All that she wants is A baby! The Berries searching for the 'sign' but never symptom spotting (honest), possibly using a vagina jack and trying to get a FUFC before boarding the IVF train (thread 18)

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The smallprint –
Berries have a strict entrance criteria (TTC #1, over 30, TTC for 12+months, NO instadiffers, must have a special pot and def no mention of baby dust or baby dancing UGH !!! Ooooh aren’t we strict!

because 'wahmbulance'!!! Brilliant. Hang in there. This whole ttc is bloody tough but the odds are you will get there.

I hope someone is writing all these phrases down btw!

Aw because I have days like that too. Don't give up!

rp whinge away! Sorry you've had a crappy day. Wish cleaning made me feel better but unfortunately it is usually only wine and chocolate that does the trick! Typical of GPs not to explain things clearly.

Lol to the out of control boobs gil!

parsley glad I'm not the only one who likes to have a strategy! SMEP seemed like one hell of an effort but we also felt like we'd given it our best shot!

Feeling headachey so am going to have a cocoa and go to bed early - no action here in the slightest!

Good news on the hsg feather. It is scary but it is also another step in the right direction!

Woah gil no fair, I didn't get boobs from the drugs. I'm still convinced mine will stay flat as a pancake

feather good luck for the HSG. I know how you feel about ivf feeling final and scary, i felt similar but I also felt relieved that somebody else had control, like the pressure was off us at last.

Sorry for not namechecking but Wishing luck to all whatever stage you are at

Wahmbulance! Love it, that's a keeper because! I echo feather but you're allowed a little bit of glum, it has to be vented from time to time. Same for you beaky - Chin up, tits out etc. etc.

rp I hope the cleaning did the trick and you're feeling better. If not let me know, I've got a lovely big patio door that could do with a good old scrub!

tiger oh yes! I love a strategy. Unfortunately however we seem to pick the wrong damn one each month! I really miss sexy sex, maybe I'll try a bit of that this month. Does anyone else remember the innocent days sexy sex? Ah, memories!

feather great news on the HSG! I can imagine it must be daunting too with the result determining where you go next. Fx crossed for you that it all goes well.

Hugs to you Feather. Do you get to know the result of the HSG straight away? Would you prefer to give clomid another go or move to IVF? At least you can start to move forward again now.

Shoving myself on...better late than never...

Kuma - 39, TTC 15 cycles, high FSH, low AMH, low ovarian reserve, approved for 1 NHS natural cycle IVF, first appointment beginning of April.
Winohhh, 37, ttc since march 2013, high fsh, low amh, mmc feb 2014, waiting for my cycle to return before trying again.
Beaky, 34 ttc #1 since august 12. So far tests are normal but scans and HSG lined up in next few weeks (eek).
Feather, 35 (sob), ttc since September 12. One fallopian tube, six rounds of clomid = ectopic in November 13. Waiting for next af to book hsg and work out next steps.
barkingtreefrog 34, ttc 2 years 2 months. 8 day LP. Clomid bfp ended in mc Sept 2013, cycles AWOL for 4 months afterwards, now back but not settled yet. FC appointment in March to hopefully be referred for IVF.
Tigerdog, 33, ttc since January 2013. Hsg booked for 6 March so having to take current cycle off ttc. All tests normal so far.
Gillster, 39 (just), just had one round of short protocol IVF. Currently have 6 one cell embies sitting in the freezer whilst I await a polyp removal in 2-3 months. Have appointment with FC on 2 April to discuss how the frozen cycles are going to work.
Funky, 31 (for a few more weeks). TTC since Nov 2012. MC July 2013 and Dec 2013. Thrombophilia (apparently). DH lowish morphology.
Parsley, 32, ttc since Mar 2012. MMC Nov 2013. Me and MrP both 'normal'
bluebirdy 30, TTC 2.5 years in all, starting IVF (ICSI) in May/June, deludingly hoping for a FUFC before then!
Happylass 36, cycle 15, awaiting next appointment at FC to hopefully formulate some type of action plan.
BecauseISaidS0 40, TTC since May 2013, high FSH, March appointment with endocrinologist, weekly acupuncture.
Boodle, 31, TTC for 32...33 cycles? Got pissed off when it passed my age. Downregging for 1st IVF attempt. Hopefully stimming shortly with an anticipated egg collection mid March.

And I'm too lazy to go through bolding it all! Sorry!

Thanks all. Buffed a handle on the kitchen cupboards for half an hour with Barkeepers Friend and it is lovely and shiny now. I feel validated.

How is married life Barking?

Feather, hand hold.... But at least you will know. Gulp!

Bunny how is everything? How far are you now?

Not sure I can catch up with the thread, but in answer to winohhh's question, I bought 200mg capsules CoEnzQ10 from Holland and Barratt not cheap though at £32.99 for 30, but they are doing buy one get one half price at the moment. I spent about 75 quid on supplements for DH and I yesterday which will only last about 1 cycle I feel like a pharmacy, I even take 2 tablets in with my packed lunch.... sigh.

parsley my DH has suggested every other day in pursuit of an FUFC-diff prior to our 2nd April IVF appointment, sounds a bit like hard work . I know nothing about SMEP, although I recall becauseI talking about it.

feather glad to hear you've got a forthcoming appointment, it's nice when you don't have to hang around!

becauseI (touched typed that as beaches first time around!) Chin up, tomorrow is another day

I know it's scary feather, but good news on getting the hsg done this cycle.

parsley I'm aiming for sexy sex every day this week! We're on half term so if it can't happen now it's not going to! Lurgy last week meant a poor effort, but we've managed Saturday, Sunday, Monday and I got + opk tonight so we'll be keeping it up until at least Thursday! Looks like another cycle where I'm going to ov before cd19 again. Fingers crossed I don't start spotting on cd23 this time.

Does anyone ever actually manage to dtd during what could potentially be shag week without thinking afterwards 'I wonder if that was it, that was the one that will work?'

Hi berries, a little question.. Do any of you find that you get awful mood swings during the second half of your cycle? I always get this so it's not unusual for me but it's usually that I want to burst into tears. At the min it's little bursts of being quite angry!! (Goes to a quiet place so as not to get so angry I end up getting sacked!)
Thanks

Beaky I used to feel just like until about a year ago so know what you mean. I was pretty hideous to live with! Am guessing it could be the shift to progesterone production causing it. This cycle I became hideous and angry one minute, crying the next on CD2.

DTD at this point in the game is so mu ch of a chore, think DH and I will just go for sexy sex and not watch the calendar this month (is that bad of me?)

Glad you've got your appointment sorted Feather

Am on my phone so will try and add stats another day.

Sorry, forgot to say that it depends on how late in the cycle the mood swings start as to if it's prog or something else....

RP thanks for asking, I'm sick as a dog but can't complain as I know you all can't wait to be vomming with me I'm 9 weeks Thursday, scan seems ages away, still scared there will be nothing there but I think it's natural to worry.

P.s. what is sexy sex? This is a strange concept!

Bunny do you mean you're not blooming gracefully, with the days slipping by like pearls on a necklace? make sure you let us know about your scan!!

Beaky do you normally feel like that in the 2ww or is it different?

at sexy sex. Our last bout ended with DH going "oooh I'd better take antibiotics for the prostatitis.... And ibuprofen for my back...." While I lay on my back with my legs in the air and all my tummy fat on display.

It was just like a Georgette Heyer novel

rp whaddya mean? That sounds super sexy! .

barking you've got some stellar effort lined up there, but then you ruddy newlyweds always do! I don't so much lie there wondering if that was the one as talk to the swimmers and give them words of encouragement. Sort of like a sex equivalent of Murray Walker commentating F1. I only do this when MrP is safely in the bathroom emptying his penis beaker

beaky I only notice that around 1 week post ov, so classic pmt really. Anger definitely features highly!!!

Less newlywed, more half term so actually have some time.... Enthusiastically dtd this morning pulled the boat out as it were then ended up going back to bed for two hours to recover. Don't think I've quite got rid of this lurgy yet...

RP and Parsley - post-sex routines are/were the worst bit about TTC for me! Never pep talked the swimmers...maybe that's where I went wrong!

Thanks guys. It's usually mood swings from happy to sad, but this cycle is pure rage then it passes. I can't bear the thought of this happening indefinitely.

I also just picked up my progesterone blood test results tonight, not too sure what they mean but my day 14 was 11 something and day 21 was 24 something, which I think is really low- by the clear blue ov sticks I should've ov'd on day 12. So I'm now thinking I didn't actually ov, although dr Google is not the best person to ask

Hello everyone, I'm a bit like beaky, in fact I have been lurking with intent for some time, reading these pages and loving and identifying with so much of what you lovely ladies have been saying. I was a bit unsure whether to post or not but as me and dh are keeping things between us re our next steps on the fertility roller coaster I could really do with being able to share the ups and downs and darn funny observations that only the terminally ttc will identify with.

Our story is ttc over 2 years, started bright eyed and bushy tailed back in dec 2011... God that sounds so long ago!! We've had tests and outcomes not great, my amh is low ( one category off the abysmal category), dh's sperm count is low, with low motility but count has improved in more recent. I had a laparoscopy in the autumn which revealed wide tubes, not good for sucking up eggs so along with low egg reserve have been referred for Ivf,which we're bricking ourselves about. We have our first planning meeting on Thursday. I am a teacher so had to tell head but just said it was a medical appt following up my op and mentioned lady's problems as I didn't want school knowing as I feel they will be reading everything into every mood swing I show. Good old lady's problems, stops a man asking questions quicker than anything!! Can I ask the other Ivfers what you told your work?

I hope you don't mind me joining. I don't know my way round the site yet but will try to put in a smiley now (smile) hope it worked!! Parsley- you really made me laugh with your Murray walker impression! Way to go barking on the dtd and congratulations on your wedding too.

BeakyI have found I can get quite down and tearful but also snappy and irritable. I do get rage sometimes but don't think that's ttc related. More that I'm quite a calm, level person most of the time and then it bubbles over!! Just looked at the entry criteria and I have a bonne mamman jar but it's gathering dust as losing interest!!

Hello Beard / Bushy! (I'd quite like to call you Bushy but is that a bit inappropriate?)

As you might know, given your self-confessed lurking , I'm a teacher and I'm in the midst of an IVF cycle. However, I've been pretty upfront with the senior management team at work and they all know I've been trying for a loooooonnnnng time and that I'm now having IVF treatment. It's been great that they know, but then I am quite close with them; more so than the rest of the staff. They look out for me a lot and I've been told to take whatever leave is needed and that they trust me to make the right calls.

This probably helps you not a jot, but I don't regret telling.

Hello bushy (I've randomly selected that bit from your epic screen name ). Welcome aboard! Hopefully we'll be waving you off on to the pg copter before long. Wide tubes is a new one on me, how wide is too wide?

Evening all. Must say that all the sex talk is making me chuckle! Just to chip in my tuppence worth...after dtd here OH is always telling me to 'get on yer bike' by which he means start cycling legs widely in the air whilst lying flat on your back. He read it somewhere on the Internet. In fact he seems to be finding out all sorts of ridiculous ttc tips. Yesterday he announced proudly that he has been having a few seconds under a cold shower each morning because he read it can improve sperm count. Completely bonkers but bless him for trying!

beaky I tend to suddenly start crying over nothing about 5 days before af. Then around af I am prone to the odd rage despite being a pretty calm person the rest of the time!

Welcome bushy! It's nice and friendly here.