Hi all,
I'm currently sitting in the hospital with a cup if tea having a wee cry so I hope it's ok if I so a me me me post. I promise I've been following everyone's progress, even if I haven't posted recently - life has been hectic and then there were a couple of announcements that threw me for six (also one that I'm very happy about - why is it that some of them make you want to punch people and others make you so, so happy).
So today I have my mock transfer and scan of my ovaries. I was mostly worried about my first dildo cam experience, but it was totally fine - Had a wee giggle at the fact that they use a condom on it but it makes total sense.
The they went to do the mock transfer. And she couldn't get the catheter in. Then she called another doctor who tried for ages and couldn't get it in either. Eventually they gave up and I went for a wee. They said they were going to do it in theatre, but it was pretty full so sent me away for an hour. I had a cup of tea and biscuit and wandered around the hospital. I was feeling quite emotional, which didn't help when a choir of little angels turned up to sing Christmas carols. I left pretty sharpish.
Then I was back in the gynaecology wing, and in theatre. The nurse I had was just lovely, so kind and sweet. The doctor put the speculum etc. in and then was still struggling to thread the catheter through. It seems that the neck of my womb is a) unable to keep still and b) quite bendy, so they had to get the catheter through two curves instead of one like with everyone else. In the end they had to get the most senior gynaecologist in the building to get it through, while holding the neck of my womb still with some clampy type things. I'm a bit fuzzy at this point in what happened because it was horrendously painful and I was gulping down the gas and air like no tomorrow. They were about to give up (after about half an hour of trying) but then he said let's try one more time, and I was trying to say please no through my mask, but they didn't hear me and went for it. They FINALLY got it in. He's making very detailed notes about how he did it so that it's easy to replicate, but did say I'd need the gas and air again for the ET. Whew.
Now that's all been done, I'm just sitting in the waiting room, I have no idea what's happening next but I've called Mr Toes to come to the hospital because I need a cuddle. Also just noticed a leaflet right next to my head called "are you facing a life without children?" Which is what I think set me off crying. I've turned them all over for now. Don't know if I should turn them back before I leave because people might need them, or leave them because I imagine most women like me will just start blubbing at the sight of it...