Come one, Come All! Join the BESH on the Carousel of Cuntishness! Prize for spinning off the side is of course your very own BAYBEE! Pay your fare, pick a horse and hold on tight!

[MissHobart]

Which horse did you choose? Hope it's a good one as it might be a bumpy ride!

Are you BESH enough? Dig out the infamous BESHtionnaire and proffer your soul for judgement! No tweeness or baby dust allowed, If you're easily offended fuck off!

M

MissH that was me last night too. Got through a fair number of tissues during that hour I can tell you!

I can't watch OBEM anymore. I'd watch it if I was diffed but I know it would make me miserable. Speaking of miserable, I had to spend all afternoon in a children's centre with dozens of babies and mums. It was for work...I sometimes have to attend events like this for my job. I really have to build myself up for it and somehow I just get though it (such a pro) but then I always feel so low afterwards. Probably because someone inevitably asks me: "do you have kids?" Then, unfuckingbelievably but often: "do you want kids?" And then what do you say? I just shrug and say "maybe one day" but I really want to tell people that they really ought consider how those questions could make someone fell before they ask.

My boobs are still THROBBING! That's now 5 days of solid boob ache. I don't have any other symptoms now though. 11dpo....I'm not testing!

Oh and Kylie. I love her (see my bestionnaire) she's always been my girlcrush. My heart breaks for her cos she must feel just like all the rest of us (despite her fame and wealth) but single at 45. How? Just how??? She's been through a lot so she's obviously made of strong stiff, that wee minogue! Do not listen to that song for her future baby or you will cry.

Oh lol- strong stiff!
STUFF

at strong stiff!

Instadiffers, insensitive bastards and wanker bosses can get tae fuck. Someone asked me the other day: "have you thought about having kids?" I resisted the urge to grab them by the hair and scream "only every minute of every day for the last 3 years you numbskull" and restrained myself to a simple "yes we have" followed up with my blank "I don't want to talk about this" face. Gnnnnhhhh.

I'm just watching OBEM on 4 OD. Given current circs it is both highly emotional and terrifying. This one was so difficult to get in there, it's just going to pop right out, right? RIGHT?

bugs I'm glad the pup isn't too poorly.

Dish I saw that fred. Bloody annoying.

I had the insensitive instadiffer at a recent conference (someone I used to work with). I asked after her family. She asked me if I had any kids (no) and then said she supposed I was just focussing on my career (I muttered "sort of" and wandered off). I was still waiting for the 12 week scan at the time.

Now I know that NGECFAWT so I'm only going to whisper this Euro. hypnobirthing?? My friend did it for both her babies births and said there was barely any pain, it was a wonderful experience and she felt completely in control the whole way through. Just throwing it out there...

Well, bugs, from all you've said here and elsewhere, I do think he's an enormous NOB. So sorry you've got to deal with him.

I am not watching anything to do with births...

Sorry about the stupid instadiffer comments. I want to bash their heads together. So sorry about needing to go to children's play centres for work as well, fab.

Missed out a K... But do take care of yourself, it sounds like anxiety is returning, bugsy. It's not worth it!

Bugs he is a total tosspot but unfortunately there are many out there like him. My ex boss - famed internationally for his customer service and inspirational to many quite often didn't say good morning, goodbye, please or thank you and was astounding in his un-political correctness. It certainly didnt stop him!

So as a member of his team you then need to make a call - can you get past it or not? If not, can you move internally? Is there something you can raise with HR?

The Grub, as it shall henceforth be known, is draining me. I was in bed by 9:30 last night - only to be woken up by Mr C coming in at half ten and turning on his sodding 60W bedside lamp. He turned it off again (I protested with pathetic groaning noises), but then I was awake and lay there for an hour before giving up and getting up for a cup of tea.

Breasts are a lot more sore this morning. I'm starting to feel cautiously hopeful.

I hope it's OK to stick around on this fred. I know there are a few other diffed BESH on here, so guessing it's not frowned upon? I've only just joined and I rather like you

lugs, I think people skills are hugely underestimated. Men in particular seem to think of them as optional extras in someone they're promoting, like they're less important than 'hard' skills.

This has created a tranche of shit managers who are great at their technical job but have no idea how to motivate people, spot and resolve problems, deal with conflict, or communicate constructively. The world is full of them, sadly. Then everyone stands around wondering why there's no team spirit and the staff turnover is so high.

dishy stay as long as you like over here. When you are ready there is a PESH thread over in antenatal.

Bugs sorry your boss is still causing grief! he really needs a kick up the backside doesn't he. As Fab said, is there no chance you can ask for an internal move even if just for a few months? They obviously value you because they've done a lot to support you these last few months.

Yep Dish please stay and keep us company.

Cheers hags

Besides which I think there are more diffed than no diffed on this fred! I'm good with that tho - once an ESH always an ESH right?

Absolutely, fab (unintended pun)

Plus I like the whole 'mixed peer group' thing. I was in an ante-natal group fred with the last pregnancy, and if anything goes wrong that's it, you just have to float off like the Ghost of Pregnancy Past. Plus by having an MC you shit up absolutely everyone on the fred who's at your stage, or has had the same symptoms or bleeding as you.

Suspect the PESH thread would be different, obvs, because its inhabitants will be a bit older & wiser than the average ante-nats. But I think I'd rather be here at the moment Maybe I'll dip my toe in once (if) I know it's stuck.

Having a really shit day Probably brought on by watching fucking obem last night, saw my best friend last weekend who has zero understanding and dropped a non bridesmaid bombshell on me, it would have been my first and last chance and we'd always promised to be each other's, feel very unimportant. Going to see instadiffer tonight and her five month bump, I "should" be 8 months gone. Is it bad that I hope she has an ugly baby? I keep getting irrationally annoyed at five month gone team-mate as she's pulled back massively on work already leaving the rest of us to cover. I know it's irrational as I had slow easy return to work after my breakdown and needed it so I know she needs it too. I keep thinking about if it does happen for me I'll be keeping shtum for fear of miscarriage so will be working just as hard and still covering for her till 20 odd weeks. It's all so unfair. I can feel the tears and depression closing in.

Not for ages, bugs. Scan on 6 March to check the downregging has worked, then hopefully on to the oestrogen. It's HRT rather than stims this time so tablets rather than injections

miss h sorry about the shit day. It's so fucking awful sometimes, isn't it

dishy I say stick around too!

I'm having wine this evening - anyone fancy a glass?

Tempting, fab. But I've just developed a poorly stomach so not the wisest idea

I have let the cats into our room so I can be close to them and the loo