Feather, great news on the new dress. Especially if the shoes with it are amazing. I love shoes.
beaky, well done for sticking with the diet and Parsley, don't beat yourself up about enjoying the cheeseboard. Am glad it was worth it.
I am going to say goodbye lovely ladies. It was great to have found you but unfortunately, I think I'll have to go. After a very long conversation with DP last night he insisted on looking at my MN conversations. I said no and didn't want to tell him my username but he just went ahead and worked it out anyway. So, I feel like a, I have betrayed your trust and b, this is no longer my 'safe' place. I have thought about a name change but he has already said that I have to make it less obvious to him otherwise he'll just google anyway when there is a moment when he is upset with me/ angry. He didn't get that this is not me keeping secrets from him - which is what he was afraid of - but me having a kind of diary which answers back and gives me support. I don't want to go through the whole name change thing, finding something witty that makes me sound as if I had the slightest idea of British humour (or any kind of humour for that matter) and then always feeling that I have to watch very carefully what I say so as not only not identify myself to people who might know me a little but also to him who knows me quite well. I think it is perfectly acceptable that this thread was my space which I didn't have to share with him. He thinks I am overthinking anyway and doesn't want to enable that by talking to me about all my crazy thoughts/ anxieties about the ttc thing. But I just feel I cannot have this space any more. He begrudgingly accepted that it wasn't right to work out my username and promised he wouldn't read what I write again but I know him well enough to know that it would be too tempting for him.
Anyway, just to finish off while we did have the first FC appointment today, we are not much wiser. There was a mishap and we couldn't get his SA results. I was very upset about this in the morning and he felt we argued and therefore is now extra-stressed about not having done all the work he meant to do and just generally miserable. Me trying to appease him by saying I promise to be care free the rest of the month when we are on holiday because there is nothing we can do anyway doesn't seem to appease him but simply make him more frustrated because he feels that's what he's been saying all along and I have made things worse by being stressed 
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The nurse was nice but said my ovaries look 'slightly polycystic', my other doctor who has looked at my ovaries and womb a lot of times never mentioned this. So, anyway, until we have his results we do not know anything new. They took my blood for the AMH test so I guess some things have been done but not the game-changing event that I had hoped it would be. I had a lot riding on this so the lack of SA results hit me really hard.
Anyway, sorry about the me-me-me update/ goodbye. I will keep up to date with your progress and I do really wish you all sticky BFPs asap. Thanks for your support so far. It has meant a lot.
PS: Feather, the biscuits were great. Thanks for the recipe Otters 
xxx