Angels and Rainbows-remembering our angels and hoping for rainbows

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New thread ladies. Come in here for support.

Sorry Ducky I'm a bit slow! And that's me being on annual leave this week so I really have no excuse! Back to work next week and my brain will probably explode! X

It's my fault haha :) confusing people!

Ducky our experience with A's PM results was not good. The doctor just thumbed through the info and said "everything seemed to be ok" and when we asked what the heck had happened she just replied "You knew it was a high risk pregnancy and thats what it turned out to be". So cold and uncaring. They also advised us it was extremely dangerous for us to try again and insisted on giving us that info in a certified letter. Anyway it turned out they were just covering their backs as there were things wrong and things they hadnt picked up on. But I'm sure your experience will be much better, its hard to find such uncaring professionals as we had. Hope it brings you some peace when you eventually get the results.

Ruby I like your mantra - "today we are pregnant - hope exists!" I will use it when I start to get anxious :) Are you feeling ok?

Owl did you have a look at the Owlet monitor? I dont suppose you have time to be surfing the net right now though! Kisses to all the Owl family

Blue Hope your keeping the sickness at bay. With A I was already starting to feel a bit yucky at this point and of course now am wondering why I'm not this time. I also immediately went off sweet things last time but I've just had a glass of milk and six a couple of biscuits and they went down fine so I'm worrying about that too! Like you I often wonder what it really feels like to have your rainbow in your arms. A friend of mine who got her rainbow a few weeks ago says that she looks sooo much like her big sister that it breaks her heart to see, yet at the same time she feels so blessed and happy. Must be such a conflict of emotions. Hopefully we will all get to experiment exactly how it feels sooner or later.

Went for my first "pregnant" session with my friendly acupuncturist yesterday. When I told him I was pregnant he just asked "Was it IVF?" and when I said it was he replied "Well youve been very lucky then. Now we will change the treatment to try and avoid a miscarriage, as at your age its very likely" His bedside manner just gets better and better!! There is a language barrier so maybe its that Anyway Im only going there for his experience in acupuncture so I just take his comments with a pinch of salt and laugh at them now!

Waves to any lurkers and ladies I've missed xx

Missalexandra- omg that is awful :( I can't beleive someone could be so heartless at a time like that

Thinking of everyone today. I'm going to visit my daughter later.

to you all today xx

"The Busiest Day In Heaven"

It's the busiest day in Heaven
I'm planning a big surprise
To let you know I love you
And that no one ever dies

Even though your down below
And I am up above
I'm sending you my wishes
And all my angel love

It's really quite exciting
To plan this big event
For lots of gifts will come your way
And all are Heaven sent

First I'll take a bubble bath-
My splashes might cause some rain
But knowing all the fun I'm having
Will help to ease your pain

Next I'll get some pictures
In my halo and gown
So when you get to Heaven
You can show me all around

I have color crayons in Heaven
And I will draw some stars so bright
And place them in the sky today
For you to see tonight

Then Jesus will have story time
And I will sit upon his lap
He'll tell me all about you
Just before I nap

I'll awake full of energy
And play a game or two
Before I finish sending
All my love to you

After snack I'll write a song
For all the birds to sing
And know I've made you happy
With all the joy it brings

At night time I'll be tired
But I'll still hold you tight
My arms will wrap around you
And keep you through the night

And when you finally slumber
I will kneel and pray
Asking God to bless you
On this special Mothers Day

Love,
Your Little Angel

and to all of us today. Thanks for the poem Mitchell. Bit upset as sure we all are. Just got back from PIL who are genuinely lovely. But on the windowsill was a card to my MIl from my FIL to say 'Happy Mother's Day" from your grandchildren.. Both DHs siblings have kids all of whom were listed on the card.... Our family was represented to.... He had included our dog on the list of grandchildren but not our daughter. I'm not stupid, I know she's dead but she still counts. My MIL still held her this year and said goodbye. Sorry, I love them to bits. My own mum took her cards and chocs yesterday and made no reference to our daughter or what today might mean for me. Oh well smile sweetly you can't change people I reckon, only your response to them. Maybe that's the answer x

Mitchell thanks for the poem. How are you doing?

Ruby oh how awful for you For your Mum not to mention anything and your FIL to include the dog and forget your daughter, honestly people never cease to amaze me with their lack of sensitivity. It makes me so angry, honestly. After all we have been through yet it often seems to be us that have to be the "bigger person". Grrrr.

Blue hope this week isnt being too hard for you x

AFM first scan tomorrow, so nervous.

Waves to everyone x

Hi all Sorry for the Mother's Day rant. I'm calm now so probably safe to post!

MissA hope your scan went ok today. You've been in my thoughts x

Blue How's it going? I guess you may have few weeks more sickness to go but I hope it's getting better?

Hope all rainbow mums are doing ok and the days are gentle for everyone else. X

Had our first scan yesterday, its twins. Such a mix of emotions - happy, scared, excited...and so sad that A isnt here with us awaiting a little brother/sister (or both)

Love to all x

Twins!!! Congratulations!!!!

Oh my goodness Miss A so pleased for you. It's such a roller coaster isn't it. Absolute excitement, relief, terror and sadness as well. I honestly don't know what the answer is and I doubt there really is one. Thinking of you and your little beans x

Hope you are doing ok Ducky x

I'm ok, due date on Monday

Hope everyone is getting on ok x

missalex!!! Soooo pleased hope you're feeling ok & they're looking after you? As for the mix of emotions, yes, I know what you mean - best way I've found is to bury my head in the sand and ignore it all. Possibly not the most emotionally healthy thing to do but it's working so far. It's easier now I feel a bit less sick too!

ruby I'm so sorry Mother's Day was made even worse for you, I hope you're feeling calmer now. Sickness is better a lot of the time thanks and I can manage it more by eating constantly and going to bed early. But there's enough that I'm not getting worried about it having gone iyswim, which is prob the best i can hope for!

ducky ((hugs)) for mon and the lead up to it. Be kind to yourself xx

Well, got through my first week at new work, haven't told them I'm pg I'm going to try to wait til after my next scan (week on mon), although travel things are being talked about for July & sept & I won't be willing to, feel a bit bad but hey this wasn't exactly my choice of how things would work out.
Thanks for the kind wishes - I've just kept my head down this last week to get thro it all & tbh I just feel relieved now, it was all hanging over me beforehand too.

Waves to all lurking, hope the days are passing gently.

Twins!! Wow!! Congrats missa. I can imagine you are feeling all sorts of emotions at the moment. Remember - a day at a time. I'm so excited for you tho!!

Will be thinking of you ducky. I remember that day well.

Congrats on first week in the new job blue. Glad you've got through what must have been a difficult week.

Waves to Ruby, hope it's going OK.

Just a quick post from me MissA I am absolutely THRILLED for you. I can imagine it is scary and of course bittersweet that A isn't there to share this good news with you. I hope you have a care plan that you are happy with and are being looked after. Your acupuncturist sounds like he's had a sensitivity bypass.....

Waves to everyone else and sorry for not catching up properly x

Ps-my little boy (not so little actually-hands and feet are already touching the end of his 0-3mth baby grows at just 4weeks old) is doing well. I'm amazed and grateful everyday that he is here with me x

Ducky thinking of you today and hoping you have supportive and caring people round you x

Ruby How has going back to work been? Hope youre feeling less sick now

Blue glad you got through last week in one piece. Did you do anything to celebrate E's anniversary? (dont answer if you dont want )

Owl How is little Owl doing - is he still chubby?

Star lovely to hear from you! Its great to hear your little man is growing fast and you are so happy. Yes my acupuncturist could do with a few lessons in bedside manner and sensitivity!

AFM thanks to all you lovely ladies for the congrats This is the fourth time I have been pregnant with twins (A was one of twins too) and we still have no baby to show for it, so we are under no illusions that we might bring two home. We would sign on the dotted line just for one live, healthy baby as I imagine we all would. I have now joined Blue and Ruby in the dry toast and ginger tea brigade, feel absolutely rubbish. Next scan on Thursday to see if we can hear any heartbeats...

Waves to all xx

Thank you miss a, have been trying to keep myself busy

Hope your scan goes well on Thursday, will be thinking of you x

Thinking of you today Ducky we are all here with you for hand holding. Sending you a very un-mumsnet hug. X

Thank you ruby. Think I was making it a massive massive deal in my head but have managed to keep my self busy

Hope everyone's ok x

Glad your day was not too difficult ducky. I often find the run up to anniversaries and special days harder than the day itself, as it's so constantly in your mind.

Wishing you lots of love.

Thank you owlie x

I have my pm appt on Monday I'm really pissed off as they have told me I have to go and sit and wait in the area you wait for your scans

Hope all is well tomorrow missa x

Ducky that is so insensitive, I think you should demand to be seated somewhere else, the last thing you want to see just before your PM results is a load of pregnant women! Hope you get some sort of 'closure' from them x

Really nervous about tomorrow, praying for at least one little heartbeat.