinking of you blue and barking

No transfer today. All three still going, one 9 cell and two 8 cells, so they're going to wait until tomorrow. Transfer at 4.

Great news barking hope you doing ok

Are you home yet Blue ? I'm not even PUPO yet but if I am by this evening I'll be pimping on 1st April. Clinic says otd is 5th but 1st will be 14dpo equivalent so not waiting longer than that. April fools day. Ha ha.

Great stuff Barking! This is a good cycle, hags!

I am starting to shit myself. I had a chat with the consultant yesterday, about how we would start IVF once we get the results of my hysto etc ... I am truly doubting if I am capable to do this without having a nervous breakdown.

They have also suggested the FISH test for Mr Erica... do you guys know much about this? Worth doing even if all the other tests (including fragmentation) have come back normal?

Barking - ill be home by tonight. I'm not early pimping, I can't take the uncertainty of it. I actually want to LATE pimp but I won't. 2nd April is now officially POAS day. Hope all goes well for you today

Erica, don't know about fish test but if it's not too expensive it's probably worth doing? We had PICSI - a newer form of icsi which aims to get the best quality sperm for fertilisation so maybe the results would inform something like that? I get my AMH results back in about 2 weeks but it's cheap as chips at my clinic so every test is worth doing with them! You know, I know I'm only on round one so what do I know, but IVF isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Do you wanna talk about your worries about it?

Thanks Blue.

I am worried about the strain it may put in our marriage. We just got out of a pretty rough patch and I am scared of what the stress of IVF may do to us...

I am scared of of it not working and of it working and miscarrying again. I am really scared of crumbling under the stress of it all...

We had a rough patch too Erica, for me the strain of endless ttc forced sex was worse (and we actually didn't try for several months because forcing ourselves to be intimate just wasn't helping). For me and I also think for Mr B, IVF has felt less stressful, I can't explain why. It's part the hope that this might actually help where endless shagging and arguing hasn't and partly because it feels like coming to real closure. That sounds awful but I kinda feel like if I give this serval attempts (and I'm lucky, Czech is cheap cheap cheap and I can afford several attempts, I know not everyone else can). Then I'll know to just stop with the "natural" ttc. To be honest I'll probably try donor embryos if attempts with my own eggs don't work but for me it's a way of saying "ok I've tried everything and my body isn't going to do this , I can move forward on this part now" otherwise I'll be pissing on ovulation sticks forever 'just in case'. But then I guess that's the thing that makes its scary too, it seeming more 'final'. Mr B has found the whole process pretty easy and he's very very private but once you've had one wank it a pot it's pretty much the same deal for them. I needed him to be with me each morning while I stabbed myself because I'm needle phobic and had a mini panic before each new one but I probably wouldn't ask him to do that again next time - meds have been much easier than I would have thought (but then I don't have any evil needled bastards) I've been lucky to have had no side effects with anything this time so that's not been a problem. Each 'update' (ie fertilisation, day. 3 etc) is nerve wracking but that feeling has been manageable for me. But all that said, to date I've never had a miscarriage and I really think that must add another level of anxiety into the package. Its not an easy one Love, I know.

Ps. I honestly don't know if it will help but there is a thread on the infertility board called something like "did you always know IVF was the road for you" - gives opinions of others too. Some good, some bad but maybe helpful