If TTC # 2 has turned you into a nut job this thread is for you! (Part 4)

[sebsmummy1]

Hey!! We have had lots of graduates from Part 3, so let's get on the TTC bus part 4 and make this place a ghost town.

Destination Pregnancy, choooo choooooo

[sebsmummy1]

I just feel very limboed right now. I want to know one way or the other lol. I know I have about five days left till the witch will no doubt appear, but that feels like an age away.

There are no symptoms to spot so I'm searching 'no symptoms' online lol. It's so sad

[sebsmummy1]

Pooh I just got a wet feeling and there is a lot of cloudy non stretchy cm when I wipe. Don't think I've had that before at this stage.

[sebsmummy1]

That should have read ooooh lol

[fedupofrainydays]

Fx sebs. Sounds promising, it really does. But try (I know imposs) forget about it til Boxing Day and test then. Then it will be a great surprise once Christmas Day fun is over!

Decided to have some wine and feeling drunk after a few sips. Not sure my body is ready for the drink onslaught that is Christmas. Given I'm not pregnant i want to enjoy all the illegal cheese, meats, , port and bubbles so hope body decides it can cope! Would much rather be pregnant and feeling sick tho... :(

[2beornot]

Yes seb, wait as long as poss though before poas. Does sound positive though!!!

Fedup - definitely treat yourself. You deserve it and you don't know when it'll be banned again! (Hopefully for most of 2014!!)

[sebsmummy1]

Thanks girls. I wish I felt more positive but unknown you all know this feeling very well when it starts getting close to D Day and there's been a few interesting signs. Ok will sit in my hands.

[sebsmummy1]

On my hands lol.

[fedupofrainydays]

punky have your last cycle or two been funny as well? Mine were all over place after first mc so kind of assume they will do it again now. Although hoping not as bad given mc was loads earlier.
Good to Dtd anyway even without cm. but I know how disheartening it is when body doesn't do what it's supposed to be doing.

zippy how's it going? Sorry silly af was 6 days late. What a bitch. Hope things will start to settle down for you now you have stopped bf.

Good luck sebs try keep busy doing other things. I'm not looking forward to the 2 ww hell again, it's just the worst! Fx for you

Xx

[sebsmummy1]

Argh i had one more test and I had to do it didn't i.

BFN of course!!!

Fucking fucking fucking fuck.

[zippygeorgebungle]

doesn't count sebs! it wouldn't show yet I dont think? with my first (saying that makes me feel more like there will be more...) didnt get a bfp until well after af date. I suggest trying not to test until after christmas, though I am rubbish and actually tested last night after having AF on the basis of sore nipples.

Quite possibly the most irrational poas anyone has ever done ever. I thought what if AF came anyway and it was just super heavy implantation bleeding. Funnily enough a bfn.I am officially ridiculous.

fedup, your strength is quite inspiring and i am so pleased you have popped in to say hello. We would have been worrying about you more otherwise! Take care xx

[sebsmummy1]

Oh zippy I love you. Thank god for the people in here making me feel less bonkers.

[Cakebaker35]

I've been lurking - hang in there sebs, the waiting is just crap isn't it.
I really should wait until at least Sunday to test but so tempted to run off to the shops and buy a cheapy test. Feel all bloated though so AF probably about to arrive

[PunkyBubba]

Sebs, you are still in with a chance, don't give up yet!

FedUp, although my luteal phase has been messed up, I was still getting CM before ov.. and ov on Day 13 as I have since realised I have done ever since I starting charting in June. Still no sign of CM on underwear (am too squeamish to 'feel for it'), although I had some stomach pain last night, and this morning temperature has jumped right up so possibility I ov's yesterday. I did stay overnight at PIL's and they had the heating on all night, so now confused as wondering if that caused it! Also OPKs have been showing negatives so far.. so thinking it still might be to come. SOoooooo confused this week about it all.. just when I think I have it all nailed and I know exactly what my body is doing it changes on me!

Zippy, I now do P-tests throughout the month as I found out I was pregnant a week or so after full on normal period.. which turned out to be the ectopic. Now if I feel a slight twinge in my boobs (or yesterday had a bad day which felt like PMT) I just POAS to make sure. I think it is going to cost me a fortune in tests for the rest of my life at this rate!

2B, good to hear from you, hope you are doing ok.

Cake, fingers crossed it isn't AF this time.

xxxx

[sebsmummy1]

Think I'm out guys. Light blood when I wipe. I'm cd 10 or 11, obviously not a proper flow yet but I think this is AF not a sign if anything positive.

My cycles are so short now! If I start AF today that's a 23 day cycle. They were never this short before I conceived my son.

I'm going yo use opks next cycle just to clarify when I'm ovulating and see if my LP is still 12 days.

Good luck everyone in their 2ww xxxx

[fedupofrainydays]

Just woken up with an immense head ache. But it was so much fun!! I got in at 5.30am, silly girl. But then DH and I dtd! It was really good fun sex, none of this ttc malarkey. Just like the old days :)

I've not been out properly in ages so was a great release. And I got chatted up so many times and been given phone numbers by men. I'm just in shock. I thought I was too old for this! These men were suprised I was being faithful to my husband. Too many people cheat out there.. Do people not believe in manogamy any more?! I married DH for a reason and no matter how gorgeous you are, am not cheating on him!

How is everyone else? Oh sebs, just read you think af is here :( what a bitch. All sounded so promising. I was so hopeful for you. The witch can be so cruel. Hugs xxxx

punky how confusing. I go by cm too so not sure what I would do if it didnt arrive. I'm also too grossed out to check my own cervix position and cm up there, so you aren't alone on that one. Wish I could but just can't!!! I would keep
Dtd every couple of days this month if you can, jic. And see what temp does when back in normal heating place! Sometimes all the cm can stay up, so you may well have ov'd.

Now I've stopped bleeding am officially back on the ttc wagon. Not really this month as no clue re timings etc and would prefer to get one cycle out the way...

I also POAS throughout cycle. Even after af! Costs me a fortune but can't help it!!

[zippygeorgebungle]

fedup, you sound in great form. Impressed in the extreme.

sebs, are you certain. boo hiss if so. and lots of christmas drinks at least. short cycles mean more chances, I suppose.

punka, you made me do the other test in the pack! no need to state the obvious response.

CBFM tells me today, day 12 is the first day of medium fertility. i ovulate late (day 24 last month) so here is hoping for peak fertility at bit earlier. although i am crazy busy trying to finish work, wrap, buy last few presents, buy food for christmas dinner and subsequent buffets etc so fitting in dtd is almost another thing on the list at the moment. :)

[sebsmummy1]

Nah im not certain, but i pretty sure she is on her way.

Fed up that was such a brilliant post, love it!!

My OH works next door to some company that makes fertility monitors and they analyse the results or something. I have no idea how it is different from Clear blue, persona etc but he is going to go in in the New Year and have a word.

[Lucyjojo]

Hi ladies, I wondered if I could join you? My DD turned 2 at the start of November and I am just coming to the end of cycle 6 of ttc #2, and it is definately driving me totally crazy! We took a bit of a back seat this month with DTD but I am holding on to a glimmer of hope that by giving up it will get me a BFP. I think AF is due on monday and am thinking of testing tomorrow morning. Have been getting cramps all day though so it doesn't look good.
Sebs I just wanted to say I am in a similar position to you, my cycles are very regular at 25/26 days, but the past few months AF has arrived early, giving me a cycle of 23 days, so I am a bit worried there is not enough time for implantation to occur. I have used OPKs once, but think I will use them again next cycle to check when I ovulate and see how long my LP is.
Hello to everyone else and hope you are looking forward to christmas!

[sebsmummy1]

Well the bitch appeared last night/ this morning. Obviously disappointed and pissed off but knew she was coming. So 24 day cycle, I suspect I ovulated on cd13. If it was cd12 then I had EWCM the day after which is a bit strange.

I'll use opks this cycle I think as I'm interested in what's going on now.

Least I know before Xmas I suppose. I had in my head this desire to give birth when I was 39. Need to throw that out the window now I think as time is running out for that to happen.

I feel like flouncing but I don't have the energy.

[sebsmummy1]

Hi Lucy. Sorry, didn't mean to ignore you, I'll be back more cheerful soon I'm sure. FX you get your BFP soon xxxxxxx

[PunkyBubba]

So sorry Sebs :-( I know it isn't much comfort but as you say at least you know before xmas, so you can eat and drink all the naughty things. 2014 will be our year I'm sure!

Hi Lucy, welcome to the madhouse. I think OPKs are good.. well if you actually see anything! They worked really well for me before the ectopic, and nothing since, not even a hint of a line :-(

Zippy, sorry you did your last test because of me.

FedUp, glad you had a good night out on Friday :-) Those nights are so important to get back on an even keel.

Well basal temperature went straight back down to normal pre-ov temps since I've been back home so the temp spike must have been due to in-laws having heating on all night. Still nothing on OPKs, a bit of CM on underwear, etc though wouldn't say EWCM so maybe will ov today or tomorrow.. DH has been a real pain this week as far as DTD goes.. I ended up in tears last night after he said he was too tired Friday night so we'd do it in the morning.. Then in the morning DS woke up very early and was shouting from his bedroom, so DH said we'd DTD when DS has his afternoon nap.. But then his football team were on the radio, so that didn't happen either.. so after wearing my sexy underwear all day I of course just assumed we would do it at bedtime, but DH looked at me like I was mad and just said 'it's 11pm, I'm knackered' and turned the light off. I was so upset and angry, but managed to say 'well I assume we will give it a go in the morning?' He replied huffily 'well you will have to set the alarm for 6.30', so I did. Then once he was asleep I had a good sob. I don't understand why he is being such an a*se about it! It's difficult enough after waiting all this time since the ectopic. I'm temping, doing OPK's, taking conception vitamins, trying not to drink too much alcohol, etc.. and finally it gets to the fertile period and he decides after doing it a couple of times earlier in the week to be difficult when it gets to the 'peak' time!!! Anyway, so we DTD this morning, and I am hoping that is it for this cycle because I can't be doing with feeling like I'm trying to force him, or walking on eggshells about it. He supposedly wants this as much as me.. am so hacked off today. :-(

[Lucyjojo]

Thanks for the welcome. So sorry AF arrived Sebs, it is just so shit isn't it. I POAS this morning, on two different sticks, and they were both negative so it looks like I'm just waiting for AF to arrive tomorrow. I know it really is no consolation but at least we can enjoy some wine and cheese and smoked salmon over christmas, I was wondering how I would have explained the not drinking to my family if I had got my BFP. It is definately better to have found out now and not on christmas day, at least we can move on a little bit and just enjoy the day with our DCs.
Punky poor you. I know how you feel about desperately feeling the need to DTD when you get to your fertile period and DH just not being interested, they just don't feel the desperation the same way as us do they! I hope you have managed to DTD enough this cycle and can relax a bit and enjoy christmas now.

[sebsmummy1]

Yep yep and yep Punky.

Totally understand and nodding head. Have been there.

Obviously slightly different as don't have the pressure of what you have just experienced and all your emotions, but we have had the 'I'm too knackered' 'we'll do it in the morning'. Then I'm left trying to get a rise out of a totally shattered bloke who obviously isn't interested at 6am and I feel attractive and desirable as hell. Not.

Of course then after the 2ww the bitch appears again and you're left wondering if the one time you didn't shag was the one time you should have.

I cancelled Christmas this morning. I honestly can't be arsed. OHs dad is terminal ill in hospital, my father is extremely ill at home with my Mum trying to care for him. DS hasn't a clue. I just want to throw myself under a bus. We all have bad colds so I can't even taste anything. The last thing I feel like doing is trying to pretend I'm happy and getting all the table pretty etc.

This time last year I can remember us eating Christmas dinner with DS breast feeding at the table on a nursing cushion so I had both hands free to eat . The knot thing that could have topped that was me getting a BFP but obviously wasn't meant to be.

The whole thing is bullshit. I don't even drink do I can't get pissed lol. I should probably start.

[sebsmummy1]

Knot - only

[Cakebaker35]

Ah Sebs, so sorry the bitch has arrived and I don't blame you for not being arsed with Christmas with everything you have going on. I would recommend several but as you don't drink I'm passing you a here's to a brighter new year for you.

Punky, very sorry about the stresses of DTD, it definitely takes its toll all this trying at the 'right' times! Cannot wait for sex life to just be about fun again tbh! I find it v stressful which is part of the reason I've wimped out not used opks yet, I think I'll just get very obsessed.

Welcome Lucy, I'm a lurker here but chip in once in a while!

Having got a BFN on Friday, AF still hasn't made an appearance so now I don't know what to do. Today is day 28 for me but I have had anything from 25 - 32 day cycles so just feel in limbo - and no idea about what to do about Christmas!! We will be away with family so should I do another test before going on Xmas eve?? Help! Arghhhhhh.