If TTC # 2 has turned you into a nut job this thread is for you! (Part 4)

[sebsmummy1]

Hey!! We have had lots of graduates from Part 3, so let's get on the TTC bus part 4 and make this place a ghost town.

Destination Pregnancy, choooo choooooo

[fedupofrainydays]

Back from EPU and await their call with results. Nervous.

Using phone whilst having sex? Really? Depends what they are using it for I suppose...!! Ha ha

I had a random 20 day cycle too punky and then 28 day. Was so weird. But no one has thought any of this was abnormal when I told them (in the medical profession!)

All sounds good sebs

Had a lovely sleep last night but was woken at 5.50 by DS. But I don't mind. He's so precious and all this shite happening at the mo just makes me realise that even more. He's so amusing, even at that time of day! And he's being a big mummy's boy at the moment which I love as its great to feel so wanted and needed and been given lots of hugs and cuddle demands. It's like he knows xxxx

[fedupofrainydays]

Ps. That is good news re losing a tube. Gives me hope if this does to down that route. The doctor told me yesterday if you have ectopic it is better to remove that tube because people who have their tube saved often have another in the same tube. And she said all the ladies she had seen with one tube went on to get pregnant again just fine. She was nice and reassuring.

[PunkyBubba]

Yes, one of the many things I learned from all this is how amazing the body is how it heals and compensates for loss.

Fedup yes even at the worst times of ttc we at least have our precious DC1's to cheer us up. I really feel for those who go through such horrendous experiences such as having an ectopic without that comfort.

From everything I have read I would agree with what your doctor told you, that most agree is better to lose the damaged tube, more for piece of mind than anything else.

Definitely hoping for some of that xmas luck this year for all of us! xxx

[sebsmummy1]

Everything crossed for you fed up xxx

[fedupofrainydays]

Worst feeling of limbo land ever. I bet they don't even get around to ringing me today. Trying to distract myself with online Shopping and writing Christmas cards but I'm sure you can imagine I just want to know! Patience was never my real strong point....

[sebsmummy1]

Fed up, is there a chance that everything is ok with the pregnancy? Ie if your hormones are going up then that doesn't automatically mean it's developing in a bad place I assume?

[fedupofrainydays]

They rang. I'm miscarrying. Hcg down to 97. Unlikely ectopic issues. I've got the pain and bleeding to come which is always fun. I will prob take a bit of a break from here now but will no doubt be back. Hope you all get some healthier bfps in the mean time xxx

[PunkyBubba]

I am so so sorry. Sending you lots of love and huge hugs.xxx

[sebsmummy1]

Oh darling I am so so sorry. Totally devastated for you

[2beornot]

So so sorry, fedup. Def think you should take a break, at least over the festive period. Sending some big hugs x

[BartBaby]

Oh no fed up I'm so so sorry. I was really hoping it would work out for you. Try and take it easy over Christmas and make sure your dh looks after you x

[fedupofrainydays]

Thanks ladies. Don't let it dampen this thread though. Keep ttc with gusto ladies, I'm sure I will be back with you in no time! Xx

[sebsmummy1]

Hi girls, not sure if this thread is still active but thought I would update invade you are all out there still.

I'm 6/7dpo and showing a good possible pregnancy sign. I have dark brown cm and some spotting this morning. I had quite bad cramping last night about 10 pm.

I feel hopeful but am understandably reluctant to read too much into it as our bodies are very good at giving us signs but no BFP. No idea when I'm going to test. I'm due on Christmas Day.

[PunkyBubba]

I'm still here! That sounds positive Sebs! Fingers crossed this is your month! That's a hard decision to make on when to test if you are due on Christmas Day... I would probably wait until Boxing Day as a BFN might dampen my Christmas mood!

It's 'fertile week' this week, so DTD yesterday, and planning tomorrow, Friday and then just see if OPK is showing anything as to whether we go for Sunday too. My cycles are still messed up since the Ectopic so no idea really when I might OV or get AF. No EWCM at the moment though which is a bit annoying/disheartening.

xxx

[zippygeorgebungle]

still here, although still feeling rather heartbroken for fedup, if she's lurking

AF came for me 6 days late. no idea why, it was a regular as clockwork on 27 days every month until recently. GP called this am to say blood test at day 21 was showing v low progesterone again but I am fairly sure I ovulated much later and hence late AF, CB fertility monitor said it was day 24 of a 33 day cycle. I also think I can tell when I OV. I have all the classic signs and that coincides with the machine.

TTC is getting really hard though. I am obsessing and because nobody knows in real life it can be very tough can't it? I sometimes think it wont happen but I hope I must have an ok chance in theory and the consultant said it was likely to happen once bfing hormones subsided? it's only been a few weeks since I stopped bfing.The consultant suggested ultrasounds through the month to track ovulation but i dont know whether it is too early to go through that yet?

[sebsmummy1]

I know, I did hesitate to reignite the thread however I thought we should keep it active for fed up to rejoin when she is ready. Thinking of you darling. If you are lurking and want a natter I'm only a PM away xxxx

Zippy I am really impressed how much help you are being offered. I was led to believe once you had one child they were pretty resistant at offering much help for number 2. Makes me slightly more hopeful if I decide to go to the docs re infertility in the New Year.

I'm at the hospital at the moment visiting my partner's very very poorly dad. Luckily the ward he is on is lovely. I've been on geriatric wards before through my grandad's illness and my father's stays and the wards each time (in different hospitals) were awful. Very distressing. He has Parkinson's and I don't think he has long left unfortunately. Been a very difficult year for so many people

[zippygeorgebungle]

I'm a bit surprised too. I had only been TTCing 6 months and was still bfing when I went to the GP. I was surprised to get the blood tests and scan. But I then paid to see the consultant as the GP didnt seem to know what to do with the blood tests. It was such a good use of money to see the consultant in my view, though expensive, because he reassured me it was the bfing. The GP had said it would make no difference. But he is a very successful specialist and was clear that he thought the day 1-3 tests were showing that the bfing was having an effect. I suspect your bfing may also have potentially had an effect sebs until recently?

So sorry re your DPs dad. xx

[getagoldtoof]

Hi all you nutters. I've popped back to see if our lovely fedup has been back on. Been thinking about her loads. If you're reading I hope you're recovering physically and emotionally if that's possible yet.

I will keep coming over to cheer you on as sebs, punky and fedup all deserve a new years (or Christmas, sebs?) bfp.

[sebsmummy1]

Hiya, I'm still here.

I'm veering from hopeful to less hopeful as the hours go on lol. I think I'm either 8 or 9 dpo tomorrow.

I had no more dark brown discharge, the CM went quite yellow and tonight I wiped and it was really slippery like EWCM so I have no idea. People seem to talk about an abundance of creamy lotion CM if they are pregnant, not slippery EW consistency.

I think I remember getting this once before and AF turned up so I'm a bit

[fedupofrainydays]

I just checked in and really touched that you are all thinking of me. Thank you, you lovely ladies

I'm not great, but ok. Bloods today say hcg now low enough to be 'not' pregnant. Nurse was so sweet and has arranged for me to chat to the doctor next week. This doc also runs a fertility clinic as well as EPU so hoping she will help me / advise me on what to do next.

I'm just so tired. Crazy tired. I've gone back to work (wfh) and sort of wish I hadn't as loads to do but too tired to do it. Tomorrow my last day before Christmas tho so will just get as far as I can.

Also an emotional wreck and everyone around me seems to be having a baby, had a baby or is telling me they are pregnant. It's so tough

One good thing is that DH has now said he wants 3 kids :) he always just wanted two. But think this has made him realise how badly he wants a bigger family. I just so hope we can. I trying not to think we will just be a 3, but we might and I need to accept that.

sebs that does sound promising. And mine was yellowy too. The fact the brown stuff has gone is a good sign that it was implantation. Some people get ewcm as its the beginning of the plug forming. Fx for you xxxx

And to zippy and punky too - fx for a Christmas / NY bfp.

I am lurking and looking out for all of you including grads like geta and bart xxxxx

[fedupofrainydays]

Ps. The bleeding bit wasn't as painful as I was expecting. Probably as I'm quite early on. Just gross clots and bits (apparently my lining was thick).down to just spotting now so hopefully that's its pm the bleed front.

[sebsmummy1]

Oh darling I'm so glad you've come on to give an update. I can imagine it must be very emotional and raw right now. I'm glad you haven't been in any physical pain or at least minimally.

Sebby had his MMR jab today and has reacted to it unfortunately. We have had a low grade fever and he was sick. I've just washed him down and given him another half dose of calpol. I got his temp from 38.4 down to norm again and he has gone straight back to sleep hopefully he will feel better tomorrow. Of course it had to be the night that OH is out at a works do so I'm pacing the landing by myself.

[sebsmummy1]

BFN this morning. I bought a twin pack of early preg tests called Sure Sign which has 15ml sensitivity. Very good value for money actually, but bfn yesterday and bfn this morn. I was probably being stupidly hopeful because of that slight spotting a few days ago, I guess I've still got a few more days to go so you never know. Witch due Christmas Day xxx

[PunkyBubba]

Hi FedUp, good to hear from you, and I'm glad you are 'ok', in as much as you can be. I also know what you mean about everyone around you having a baby, and hearing about it.. I want to be happy for them.. but at the moment it's marred by feelings of envy and my own loss. It will be our turn soon though!

Thanks Geta :-) Nice to know you are still lurking and thinking of us.xx

Sorry to hear you've had a bad night Sebs :-( I hope Sebby is feeling better today? Fingers crossed it is just too early at the mo, and you will get your Christmas BFP.xxx

Still not noticing any CM which is a bit weird as I normally get it for a few days before Ov. Still BD though.. I should Ov on Saturday, as looking at previous charts it is normally on day 13. Oh well, we'll see. Been waiting to get back to ttc since mid Oct, and now the time is here I feel surprisingly deflated.. like I know it's not going to work already.

xxx

[2beornot]

Hi ladies. I'm still lurking!

Sebsmummy - I think you were right to reignite the thread. And it started with such positive news. Fingers crossed the cm is a good sign. I'm not as au fait with my cm as you are with yours but I certainly get more of it before a BFP. Couldn't say if it was creamy or slippery though!!

Fedup - glad you're ok (whatever ok means!!!). I know after mmc there was a time when I'd accepted it. I still thought about it all the time and got upset but it felt different. Take each day as it comes. And remember that just because you've gone back to work doesn't mean you can't phone in sick if you're having a low morning.

Hope Santa brings everyone BFPs!