ruby yes toast was quite good, til I threw some up the other day! Has put me off a bit now! But yes, I'm getting through with telling myself it's a good sign, and the last few days its not been totally all day and night, I've had bits of time feeling better - so the end is in sight I think! Fizzy water is my thing atm, but I've run out so need to get some more..
ducky I'm sorry you're finding this week particularly hard because of your due date coming up. I don't know why, but these dates that mark things in our heads do just seem to be so much harder, even tho we say to ourselves it's just another day. I guess it highlights what 'should/would have been'. I'm dreading the anniversary of E's death/birth next week in the same way, but I know often it's the runup more than the day itself. Be kind to yourself, try to let the time drift a bit and only spend time with people who give to you iyswim, the people who build you up & feel good to be around.
With the pm - ours was 12 weeks after E died, they explained that they get some results sooner than others and think its better to get them all then go through them all at once. I guess also they need to be thorough when explaining things & it'd be easy for someone to give you half an answer rather than a full picture over the phone. not that it makes it any easier to wait. I'd written down all my questions in the couple of weeks beforehand which meant i didn't miss anything out. Our consultant was lovely, explained everything, answered all questions (where he could - obviously often the answer is, we don't know, sometimes it just goes wrong) and he broached the subject of trying again before we had to ask. I think they know a lot of people feel desperate to. One of my big fears was that he'd say he wouldn't recommend it, esp as we already have other children, but he was very encouraging, and it's really helped me with fears in this pg - I just got referred back to the same cons by my mw yesterday, so I already know how he'll approach things iyswim. For me, although it didn't give complete 'closure', I did find it helpful to have the answers that were available and to have it reiterated yet again, by somebody who knows their stuff, that it wasn't anything I did/didn't do. One thing I would say tho, is that I think a lot of us on here have said before we felt quite deflated afterwards - it's just such a big thing in the lead up to it & we focus on it, and then it's all over and you have to go back to getting on with life still without your baby here. I don't know if being aware of that in advance might help a bit. Thinking of you xx
jodie I'm sorry I didn't welcome you, for some reason I thought you were the same person as ducky before a namechange, not quite sure why. Please do post more if it helps.
missalex I am actually tearing up at your news, it's so brilliant. I've no idea about the numbers and what they mean, but at the very least its a very very good sign :) :) :) thanks for the advice about groupon, hadn't crossed my mind to look, but I will do.
Waves to all lurkers and wishing gentle days to all x