TTC for 10 months, and all the rest. 10 plussers welcome.

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New thread full of the most amazing women.

Ray that would be frustrating - I hope that isn't the case and they let you do it. Xmas is definitely a very odd time it brings up so many emotions. You have a lovely dh and relationship I like the sound of your xmas.

Sammy can you post us a link to have a look at your chart , is it on fertilityfriend?

There is so much I want to say but have been swamped with external things recently but just wanted to scream Cos!!!!! Are you taking progesterone this month, if not can you crack open some gestone? Absolutely praying this is finally it for you and no more messing with your head. You must be in shock?!!

hi all

ok, that calm collected girl who was embracing the who ivf thing with positively has left the building! did trigger last night but not enjoying a drug free day, actually freaking out about everything! how does anyone concentrate at work? I am struggling to even remember passwords and I use about 10 all day long! to add to it all I am visiting care homes after work to re home my grampy! oh my days!!

(sorry, waves to everyone and quiet cheer for coz)

Cos !!!!! Get yourself on the phone to the clinic and ask their advice about drugs, pronto. If extra oestrogen and progesterone were part of an IVF protocol then I'd be figuring out if now is the time to take them. Oh I am just desperate for this to be it. Your womble is shiny and you know about the antibodies. Oh wow this would be a fantastic Christmas present, for all of us.

Ray I hope they concede defeat. Try tears. They need to play ball after messing up last time. Good luck.

Fluffy, deep breaths. I think you become addicted to "doing something" so it's odd when you stop. Don't worry though, you've got progesterone to look forward to. And if you are worried about EC, it's fine. I kinda became addicted to fond of the sedation and my only personal worry was whether my single follie would become an egg. You don't have that concern. Good luck with the care homes, if nothing else it will take your mind off tomorrow. Huge good luck.

Berry how are you, recovering I hope. Thinking of you.

Waves to everyone else.

cos they are yours if you need them and a quiet eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek, a stripe is a stripe :) agree with other about calling the clinic

sam yes I appear to be an 'up the butt girl' as that is how I take my progesterone to

ray I am hoping that they can fit this cycle in, how many days will you be on Friday??

fluffybig hand hold, its totally normal to feel like this so close to EC, fuck work for the day, its not important, tomorrow is another step in your quest to be a mum, plus you have to look at nursing homes and that in itself is a big decision

cos wow

Cos!! Agree with everyone else, call the clinic. That is fantastic news.

penguin thanks for dropping in, glad you got a BFP!

fluffy hang in there, I know, it's impossible to concentrate at this stage. So sorry about your grandfather and the stress of that.

berry hope you're recovering, I was expecting you to spam the thread more

ray it is crap. At least the appointment will allow you guys to move a little further forward. I agree tears are a good strategy if needed.

Hello ladies, I'm here! All went well, thanks for thinking of me. Been inundated with visitors and I'm absolutely crap at posting on the iPad so I promise tomorrow I will get the laptop out and do a proper post.

Very excited to see cos' post though! Please let this be some good Christmas news for the thread.

cos. We had to have one ironidiff! Have everything crossed for you x

Cos - oh wow, wow. ooooooo, big hand holds xx

Thanks all, and thanks for the advice. Have contacted clinic and have started gestone tonight and will retest in the morning to make sure. They're going to let me about the estrogen tomorrow. Feeling a little like I will turn out to be the cry wolf of the thread. I think we must have been the most underwhelmed suspicious people ever this morning. Feels very unlikely.

Fluffy very best of luck for tomorrow. It's perfectly ok for your head to be a bit all over the place, not surprising.

Sammy Penguin's advice about temping sounds good to me.

Nelly am liking the image of you in mothercare starting to at least think about your own. When is your next scan?

Joy and Critter, how are you both doing?

Toes sorry about the awful mock transfer experience. I hope this means they've got it figured out for the actual day.

Starfish that is a great Ivf allocation, that's very good news, that gives you lots of chances.

Waves all.

Also Critter how are you feeling now about your friend, has it really shaken you? I hope you're ok. Have you heard from her? How is she?

just caught up - all I can say for now is wow cos

Cos - it is on FF... But how do I post it? X

Ah yes Cos, the significant anti-climax of the BFP. I always imagined seeing that first stripey line would be a tears moment. The reality was rather more cynicism doused in terror. But there is no reason why this can't be a good outcome for you, despite the fear and doubt. I'm still super excited but we will all take it one day at a time. :)

Cos - it's only natural you feel suspicious and doubtful after what you've been through for so bloody long. But I am excited for you and I felt a natural bfp was due for you after septumgate removal. But I know it is early days and this bit is horrid but this is your time. X

Ha to 'cynicism doused with terror' nelly. I hope you are able to enjoy some aspects of pregnancy, although I know the feeling as I share it! I cried the first time I heard the heartbeat in my first pregnancy, and the second, and the third! This time I just feel a measure of relief when I hear it. We develop this hard shell around us to protect us.

cos so glad you called the clinic and will get progesterone support. You are not crying wolf! But I can imagine your caution as you've been bitten so badly before. Fingers tightly crossed. Lots of fluids and rest. The more support you can get, the better.

berry really glad the op went well and you have lots of visitors!

I have only messaged this poor girl through the group board (which is all women who've lost babies to 'hie' which is basically oxygen deprivation). She posted and said that the kindness of people on FB had been instrumental in getting her through the past few days. I don't know... I feel shy about bugging her as she says she has lots of real life support. It just... it literally is my worst nightmare. Like a black hole of horror. To go through it twice - two c sections, two perfect healthy full term babies dying... and right before Christmas somehow makes it even worse - and I know it was a fear lurking in her mind throughout the pregnancy as she would occasionally post things like 'if we have a baby in December' etc. Ugh.

In good news, another friend here who lost a baby in October last year has just had her second, safely, delivered by the same wonderful OB I will be seeing (I told her to go to him!). I cried with relief when she texted me to let me know.

And the dog is snoozing next to me on the sofa, and my woolly hug arrives tomorrow. Very excited and will try to post a pic when it gets here.

Ha Nelly that is a great description. Very true and that makes me feel less of a fraudster (slightly).

Critter I'm so glad for your other friends success story, and by the doc you recommended too, that is fab news, so glad you have someone you trust so much. Have you seen him yet?

Thanks Joy. How are you doing are you any more relaxed yet, are the days passing any less slowly? I feel like you should be 20 wks already so god knows how you feel!
Did a digi and it really is a bfp (2-3 weeks).

Congratulations Cos!! Xx

Sam to post a link to chart I think you go to 'sharing' and then under charting home page 'get code' and this gives you the URL I think, which you then copy and paste.

Congratulations cos! Awesome news!

Nelly and critter and joy hope you are managing to enjoy a bit of the pregnancies

Off to consultant before my ops on Thursday

Oh Cos that's fantastic news. Will you go for bloods do you think or just wait it out?

Berry I'm glad the op went well. And Pikz good luck with yours.

Right I've got the laptop out so I can do a proper post.

Cos that is just the best news and has made me smile so much! Great news that the digi already says 2-3 weeks as well.

Critter, I am so sorry to hear about your friend. I cannot comprehend what she must be going through. To go through it once is more than any person should have to suffer but to go through it twice is just beyond comprehension. I am glad things have worked out well for your other friend though. I hope the woolly hug will provide you with comfort when it arrives.

Fluffy, I also wonder how I will concentrate at work if I do IVF. You are doing great though. Keep going. You have such a lot on your plate with your grandad too. Hope the care home visits were successful?

Toes it sounds like you've been having a tough time too. It sounds really painful, you poor thing.

Ray sorry to hear yu're feeling low. It really is such a tough time of year and you're right about FB being full of images of happy families!

Joy hope you're feeling well. How many weeks are you now?

Nelly I said it last week but, I'll say it again, I'm so pleased your scan went well. Are you going to wait til 12 weeks now or just see how you feel?

As I said yesterday, the op all went to plan. the doctor said he got all the endometriosis and he also removed a couple of cysts (some endometrial cysts and some normal cysts) that hadn't been there the last time he looked. The most painful part so far has definitely been getting rid of all that gas they pump you up with. I didn't really suffer with that last time but I was in theatre for 3 hours this time so I guess they really pumped me full of the stuff. I also had a pre-sacral neurectomy whilst I was in there which is basically where they deaden the nerves that make you feel period pain so I am hoping that will help with the awful pain I get. My period is due in a couple of days so I guess I'll find out soon!

Cos - this is just fab news. your news has just made me so so happy and excited for you. (Weirdly haven't been excited for myseld yet but am for you!) I think you are the first proper irondiff on here and my god you deserve it.

Berry - 3 hour op is hardcore.well done you brave lady. Gas is painful isn't it but I am glad they managed to get all these culprits. I hope you continue with a swift recovery. What is the next step?

Critter - I am also horrified to hear about your poor friend. Truly shocking that it can happen twice. but I am very glad another friend has had a baby safely and as will you. I hope you are hanging on in there at the moment. I am not surprised you cried at hearing the heartbeat out of sheer relief probably. I've been an ice maiden and haven't cried yet. I've come close but I get really embarrassed about crying in front of people.

Ray - I hope Friday's meeting gets you somewhere with your clinic. It would be great if you can squeeze a cycle in over Xmas. Clinics nornally don't stop over holiday periods do they?

Toes - sorry about the horrible dummy transfer. Did they not say anything about dialapan to you? My dummy transfer was horrible and the man really hurt me and struggled with the catheter for over 30mins. He said my cervix was difficult and that I would need dialapan - a device they put in for 4 hours to soften the cervix. Anyway I chickened out and purposefully didn't go and have it because I had had transfers done before which went ok. And in the end ET went really smoothly with a different doctor. I honestly think it's the skill of the doc. Anyway it's good they tested things out on you first.

Fluffy - good luck for EC today.

Nelly - interesting experience you had in mothercare. I must say I couldn't feel more removed from even thinking that one day i could need that stuff. I am still just living my life from scan to scan at the moment.

Waves to all.

cos so very excited for you :) Glad your clinic are helping too

fluffy Hope all goes well today