smack those rats, sniff those drugs; we dont care how, but we will get our babies and we are BROOKING NO ARGUMENT

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Hey all, hope everyone is enjoying the sunshine.

So CD26 here, and DH managed to DTD late on Fri night and v late on Sun night, so late it was pretty much the start of today, so as long as I ovulate by cd30 we should be in with a chance. Recent cycles have been circa 40-44 and have had ewcm since Thursday so fingers crossed for one of those cycles rather than a longer one, my longest was 54 days. It's the first cycle when ttc that DH hasn't had any performance issues, and its odd but I feel so much more relaxed this month because I'm not worrying now about whether he will or won't manage it, now that he's done it twice. Only takes the 1 sperm so there must be plenty waiting for the egg now

Hello, I've been popping in and out keeping an eye on you all! I think I might be back to try to smack that rat myself though!

Firstly, I know just how utterly blessed I am with the 3 DC we have with us and that how lucky I am that I've always got pregnant very easily and I know that I am now just being greedy wanting another one, but we got a bit of a shock last night.

I went to the GP last week because I've not had a period for 3 months and got some blood tests. It appears that I am developing premature ovarian failure and that, despite only being in my mid early 30s, the menopause might be on its way.

I'm pretty gutted and a bit shell shocked and hoping that it will all magically be okay (getting more tests in a few weeks and will be referred to my own department which will be very, very odd), but DH and I decided that, even though DC4 is only 9 months, we should probably try for another one while there might be time. It isn't likely to happen but I'd definitely regret not trying.

So, I'm back Brooking No Argument and will be Smacking those Rats!

Goodness dino, what news Here's brooking that your ovaries have what it takes one last time and you will have a baby in your arms before long! Brooking for you too, Loopy.

My period is late, but I was on so much medication (and was poorly) from early-mid June that it's possibly interfered with my cycle a bit. I very much doubt I'm pg, but will test on Sunday if there are no signs.

How's everyone doing in the heatwave? I'm enjoying a rare bit of peace whilst dds are at school and nursery. I'm trying to catch some sunshine but it's very cloudy here. At least I won't need to be the sunburn police later when they're playing outside, calling them to have their cream reapplied and to keep their hats on!

Morning all :) Dino what a shock that must be for you, brooking no argument that it all works for you again.

Hope you are all well in this weather :) Tis bloody lovely isn't it ;-)

Morning brookers!
Back from a lovely holiday and then a rather nasty bout of norovirus, wow, that is grim indeed!

I have missed so much news! Huge congrats to cup on your gorgeous boy, hope you are recovering well and enjoying the sunshine.
imps so sorry to read of your chemical, but you remain positive as always and clearly the sperm is doing something as its getting to its goal, twice now! Really hoping this is a good sign for your next round (which you won't need as you will be getting you FUFC BFP)

keep best of luck with the FET!

DINO wow, you are brave. I had a similar diagnosis to you about a year ago and it was devastating. Are you still breastfeeding? This can make your hormones appear menopausal. I took DHEA and co enzyme q10, both of which are good for poor egg reserve. It only takes one remember!

loopy here is to another BFP and a sticky one this time.

molotov are you back to rat smacking then?

I am now almost 20 weeks, have scan booked for Wednesday and I am feeling nervous again as I am really starting to feel the baby move and bond with it! DD talks constantly about being a big sister and asks about her baby boy so I can't bear thinking of anything being wrong.

Morning all, did you all have a good weekend? Mine was fabulous, right up until.i had to come home and deal with an incredibly jealous stbx (not because I'd done anything, just because I am enjoying life and making it on my own).

Far I'm sure all will be amazing on Wednesday! Do you know it's a boy? I've missed do much on here.

Hello lovelies! Sorry for absence but was v busy and then away for a truly epic long weekend of adventures with Mr I which was so much fun it has made me question again if not having a child is my preference

Dino gah so sorry to hear the news about your ovaries. But it just takes one as we all know and that, combined with brooking, means that you will be diffed in no time.

Sorry about the norovirus Far. Can't believe you are already 20 weeks! Your scan will be perfect, you mark my words.

As for me, missed our last chance for a FUFC BFP has Mr I was away with work. I should get AF next week which means the next IVF can start! And it's bound to work this time - we saw a field full of storks while we were away and I asked them very nicely if one of them might care to deliver a baby to us. They seemed pretty obliging.

Imps, when we were unsuccessfully ttc dd2, I looked into the eyes of my friend's then-4mo baby and silently asked for her to please (somehow) allow me to get pg so I could have a baby, too. I got pg on that cycle. Again, maybe I'm being a bit woo, but I hope that those stalks sort something out for you

Far, feeling for you having norovirus especially whilst pg.

My period came a little late, but it came as usual. I'm on antibiotics again as started to feel unwell again the tail end of last week. But it's under control again, I think, and I am feeling less anxious about possibly getting pg again. Hopefully this calmness will carry over into my mid-cycle and beyond!

How many times did I write 'again' in that last post?!

imps I'm expecting AF any day so we'll go together. I can't remember are you short protocol this time round?

Ooooh we're on for at least a Double Whammy then Keep! Yes I am going short protocol this time. I am also having a baseline scan this time - anyone know what that's for?

to check your lining is thin I think, and all hunky dory.
are you excited?

I am quite excited Keep - it's odd though, I haven't really thought about it much this time around. I certainly haven't given any serious thought to the notion that it might work. I think I just assume that it won't, and actually am not that down about the prospect. I guess after this long trying, I'm so used to the status quo, and the inevitable failures that I can't really imagine it any other way.

boo sorry to hear of your troubles, you are sounding very positive though.

imps great news! I am brooking no argument this is going to work, you should get a much better response with a short protocol I think. Baseline scan checks your lining and also how many follicles you have so they can start tracking them.

keep yay for cluster diff!

All was well this morning, thanks brookers, saw the little man, his profile looks unbelievably like DH its hilarious. The spent ages on the heart so DH and I were worrying a bit but all was well, he was just in a funny position apparently. Placenta is currently a bit low but apparently most will move out of the way so nothing to worry about. They have me booked in for some growth scans at 26, 32 and 36 weeks to keep an eye on the baby and how big he is getting and then we can make a decision on whether to go for c section or not (I had shoulder dystocia with DD).

Ah, glad to read all is well with the baby, Far. I do love a happy scan

Oh Far that's lovely! Made me a little teary-eyed :)

Great news re scanfar so funny to hear you can already tell he looks like DH. Must amusing.

Will put my best Brooking shoes on for imps and keep for good results with their next round of treatment. Come on universe they've been excellent brookers and totally deserve an easier ride. Anyone else need some brooking?

mol are you going to roll the dice? You sound a bit more chilled about it all so hopefully some clarity has reached you in the last few weeks/months.

And dino sorry to hear about your ovaries. You are on my brooking list too.

As for me, I've got my 20 week scan on Friday and I'm terrified. It was at this point that the issues with Will arose and although everything was fine with f chops, I'm starting to feel like we've tempted fate by trying to go for number 3. It's not helped by the fact that we've moved hospital since the boys were born to somewhere more rural so won't be seeing the same specialists. W asked me what happens if the baby has the same thing he did, a couple of weeks after we told him that we were having another baby. I nearly cried, he is only 5 but so aware of everything going on. Argh I'm mentaling about it all but ultimately even if it did happen again the treatment plan is basically watching and waiting and crossing my fingers... Helpful.

Sorry just needed to let it out a bit. Every time I say any of this to anyone other than DH, they just say it will be fine. What else are they supposed to say, I don't know but I find it really unhelpful. I mean how on earth can they know. I don't even have any inkling. Wah

oh hinks I'm brooking all is well. what is wrong with w?

far so pleased all is well x

dino I meant to say I'm sorry about your diagnosis, what a shock! but where there's an egg there's a way

Oh Hinks

Bless you guys. Wise words. Just have to wait and see.

keep w had iugr which is basically growth restriction we think because the placenta didn't work properly. It was diagnosed at the 22 week scan and was then followed by 10 weeks of intensive scanning and monitoring before he was delivered at 31+4 was but weighed on 2lbs, the se as a 26 weeker. He spent 4 months in intensive care. It was rough going.

Miraculously he is absolutely fine now. Doing well at school and loves reading. But we still worry about the impact of his first few months long term and the amount of medication he had during that time.

hinky, I think the fears you habe are completely understandable. In some cases, ignorance really is bliss. For most, the 20w scan is an opportunity to see their growing babies but in actual fact it is a procedure specifically to identify problems. You know this more than most and have lived through it and it's complications.

It does not mean the same will happen with this child.

Wishing you peace and sending positive thoughts your way for tomorrow. Please let us know how you get on (((hug)))

Oh Hinks I totally understand what you mean, DS1 has disabilities, and I was terrified that DS2, and DD would also have issues, there are no words that can help until you have a diagnostic test and they can tell you either way. That being said, I shall hold your hand until you know.

Thank you whoever said I seem positive, I'm trying very hard to maintain a lovely peaceful place for the kids while staying on the moral highground STBX is acting more like a 13 year old boy though, he actually threw a strop because I don't follow him on FB We're still fb friends I just CBA with his shit popping up on my timeline though. Kids eh

Oh, and I didn't answer hink's earlier question: I definitely feel calmer at the prospect of being pg/having a baby again. If I discovered I was pg, I'd be thrilled ... worried but happy, I think.

Whether I'm brave enough to go with it this month, I can't say. I'd like to say 'yes'; I want to just see what happens but my worry now is that I've overthought things, to my/our detriment.

Someone I know who has 2 dcs asked if I was 'done': I said 'i don't know, never say never' and she said that she is. Her youngest child is the same age as mine and she said they're looking forward to more exotic holidays, being able to afford the children anything they want and she said she just doesn't want to go backwards.

I can see her logic, I have similar thoughts yet I see burgeoning pg bumps (especially ones with a 3rd dc in them) and am jealous. I'm like is she pregnant? And then keep taking crafty glances at the bump.