The Berries: Projecting the sausage signal and chasing rainbows whilst chanting FUFC in the hunt for that elusive BFP (thread 19)

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Berries have a strict entrance criteria (TTC #1, over 30, TTC for 12+months, NO instadiffers, must have a special pot and def no mention of baby dust or baby dancing UGH !!! Ooooh aren’t we strict!

Argh too much excitement and clumsy typing!! What I was saying was, just dropping in for a sneaky peak at mn on the hotel wifi and saw otters news! Congrats my dear - exciting and nerve wracking all at once but amazing nonetheless x

Hope everyone else is well, holiday is lovely and very relaxing. Will catch up properly soon

OMG Otters the first time for ages I haven't checked the thread all day and this happens! A huge congratulations!! Let the new wave of BFPs commence (and please, please let me be part of it. As much as I love Berry HQ, I've been here long enough!!)
Welcome Wild

RP there must be something in the air as I've been experiencing weird AF goings on too . Spotted all day yesterday and it was only cd24. Never usually get spotting. Full flow from this morning (if a touch lighter than usual) meaning this was a bloody 24 day cycle, my shortest ever. Am usually 25/26 days regular as clockwork - apart from last cycle which was 28 days - my longest ever . Am convinced these Zita West supplements are messing me up. Going to give them one more month just to see what happens, then going back to plain old Folic Acid.

How exciting otters! I can def see the line. Congrats! Keeping everything crossed for you!

Sorry AF arrived Happy sounds a bit odd though especially with spotting if you don't usually get that.

Tiger glad you are having a lovely hol so far!

I wish I had read this article last week when I was having a wobbly

Ahh, otters that's def a line! Congrats!! We've really needed a Berrie bfp recently - been such a dry patch!

happy interested to know what happens with your next cycle and if it is the new supplements. And don't worry, I'll be here in Berrie hq, waiting for a miracle and welcoming newbies as they pass through.

rp sorry af arrived. Grrr. How did your appraisal go?

win Thailand = divine! Lucky you! Part of me is wondering whether we should have used our wedding money to jack our jobs in and go travelling for a while.

How's everyone else doing?

because how depressing that link is. I really, really hope I can be that graceful and centered if I come to the point of giving ttc up.

Yay Otters congratulations!

Welcome Wildflower you are definitely in the right place and the berries are amazing.

All ok here, plodding on with both injections; starting to bruise and itch at the sites but it is worth it. First scan on Wednesday so will see how things are going.

Welcome wildflower - you do realise you are now officially a Berry good luck charm? You join, otters gets a BFP!
otters lets us know how DP reacts! I so so so so so so SO hope this is your keeper.

happy why do our bodies love to tease us so? Give that womble a stern talking to, bloody nuisance!

Shag starts tonight, cd8. If last month is anything to go by I could OV on weds, or maybe this weekend, or maybe the end of next week. Lets get this show on the bed road!

Yay! to being a good luck charm. Let's hope it spreads all around.

That will be the first time I've been a lucky charm, that's for sure.

Thank you so much for all the love and support fellow Berries. DP was, um, stunned into silence! He has proceeded to drink four beers and is very happy about it all now . He's been mostly gauging my reaction to it I think, as he knows how worried I am, but he's being lovely and cracking jokes about how rubbish my hen night will be and how I'll not be able to drink the many many bottles of wine we've bought for the wedding at the end of July.

I'm trying to stay positive and I think I'm going to try and ignore the bfp as much as I can until after AF is due at least (like that will happen). I'm showing 'not pregnant' on the digis so it still feels unreal iyswim.

Sorry for the rambling, I'm still in a state of some shock. I really so appreciate the good vibes from everyone and I really, truly hope this is the start of cluster-diffs here in Berrie HQ!

Yay Otters - let the cluster diff commence!

Welcome Wildflower, always nice to have some newbies although sorry that you've found yourself in this frustrating situation. Why are you not entitled to NHS IVF? Is it your age? I managed to sneak in my one and only allowed cycle just before I turned 40.

How frustrating with the short cycles Happy. Hope your next one is a bit longer.

Was it EC today Bushy, how did you get on?

Keep going HB, you're in the homeward strait as far as the injections are concerned.

Hello everyone else!

otters absolutely everything crossed for you .

because that article is so utterly depressing! 10 years, 3 x iui + 2 x ivf and still nothing and no explanation . She basically tried everything I've tried...

But, trying to put that totally out of my mind, I have my ACU appointment tomorrow to talk about IUI - full berry vibes needed please, I really want to start next cycle!!!!!! (Due anytime from Thursday)

Welcome, Wildflower and the test is looking good, Otters - crossing fingers for you.

Because, thank you for posting that link. I've got to admit that some of it really resonated with me, which is kind of frightening and overwhelming but also gives me a bit of hope that somehow this whole thing is survivable.

The adoption issue that she discussed is the one that scares me most. I've always reassured myself that a family is possible one way or another but it seems that DH is more in line with the thinking in that article. I can't believe I'm only just realising that now though. Did we talk about it as an option ever, before all this TTC? Maybe, but it was such a distant possibility I never took it seriously.

bushy how was the theatre and more importantly, how are the eggs??

because well, that article had me welling up like a total loser. I echo boodles thoughts, although I am obviously of course definitely 100% not a shadow of a doubt going to get my baby.

barking you're never going to get any sleep at this rate!! I hope the appointment goes well and actually gets the ball rolling.

I think Bushy's EC is tomorrow, good luck, hope you've enjoyed your needle-free day!

Oooh otters !!! I thought you'd gone a bit quiet!! Lol to your dhtb's reaction, I think that's what mine would do too!!

because really interesting link. Lots of truths in her writing. I didn't find it depressing barking, I think it showed that you can turn your mindset around and find a new type of life. For a more upbeat ending, read the link at the bottom to her friend's story, Monica I think, another one with lots of berry things to identify with. How was your first day back? I went to oz a few years back, we came back on the Saturday and went to work Monday. I was buoyed up by adrenaline and got through the day well but then I had a staff meeting after work.. I needed matchsticks to keep my eyes open!!!

Ec is tomorrow! Got my bag sorted, changed the bed sheets and just going to take off my beloved toe nail varnish and have a shower and try to chill!! Not really sure what to expect. I tell you it is nice not to have to sniff or inject anything today! I am quite bloated and have chuffed on a bit of weight, 6lbs I think!! Although that might have more to do with mini eggs than Ivf. Had the mother of all rows over washing up last night with dh, think pyscho Ivf woman raised her ugly head!

Because thanks for that link, it's actually really nice to read once you get past the sheer horror sadness of it. I think I needed a reminder about being responsible for my own happiness. It ties in well in terms of work at the moment in that respect. So sad for that lady though, 10 years would have anyone drained. I think I would probably give up before that.

Boodle we had the adoption conversation and dh has always been very pro, but actually I don't think that I am. Of course it may be different at the end of this all.

Wildflower hooray for a good luck charm! Fx for a massive cluster diff!

Barking hope the appointment tomorrow goes well, and you can start this cycle!

Bushy wot the others said, did you have ec today?

Sorry Bushy x post! Good luck for EC tomorrow

Cheers bezzers! Def liking the needle free day lady! Love all the lovely relaxing things you've got planned in around your Ivf.

Raindrops theatre was good thanks. winohh Thailand sounds gooood! wildflower hello and welcome! lovely ladies on here!!

Did anyone see that programme on itv-'wanted a family of my own'? It was about adoption, hosted by Nicky Campbell, who himself was adopted. I've only watched a bit of it but it was very interesting, especially the polish/ english couple wanting to adopt. Lovely couple, had had 2 mmcs and expressed what a surprise struggling with ttc was to them.

Sorry I am a day ahead of myself Bushy. Everything crossed for some fabulous eggies tomorrow. Is it IVF or ICSI? Hope your DH has been "limbering up" appropriately!

bushy good luck tomorrow. How all goes well. Sending Berrie vibes you way. And to you too barking

Gillster we are not entitled to any IVF on the national health as DH already has three DS from his first marriage. They are all big and grown up now; youngest is at university and the other two have graduated and are starting out on working lives God help them.

Not sure I agree with the NHS logic of 'no IVF if your partner already has DCs', but them's the rules round here.

I rather enjoyed Because's link, it was nice to see that she had somehow made peace with her situation.

Bushy, I watched the adoption documentary and I will be watching again this week I hope. I found it really quite uplifting in a way and made me feel a lot more peaceful inside. But I still have to deal with DH really not thinking this way at the moment.

Beaky - perhaps your bloke can have words with mine and I'll have words with you!