Ouch missalex - how utterly frustrating...and totally unsurprising. Lake, I am so sorry for your beautiful daughter and so sorry people around you are being rubbish. I think there ought to be some kind of "Dealing with friends who are grieving the loss of their child for Dummies" given out for free by the government. Since we lost our little baby G, not only have I come across all of you amazing ladies on this thread but have been absolutely gobsmacked by all the stories people have volunteered to us in RL. SOOO many people have lost babies. So many have had miscarriages, at least 5 of my friends had a TFMR like we did and at least half a dozen people around us lost a baby later on in pregnancy for various horrendous reasons. Yet everyone is so utterly crap at interacting with grieving parents. I often find myself having to sugarcoat what happened to us for fear of upsetting people. Madness, right? missalex , I am sure they didn't mean to be rude -at least I hope not? Tell US about the nursery if you'd like to. And Lake , if you live in London, I would love to come round and lend you my shoulder to cry on.
Betty , my stomach churned when I read your account of your dd role-playing the birth of a dead baby. Our daughter, also 2,5 yo, keeps asking about our baby. Does mummy have a baby in her tummy? Where is the baby? Why has the baby gone? The other day on the bus, we had a conversation (I don't speak English to her so I am translating) which went roughly like this:
DD: Me go see 'friend A' and baby Z! [Baby Z is her best friend's little brother and was born the same day I had my TFMR, we are neighbours so we see him pretty much every single day. Gulp.]
Me: No, we are going to see 'friend A' and her daughter 'B'. Baby Z is C's baby and lives with your 'friend D', he is her little brother.
DD: Oh. And me have a little brother?
Me: Well...Yes and no. Not really.
DD: Whyyyyy mummy?
Me: Well, you have BAby G, but he's an angel and is sleeping in the sky.
DD: Yes...(She went silent for a while, clearly thinking about this, then said:) Me would like Baby G in my home, like 'friend D' has Baby Z in her home!
Me: I know sweetie, me too, I would really, really like Baby G in our home...
It was heartbreaking. I fought the tears so hard. She has seen me cry so often lately and gets really upset when I do. We were on a packed, rush hour bus and it was really so, so sad...
BUT I always try to comfort myself with the fact that my own mum had a stillborn son when I was three (undiagnosed pre-eclampsia) and I have absolutely zero memory of it: zero memory of her pregnant, of her grief or of him being mentioned, when I know he was. So Betty, you have reacted in perfectly the right way I think, in explaining to your little girl that it is not the usual, expected outcome of childbirth to have a dead baby. It is great that she voices it and it is even greater that you are communicating with her so well. I hope that both of us and everyone else on here can give our children the sibling we are so desperate for them to have...
Thank you all for being so wonderful. I always feel positively 'listened to' and supported when I come on here. It is the best 'crap place' to be in!