TTC 10 Months Plus, Supporting each other & Staying Positive :) This thread will be the BFP one!

[victoria401]

This is a thread for ladies who have been ttc longer than 10 months who have started the ball rolling with tests and treatments. We are all here to support each other though these darker days to the baby shaped light at the end of the tunnel!

You're right, and I am really looking forward to Christmas! Just had a crap day yesterday, feeling a bit more positive today already .

jingle bells jingle bells! I so happy the xmas24 channel has started. may have to fig out my bible Xmas CD too....!

Hi
day 21 bloods back 3.0 noml/l :( still not oving but I know that anyway.

Sorry tutsy :-(

Thanks Vic I think I'll go for a higher doze on my antidepressants this month :(. This sounds so wrong but I am very slightly hoping for DH sperm not to be perfect I'm so bad and selfish but I'm so sick of being a failure in life and I don't want him thinking of me as a failure so I want it to be a bit of both our faults. I'm a selfish bitch. Don't get me wrong I will be over the moon and so released for him if his fine but a little bit of me want him to have problems too so I'm not to blame. I spoke to him about it and he said he understands why I would feel this way.

tutsy the fact you can tell him you feel like that speaks volumes. you will be just fine whatever happens. and not ovulating is NOT your fault so stop thinking like that. I say this to dh about his sperm too. its nothing you did, you didn't intend it to happen, it just did.

I say to my dh, its no ones 'fault'. We are infertile as a couple. although he's the one with low morphology and poor diet/lifestyle etc!

this thread seems to have dried up. hope everyone is OK

I've actually been posting on the November thread, so confident am I that I will get a bfp post hsg! Guess who's coming down to earth with a big fat bump in a few weeks time!

How are u lil? Counting down the days til treatment?

good on you Vic that is definitely PMA!

yep, well counting days to AF atm for starting pill. due next Saturday. secretly hoping for a last minute bfp to save the day but not expecting to be that lucky. also trying to kick start the diet as I need to shift the stone I've put on this year. not going so well. apparently ivf is not a good motivation for dieting!

how are things with you and dh now? x

Things are much better with dh at the moment. I think the big blow out/heart to heart worked for now he's making an effort to make me happy and didn't complain when I demanded sex of him for egg catching purposes!

If we do get bfn this month we have our appointment with consultant from hell again Nov 27th to press on with treatment whenever we can start. Feeling the old cold feet returning tho...

Hi girls- hope all is well and you are having a nice weekend. Crazy crazy crazy at work for me and I am also counting down the days til christmas!

Ended up travelling for work last minute over ov week and so only DTD once. Annoying as it was HSG month.

Good news is that my follow-up appointment with specialist came through really quickly after the HSG, which was the last fertility test we had to complete. Seeing her this coming week!

good luck with the appointment Linda. my first one after tests was just to tell us what was wrong and suggested treatment. told dh to take vit c then sent us on our way and waited 12weeks for next appt. just to warn you. hopefully will be faster where you are.

Vic I think its natural to have cold feet. I keep wondering if I actually want a baby after all. weird as I've wanted one since I was about 14 lol. I think its just the scariness of the treatment/injections/hormones and the unknown. and the uncertainty. I think I'm thinking I don't want a baby to protect myself from the idea it might not work. we only get one go funded

Thanks for your experience lil Did you not get results of the tests as you progressed? We've been told All tests so far have been clear or normal so I feel like there's nothing she can tell me is "wrong"?
I have no idea what she is going to suggest because everything has come back as normal... I hope she has something up her sleeve!

I know how it feels to be 'normal' and still not preg. Kinda feels like I'm wasting the doctors time. I think if we had a diagnosis and started treatment I'd feel better as now it feels like we don't deserve treatment. Like someone who has something genuinely wrong why they can't get preg should be having our funding not us.

It's so frustrating vic. What she does have is my cycle history showing ovulation is likely only 9ish days before period and also my 21 day bloods which are borderline-ish, so backing this up. I wonder if she might suggest clomid to bring ovulation forward or progesterone to try and extend luteal phase?

linds we were told as we went along but it was first appt with consultant rather than Sr nurse and first appointment everything discussed on a whole. he looked at my bloods/hsg/us results and dhs 2 sa's. said we have male factor infertility because of morphology. motility not great either but OK. wasn't news to us at this point. told us icsi rather than ivf because of issues and dh to take vit c as helps good sperm beat bad. also told us natural conception not impossible. appointment after that was with Sr nurse again. showed us a presentation of the ivf/icsi process and gave us our start dates, scan dates and ec week. that was early October. I go on bcp at end of this cycle and start injections 28th December. oh and we saw consultant mud July just to give you an idea if times. I have another appt around week before Xmas to learn how to inject

lil, remind me again of your dh's morphology %s? Ours were 2% in first sa and 5% in 2nd.

3% and 4% morph and 5% and 20% motility

Hmmm so your morph has been declared crap and ours hasn't? How does that work?!

really?!! I thought morph needed to be15%. surely if morph is that low iui isn't the right treatment? can you get another sa done? or get transferred to a different clinic. so angry that you keep getting messed around. we've been told icsi is best treatment.

We have normal motility tho, around the 50% mark. The first nurse we saw said that they like to see around 15% morph but over 4% had been declared in normal range from a study of men who had got women preg naturally. Neither her or the doc seemed concerned that our first sa was only 2%!

Dh has been on steroids and antibiotics for his chest lately and they've doubled the dose of his asthma meds. I'm not feeling too hopeful about how this will affect his swimmers over the next few months :-( might be putting any treatment on hold even further. Urgh turn the dreaded 35 in April. Was 32 when we started ttc, seems like a lifetime ago.

its shit when these milestones are approaching isn't it. not quite the same but I'm 30 in April. thought I'd have 2 kids by the time I was 30, or at least be pg with second. it's 2 years today since we first had unprotected sex in an attempt to make this elusive bloody child!

32 seemed young enough still, 35 is THE dreaded age when it all goes downhill and the risks increase. Our 2 year 'anniversary' doesn't start til Dec 2nd when I had my implant taken out. It was the day after I'd come back from my last childless holiday, ha! Had 4 of those since! That first cycle was exactly 28days and left me thinking I'd caught first month as new years eve I felt nauseous, massively sore boobs and couldn't touch my glass of wine. Apparently fake preg symptoms are common coming off the implant, how cruel!

I had 2 31 day cycles after stopping pill. then I was 2 weeks late in the first cycle we tried. many bfns later AF finally arrived. I was so excited thinking it had happened straight away when I was late. and as if af showing wasn't bad enough that was when she stuck around for 7weeks.

think I've had 5 holidays post my last childless holiday lol.