That's great news about your ds's school place, Loopy! 
I unfortunately came down with a vomiting bug over Monday/Tuesday, and tbh I felt like a bag o' shite all day yesterday. I stupidly cracked on with my day-to-day business yesterday instead of resting and so felt the burn today, also. This is why I fear I would be a rubbish repeat CS mother. I just don't have time to sit still.
Whilst I was being sick, I kept having flashbacks of nausea and morning sickness and I kept thinking 'oh God, imagine looking after my girls and this' 
A friend has recently had her dc3, whilst I admired another friend's beautiful 12wo on Monday (before the sickness!!) ... it's not a competitive thing; I'm not jealous in terms of them having someone I don't. I just miss having a baby in my arms and pram, and am now in the last throes of trying to work out if it's really a whole other person I want, or just a squashy baby. Because squashy babies grow into tricky toddlers who grow into children who need you in ever more complex ways (Dd1 laid some displacement anger on me earlier which was very upsetting. As it came to pass, she had a friendship issue today. The first of many a heartbreak, I fear. All sorted now, hopefully).
Do I have it in me to do this with more than two little ones?
Is an accidental pg what I really need? I know my friend's newest baby is 
What are you guys getting from reading my posts? (Thanks, BTW ] ) Is my head trying to talk me out of a 3rd dc, or do I secretly know we are a family of 4?