The BESH are cheating on Luck with Irony, all Hags aboard for the ironiclusterdiff of the decade (for the B's and the none B's!)

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You know the drill by now ...

Rules of Entry - must be over 30, TTC no. 1 for over a year, be suitably evil and Hag like, willing to shout Cunt at the moon on regular occasions, consume extra gin when our fellow hags are unable to, and to get the nipple tassles out for any successful Hag ...

No admittance without a complete BESHtionnaire - see below.

Hello... Whats the rules on a returning Besh? We're just trying to start on no2 and id like somewhere cosy to hang out. If it's no good I'll slope oft to other places no offence taken!

Hey Pink (Can I call you Pink? It'll get terribly confusing if I have to call you Blue!)

Returning BESH always and frequently welcomed

Finally been HSG-d today ladies ... now just to wait for something to screw up the chances of an ironidiff in the next few weeks ....

How you doing Rain?

Oh and we have 2 (already parents) friends who think they may have accidentally got pregnant this month. Whilst I love them dearly, I'm not sure how well I will handle that!

Well the droid arrived today putting an end to cycle 1 of trying. We decided to start trying on Sunday. This proves that my cycles are shit.

Welcome aboard Pink I'm lurking away with these fine Hags too, always glad of the company.

I'm trying very hard not to menkul, though I'm not sure it's working. If I've got my sums right droid is due next Monday, when we're away on holiday

Muddling on best I can, we booked a nice holiday for November and will aim to try again in January. Just the fourth Christmas since starting this shit to get through....

'ello pink. What was your background before you won baybee #1? I hope this go round is quicker for you.

blue praise the baby jeebus, you've had th hsg! How are you feeling? Are you off tomorrow? Would LOVE it if you managed an elusive ironidiff! Mine took a couple of cycles post hycosy, i think the general consensus is that the effects can last for a few cycles so will keep everything crossed, although not the legs, obvs.

coop and icy hags! Good to see you both! How's it going?

cave where are you off to? Let's hope the droid doesn't find out eh?

We're off to Cornwall so hopefully the metal one will miss us

Glad you've got a lovely holiday booked Rain, obviously it's no consolation but I guess it's something to look forward to.

My body is giving me the run around, cramping and spotting today on what is (I guess) 11 dpo

Good plan with the hols Rain.

I know, finally a HSG! Told Mr B that we have finally been given permission to have the secs again. I'm fine no problems now, hurt whilst it was being done though (but then since when is having metal cranked into your fanjo pleasant, unless you are a 50 shades kinda person)

Lets see how it goes, in my mind we are gonna try til Xmas then I'm buggering off for some private treatment somewhere, am tired of this waiting game now.

Hols for you too Cave, now if your body would just behave ...

Where's Barking, you aren't still sick are you Ol' Gal?

Hey lurky Icy and Coop

Hi Erica if you happen to be lurking too

Hey hags. Rain, I'm so sorry. It's so fucking unfair. I'm glad you have a holiday booked. Garlic and chilli shrimp of sympathy for you.

Blue, glad the HSG is over with. Fingers knotted for an ironidiff.

Waves and swordfish of solidarity to the rest of the BESH.

Good to have a plan/deadline blue

bad can I eat that shrimp? It sounds yum! How are you faring?

I'm doing ok, rain. Starting to show now, properly. And feeling lots of movement, which is strange but cool. 22 weeks now.

I've run out of stolen metformin! Nicked it from my MiL's. she's highly diabetic so has masses of repeat prescriptions, and being an OAP her prescription'll be free... she won't miss it.

Decided it would be a thing to try along with an illicit clomid cycle (had a few pills left over).

There's a church on Warwick Street W1 where I'm lighting candles and kneeling in front of the Virgin Mary before work. I pray for thankful things too, and ask her to look after my grandparents in heaven. Maybe I'll develop a catholic faith?

I've been angry and ranty over on infertility boards. Still angry. So so angry. I'm outraged that my fucking shitbody would let me down like this.

A really shitty down in the dumps few weeks, which look set to continue. Brilliant.

Wow, it's quiet in here..! I've been away (not even lurking, will power or what?) for a bit and expected to have loads of catching up to do.

How is everyone?

I'm on hols with dodgy WiFi so today is the first chance I've had to get on here!

Droid turned up, 2 days later than expected so stupid me had got my hopes up and even bought a pregnancy test. So it's back on the shag wagon for another cycle - God could I sound any less enthusiastic?!

Hi cave, sorry it got you again. I know what you mean, I never thought I'd not want to have sex with dh, but when you have to, and you know it's probably not gonna work anyway...

How's everyone else?

Wooooohooo! There is an app again! That's where I've been, it's just been too hard work to post without the app

Hello Hags lets get this Fred kicking again

Sorry to hear of the false hope Cave, I hate false hope

Icy how are you? I often wonder why we hags are still on the conception board, it sucks but the way we are going it feels we probably fit better in the infertility board but I don't know if I'm ready for it.

Hello BESH, I don't recognise many names on here, but hello to you all. I was here a while ago, maybe 18 months or so. I dropped away because of menkulling, but I wanted to let you know that there is hope because after 4 years I'm finally upduffed!!!
It's taken many a hospital appointment, quite a lot of alcohol and cake, and 2 rounds of IVF for me to get to this point, but I am and I just wanted to let you know that it has been the longest wait of my life ( I know some people wait much longer than me though, so I'm grateful it's only been 4 years), but I'm so glad I carried on.
In our first round of IVF we had no eggs at all despite high AMH and lots of follies and it was a terribly traumatic experience. I was under huge stress at the time with family members in hospital and I think this was what caused it but we'll never know. We didn't do another round for a year and nearly fell out of the system, but just about made it.
I was very sceptical at starting round 2 and we were both very much going through the motions. But-we got 6 eggs, of which 4 were mature. 3 of these fertilised. Of these 1 stopped growing and we had a 2 day transfer, which we thought was terrible because it was 2 day not even 3 or 5 day like everyone else, so we had zero hope really. Then to our absolute amazement when we came to test, there was a line and I'll never forget that moment for as long as I live. We'd been preparing to go to a family thing where we were convinced we would be absolutely crushed but we'd have to smile and pretend nothing was wrong (our families don't know for various reasons), but to our shock it was positive and I took 3 tests and they were all positive.
Then I convinced myself it wouldn't last, but is try to get through each day, always preparing myself for the worst, but we made it to the 7 week scan and there was a sac and a baby and a heartbeat!
I'm now counting down to the 12 week scan and being very much reminded every day that this baby is growing because of the nausea I've had almost every hour since week 6. I'm now 8 weeks and praying this lasts and still in a bit of shock.
I just wanted to let you all know that there is hope. I can't count the times I felt heartbroken, that I cried when I saw the umpteenth FB announcement, that I had to cuddle other people's newborns thinking I would never have my own, that I threw my vaginal dilatory (which I had to use for 10 mins every day) across the room!, that I felt like giving up and moving to the other side of the world so I could have a more fulfilling life and not always be just waiting, but try to remember that sometimes we ordinary BESH do get lucky!! The fact that I don't recognise many names on here suggests that I think.
I really hope you don't think this is self-indulgent and sorry it's so long, but I just wanted to offer some encouragement and strength. Hang in there hags- you can do it. X

Forgot to say we also somehow got a top grade frostie out of round 2 as well.
Sending you all the luck in the world BESH- if it can happen to me after every sh*t thing I've had thrown at me in my life, then it can happen to you too. X

Thanks so much for sharing your story bear, really pleased it worked for you and fingers crossed for a healthy rest of pregnancy.

Thanks Bear, I think we BESh need a success story sometimes. Congrats!

I'm feeling pretty fucking miserable about all this you know. Ov time, lying down after the secs, knowing its absolutely fucking pointless

Arm punch blue, I have no wise words unfortunately as I'm in the same place at the minute. Cunt cunt cunt!

Cunt cunt cunt cunt indeed. It's all fucking bollocks isn't it.

Just come back early for work so we can secs, I fucking hate this and everyone around me is getting differd with their second

Congratulations Bear, it's always lovely to hear about the success stories.

Sorry for the misery hags, it really does take its toll physically and mentally.