The Berries: The one where The Berries cease to exist after a spate of waxy knicks and a'hem seepage (thread 20)

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The smallprint –
Berries have a strict entrance criteria (TTC #1, over 30, TTC for 12+months, NO instadiffers, must have a special pot and def no mention of baby dust or baby dancing UGH !!! Ooooh aren’t we strict!

Oh, and barking good work on managing to avoid the differs. Will be sending you major Berrie vibes come Monday!

Bushy, so sorry you're going through this. It really is a head fuck. It's so hard, don't give yourself a hard time. Unfortunately, given what we've had to go through to get to this point there is no way we won't worry. Big hug.

Barking, the wedding sounded awful!! Well done for getting through it!!

Funky, I think I will try and book an early scan. We had decided to try and hold out to 8 weeks as the last time we had a scan at 6 weeks everything looked ok but it stopped soon after so 6 weeks wouldn't really give any reassurance. However having said that I think I will go for a 6 week scan because I'm going away for work for 2 weeks just after, and kind of want to know before I go. Unfortunately nothing will reassure me til the 8 week scan. We had blood tests last time, the preganancy tests we're getting darker, even the CBdigi went up from 1-2weeks to 3+ weeks in a timely fashion. I think I just need to sit on my hands and wait now. I even think I'm going to try to not do anymore pregnancy tests also. Sigh.

Morning all. Sorry I was totally AWOL yesterday. Had a few drinks in the afternoon sunshine and it knocked me out for the rest of the day. Spent the evening snoozing on the sofa!
Bushy so sorry you're having a worrying time, hope you're hanging in in there
Barking glad to hear its all systems go for you. Exciting times!
With regards to Chloe's IVF drugs being expensive, at the private clinic we are going with the drugs are £800-£1300 depending on the dosage required (and we are probably going to need a stronger dose given that my AMH is on the low side). Is this not the same everywhere or has no one on here been private? I've read about getting the drugs much more cheaply (possibly from Asda??) so this is something I need to look in to. Do you berries who are having NHS treatment have to pay anything towards your drugs? Prescriptions here are free so I'm guessing that won't be an issue if/when we come to get NHS treatment.
Beaky wedding plans are going ok. Not done anything for a while as I've been so busy with work.1 more week til half term though so hoping to get a few things sorted then.
Bunny the hen is next weekend. All I know is that I'm in Bristol for 2 nights and there are 'activities' planned
Hoping today is going to be equally as gorgeous weather wise as yesterday was. Off for an early morning walk with DP then a picnic in the park. Have a lovely Sunday all x

happy I had to pay for my injections, 3 prescription charges for the two gonal f (I ran out when I had to keep stabbing) and ovitrelle. I saw the price list for those paying privately and it was a lot more.

I'm still feeling nauseous. This has been since Thursday night now. I put it down to dodgy chicken as we'd just eaten out, but it's now Sunday! If I'd had treatment I would be symptom spotting.... Don't think it's a side effect as nausea isn't listed, and it only started after stab 9 anyway.

Just popping in to say woooooo fr winohh! And fx for a super sticky one this time chick, I totally understand how you must feel - MC ruins everything.

Also (((hugs))) for bushy - hope the headfuck eases soon. When do you see clinic?

Finally yaaaaay for barkings super folly! Good luck for tomorrow, will be thinking of you.

Sorry for lack of proper catch up, the sun, sea, cocktails and hammam are calling!

Xxxxx to all my lovely Berries

Morning all. Thank you for your advice and hand holding. It made a lot of sense to me. I have had more spotting and period type cramps but test no 2 came up positive so I think I just need to let it go. I think going through Ivf makes you hyper aware of any changes and also of the fact that you worked so hard to get here that you don't want to mess it up. Oh to be one of these instadiffers blissfully unaware of all this shit and probably merrily continuing to exercise however you did before and not overthink everything, eat stuff, even have a drink because you've not realised you're pg yet and then to be so secure in it all that you're already onto decorating the nursery plans!! I think I messed myself up googling: is it safe to.... And I now need to stop doing that and get on with stuff, after all as long as I'm avoiding the biggies then the next things is to try not to stress and 'keep calm and carry on'. Anyway I don't want to keep hogging thread space. winooh I know how you feel. Scans will be good idea and yes just try to be normal...easier said than done.

barking grrr these bloody people that look for a 'grown up' house and then instadiff, all seems to work out so perfectly for them doesn't it!! Good luck for next week. Nausea may not be one of the side effects but I think it can happen, I remember feeling like I was going to be sick one night mid treatment, really watery mouth etc, ran to the loo but nothing came of it.

On prescriptions etc for Ivf we haven't had to pay any but did opt for egg freezing which was charged, haven't had the bill yet.

Oh happy afternoon drinking in the sun sounds lovely!! I sound like such a lush. Yay for hen night, I had mine in Bristol, we had the best time! Apparently there's a cider boat that sells 40 different ciders. What a lovely day you have planned with your dp. Mine is all DIY, gardening and then I can wheedle my dh out for a bike ride. We're going camping next w/e with bike riding friends so thought I'd better get a practice in.

Looking forward to all these weddings in berry Central, how exciting. I love a good wedding! You're getting me v curious about this honestly healthy book too.

This day is not going well. OH starts stomping around the house because he can't find various items. Cue a rather stupid row, followed by this gem: "no wonder you can't get pregnant because you're so fucking stressed all the time". Thanks for that. Feeling reeeally good now.

*bushy my dear, hang on in there. It must be impossible not to worry but keep your chin up xx

just a quickie to say well.done.for being being so brave bushy. I'm.sure it.doesn't feel.that way but this.whole process takes so much courage.

Tiger nightmare. poor you

barking, fab news on tomorrow,s activities. so exciting!

hi everyone else! off to garden for the day

In the garden trying failing to get these bloody writing assessments finished.

tiger that was obviously said in the heat of the moment and I can't imagine he means it but it was a totally cruel and unforgiveable comment. I really hope he apologises when he calms down, that's a massive step over the line.

tiger, not to overstep my boundaries, but that was a mean comment for him to say. I'm sure he will apologize, but it might be worth having a conversation to understand the feeling behind it? Seems like he thinks TTC is impacting you quite negatively. Maybe it's worth hashing it out with him?

I'm currently in the throes of massive PMS

To be fair, he has already ap

Oops....

...apologised. I'm not sure I'm quite over it yet but feeling better.

Enjoy the sunshine everyone!! X

Ahh tiger he will have probably realised the minute it was out of his mouth. It's no excuse though but I'm sure he won't have meant it.

Bushy I'm with Nolly you are doing amazingly so far.

Hope everyone else is enjoying the sun today!

Barking don't work to hard.. Big day ahead tomorrow

Also, HB are you having ET today or has my memory just gone totally?! Apologies if so!

tiger arguments often start like that in our house too! it's like my dh expects me to have echo location on all his shit!! Like the others said he probably didn't mean it and soon as it was out if his mouth regretted it. Hope you make up properly soon.

Trying to gear myself up to garden to take mind off spotting saga, now looks pinky red...off to have another check.

bushy Sorry you´re going through such a worrying time. Just try to take it easy and look after yourself.

barking Good luck for tomorrow, hope everything goes well!

I have my first stim jab tonight. Have been trying not to think about it, but have been secretly counting down the hours as I want to first one over with as I think the anticipation is probably worse than the reality!

Woohoo! Writing assessments marked! Except I only have 29. There is one missing. .

chloe the anticipation of the first jab is definitely the worst. I started by using an ice pack to numb the area but didn't bother by the last few. I found it a lot easier when I was able to lie down and let gravity help, rather than pushing in.

chloe you'll be fine but yes it's def the anticipation worst. I really, really didn't want to do it and you've got to steel yourself but once you've done it it's fine. Just let yourself have some quiet time and a surface where you can lay out all your bits. Good luck!

barking hate it when that happens! I've got a bit of planning to do but avoiding it. Chilling out on sofa as bleeding has got worse, it's red now but tmi alert, a little stringy but not clots. Trying to take it easy as thinking that might help. Sore bits and pains. Not sure what to make of it.

Chloe the anticipation is definitely worse and its worth it.

Tiger hope you are ok after this morning.

Beaky I'm halfway through my 2ww

bushy it's pointless saying don't worry, but could you call either the clinic or epu in the morning? They might be able to put your mind at rest a little.

bushy am keeping everything crossed for you love, hopefully it's nothing at all to worry about. You keep your feet up and let your dh run around sfter you for a bit. Xx

virtual hug for you bushy.

I'm late to this drinking during tww question but as you all sound so virtuous I thought id add my own tactics which are drink as usual.I gave up for ages but it was a.depressing reminder. so normally would have a couple.of.glasses a few.times a week. no bfp yet but I've done a lot of reading and I can't find any studies which suggest alcohol affects conception. SO THERE. happy to be corrected though and I know.it's not.the guidance
but having worked for nice I take their guidelines with an.enormous serving of any available condiment.

Oh and bushy this is my normally elegant dog roaching, just for you xx