Woo hoo! Old cluckers, over here!

[Gingerbreadlady1]

For old birds to support each other through the madness. New old birds are most welcome, join us in the chicken coop.

Hi patch, I hope you get results soon.

Hi Hexy good to hear from you, you're doing well!

Got my AF on Sunday was five days late and had got my hopes up... Was gutted for a few days but bouncing back now, ready for the next month. You all seem a great group of ladies it's nice to share the highs and lows

The bitch showed up before. I am seriously starting to think sex does not= pregnancy.

Ahh sorry ghost and Lola it really is shit, especially when she's late just to mess with your head.. I'm feeling v grouchy and being a total nag whining on to DH about everything... I think it's the witch gearing up for her entrance next week..

Thanks Annie. I was a bit down before but I guess you just have to pick yourself up. The bright side is more practicing for next cycle.
Indeed Patch what Annie said.

Thanks too Annie .... DP said he's looking forward to the next month of trying ! ! X

I don't know why I do this to myself, just tested at 10dpo and it's blankety blank bfn, Snow White, nothing, less than nothing. Still it ain't over til that witch turns up again.

Seriously getting to the end of the road with trying. I want to live my life and this emotional pain is dragging me down. Every part of my life has been impacted by this, relationship, family, friends, work, home, faith, health, finances.... 2.5 years of heartache, all of my married life. It's all part of life though and makes you stronger I suppose... Maybe I'm just feeling a bit emotional today ... Need chocolate or something to cheer me up. At least the sun is shining, it's a beautiful day here.

I've got an appointment with IVF consultant on Tuesday to talk about my frozen embryo and arrange Transfer. I have zero hope for this and feel reluctant to go through with it as I don't think my embryos are any good so it will be an upheaval to travel down and stay near clinic again, missing work and having to lie to people about why you are away .. All for nothing.

God, cheer me up someone!! I need a drink

Annie, I'm so sorry to hear you're so down. Totally understandable. I'm sure you've heard all the stories about "friends who have conceived against the odds" but they are all true which doesn't mean it won't be you. My friend was 41 and on her 3rd round of IVF conceived, she was given a 12% chance of success and now her little girl is 15 months old. It can happen. But.... you need to do what's right for you and your sanity. Fingers crossed for you.
Ghost and Lola sorry to hear about your news too... here's to more luck next time.
Patch, good luck with your scan.
Hope all the other ladies are doing ok and welcome to the new ones. I've managed to talk myself into thinking I'm pg.... despite the fact for one reason or another my husband and I have only dtd twice in the last 10 days and the one which would have been the important one was on cd7... so I know even though it's highly unlikely, I still feel like something is different. My boobs are really tender when I am not due on for another 2 weeks hence they shouldn't be hurting now so either my cycles are up the wall or I'm pg. Who knows. I'll be pretty disappointed when I can test which isn't for another 14 days! Argh! Why do we do it to ourselves?? xx

Just dropping in to give you a hug Annie (())

....and some xx

I keep on hoping for you to join us on the AN thread....xxx

Aw thank you stubborn and katie you've both cheered me up instantly.

Katie it really does help to hear those stories like your friend's.

On good days I think "I'm only 41, my cousin was 43 when she had her first.." I'm getting more days of "I'm 41, it's too late, my eggs are too old".. I'm a Gemini so I swing from one to the next!

I love it when someone on the thread gets a BFP and in RL because it does give the rest of us a spark of hope .

My positive ins says it's a numbers game and I've got to keep going and be patient.

It's so hard!

Annie Here's a great big whacking hug for you and just a teensy slap in the wrist too. No testing before AF is due do you hear?

Take care of yourself my love x

Aww thanks Tranquility I know I'm bad testing this early. I'm just so desperate. I am feeling tearful again today, can't snap out of it.

I thinki just need some help right now a bit lost because I'm not on any treatment and my NHS ob/gyn said there were no treatment options left except ovarian drilling and I don't think that is appropriate option for me as I don't have PCOS. It really worries me that my ob/gyn would refer me for such a drastic treatment.

Anyway, must think positive, I have my frozen one and must do all I can to prepare myself for it.

I'm in the office trying not to cry. Just been pounced on to go to a baby shower in another dept and someone had brought in their toddler. I hate those things so much as a feel close to tears but have to smile and eat cake!! That's life though, it's in your face. I know it's just my hormones. I can't wait to go on the pill after all this and be normal and balanced!! Xx

I don't think it's just your hormones annie, I think it's natural to feel down sometimes when you're having such a struggle. Maybe allow yourself to have a good old wallow this evening, with shedloads of wine?

I don't understand why they're suggesting ovarian drilling when you managed to provide plenty of healthy looking eggs with just simple egg harvesting??

Do you really have to go to that bloody baby shower? Do you have a naughty work ally who you can fuck off down to the pub with instead?! xxx

Haha Stubborn I love the idea of fucking off down the pub but I'd get rumbled in seconds!!

Someone came to my office and grabbed me, it was nice really I just get a bit wobbly when Im trapped in a room full of women sitting round a table with a Real Live Baby.

Exactly, I just don't trust my ob/gyn. He's a crap locum. He told me to keep praying .

Anyway, thanks for replying it makes me cheer up so much xxx

"Keep praying"?! If you needed advice like that, you'd have gone to church, not a doctor! He didn't tell you to "relax and then it will happen" as well, did he?!

No but he told me to "keep being nice to your husband". I just put up with it because I'm desperate and the other ob/gyn here is meant to be worse!

I'm going to edinburgh to see the Consultant at the IVF clinic on Tuesday so I'll tell on him mention the ovarian drilling and find out what he thinks.

Sorry you're feeling down, Annie. It's hard to stay positive all the time.
Love and support to you.
How's things with everyone else.

Hugs annie, & have a bloody good wallow & don't feel guilty about it. Ttc is shite!

Waves to everyone else!

Aww Annie you do what you've got to do, can't bear to hear you sound so down. This rollercoaster is so hard at times xx

The witch arrived! Had myself a few wines tonight and feel better. Onwards and upwards!

Sorry to drag this thread down I hope I haven't scared off the newbies with my rank chat!!

Hi Annie. Sorry to hear about A.F's arrival, but glad you're feeling more positive. Indeed onwards and upwards.
Oh and there's no need to apologise, Annie ttc is very stressful at times and it's hard when every women out there seems to be pushing a pram and announcing a pregnancy!. We all get our bad days. We can't go through life being like the court jester everyday.
Love and thoughts.

Thanks ghost, feel so much better now the witch is here! Was going mad!

How's everyone else? I'm hogging this thread!!

Hi guess at least when she does show you know where you stand.