Angels and Rainbows-remembering our angels and hoping for rainbows

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New thread ladies. Come in here for support.

Blue oh my goodness what fab news! So happy for you and DH. Will be having a big glass of Rioja to celebrate your news tonight The anniversary is so hard, and especially if you are going to be around new people. But then on the other hand maybe it will help to be busy? When Christmas Eve was approaching I kept telling myself "its no more or no less sad just because 365 days have passed" that was the only way I could stay minimally together. I think it helped a bit. Of course its impossible not to be overwhelmed by memories. Tough time for you , what with E's anniversary, the headstone/burial and the new job. Plus the new situation with its added hormonal ups and downs ...hope you manage ok on your first day

Owl hoping everything is going smoothly, thinking of the Owl family

Ruby sorry to hear youve got morning sickness. Try ginger tea, it worked for me for a while.

Does anyone know how Star and Jules are? Havent heard from them for ages...

Waves to all xx

Thanks for your lovely messages :) haven't had those sorts of reactions irl - not that the few people who know weren't pleased, but it's not quite the happy congratulations it might otherwise be iyswim, everyone's a bit guarded.

missalex I'd not put it into words, but yes I was thinking that sort of thing, that it's just another day of E not being here, like all the others. And it's always about just living life today as best I can (not something I used to be able to do but I have learnt to) so that day in some ways is just the same. Except it's also not, obviously, it's the day we would otherwise be celebrating his birthday.
I've been wondering about star and jules too - weren't they about the same no of weeks as you owl? Btw every time I check on here I'm secretly hoping there's some news from you... Hope you're getting lots of rest & feeling ok.

ruby sorry you're feeling rough, I've always felt dreadful in pg, with E I even took meds for it (yet another of the 'what ifs' to go around). But this time, so far I've not had much. Obviously it's early days, and obviously I can't help thinking its cos there's something wrong, but on the days I've been busy I've definitely had more symptoms. So I'm resting up as much as I possibly can, I figure it can't do any harm!

Waves to anyone lurking x

Baby Owl is here. He arrived this am by c section, 8lb 11oz.

We are delighted. We thank everyone one this thread for your support.

Fantastic news! :) :) :) please do keep posting whenever you get a chance xx

A chubby little brother for E !!! So pleased for you Owl and family No doubt you will now have zero time for writing on here but know we are thinking of you. A quick message to hear how things are going now and again would be lovely though Thrilled for you, you so deserve it. Thats another big glass of Rioja I will be drinking to the Owl family's health tonight then !

xxx

Just massively de-lurking to say many many congratulations to you Owlina!! I am so happy for you and your story amongst others give us hope!

Congratulations to ruby and blue on the good news too!

Hello to everyone else... I'm plodding along, having much better days!!

Off to lurk again, but before I go a big un-mumsnetter... XXX

A massive congratulations to you owl on the birth of your rainbow baby! I am so happy for you and you dh. This news has really made me smile today and like someone said before given me hope for the future.

I haven't posted on here for a long time but I've been lurking and keeping up with everybody's news. Hello to the new ladies I've yet to meet and im sorry you find yourself here.

im currently going through IVF at the moment and hopefully fingers crossed me and dh have some good news soon.

Waves to everyone xx

Thanks everybody for your kind words. Good luck with your IVF orm, and hope you are still feeling OK blue and Ruby.

We are back home now, adjusting to having baby owl. I had him in the same hospital where my daughter was born and the care we received was fantastic. The 'team'that delivered him had obviously all been informed of our history, and were really supportive of our obvious nervousness. He was delivered by the consultant that had meet with us and attended our daughter's inquest.

For us, it felt like our daughter was being remembered, as well as our new baby celebrated.

I so hope all of you will be sharing similar good experiences soon. Thinking of you all

That's lovely owl, so glad you received good care and that the staff were obviously very respectful - that must have been quite healing for you both, I hope so anyway.

littletulip glad to hear you're having some better days at the moment & that you've delurked briefly, I was just wondering how you were the other day.

Hello again orm good to hear from you too & all the very best with the ivf. I hope you're feeling ok too?

ruby I'm definitely joining you in feeling yuck tonight - missalex I am constantly sipping ginger tea, I think it does help a little bit so thanks for that. I'm grateful that I'm feeling something tho, I was worried when I wasn't! (Not that it's stopped me worrying in any case...).

Hi everyone, I'm sorry that I've been so absent over the last few months, I've needed to take a step back so I was able to concentrate on the pregnancy. I have lurked every now and then, thank you so much to those who have been thinking of me and asking after me. My precious Rainbow boy came into the world on Friday, a few days before scheduled section. He is just perfect. We are home and trying to find our feet. I miss his big brother terribly (of course) and desperately wish I could have both of them here with me, but I am feeling truly blessed for the gift of this little boy snuggled up beside me. I really hope everyone is well. I will try to catch up in a few days time.

Ps-Owl, huge congrats again

Star what wonderful news! Have thought about you often and wondered how things were going so its lovely to hear you have your little rainbow brother for F. So happy for you and your family

Blue Sorry to hear youre feeling yucky, but like you say, feeling something is a confirmation your pregnancy is there and making itself heard. After a while the ginger tea stopped working for me and for a few days I took some pills, but then decided against them and just tried to "enjoy" the symptoms

Owl It's great to hear your little girl's memory was treated with kindness and respect. It must make such a huge difference. Hope youre enjoying every second of baby Owl.

Olivia Lovely to hear from you. Best of luck with the IVF, I know from experience (7 long years of it) how emotionally and physically draining it can be. Hope you get your BFP really soon!

Tulip welcome back from lurkdom - its great to hear you are having better days, hopefully soon you will have more of those than the bad days.

Waves to everyone xx
PS I didnt know we could post images...has everybdoy else suddenly got the "post image" button now?

star that's fantastic news!! Huge congratulations from me.

Huge congratulations to Owl and Star. Am absolutely thrilled for you! Enjoy your lovely rainbow snuggles. Life is so precious and if anyone knows that it's the ladies on here!

Sorry you're feeling grotty as well Blue mine is starting to get better and I just keep telling myself if I am sick then there must be lots of lovely pregnancy hormones that little bear is producing! 12 week scan next Tuesday so fingers crossed.

Good luck with the IVF Oliviarosesmummy keep us posted if you feel able.

Hope all is well and days are kind for everyone else, waves to Missalexandra, sleeping, Littletulip and any new angel mums lurking and looking for comfort x

Such lovely news star :) so glad you updated us. I hope you & owl are enjoying lovely newborn snuggles right now.

Glad you're feeling better ruby I'm definitely not right now! Thankfully I've been able to get lots of rest so I'm coping atm. I've made it to 8 weeks now, which feels like a milestone to me. Hopefully I'll be able to have an early scan next week... I half really want one and half am scared what it might show.

Wishing everyone gentle days x

Owl and Star hope everything is fine with your little bundles

Ruby good luck with the 12 week scan tomorrow

Blue fingers crossed your scan goes well too, and that both you and Ruby are coping ok with feeling yucky

Olivia how are things going?

AFM I have been having the IVF preparations for the last few weeks and on Friday we had our embryo transfer. Everything went fine and now all we can do is wait two weeks for the result. So, so nervous!

Waves to all xx

missalex not sure I can cross my fingers more than they are already, but so very much hoping things go your way :)

Good luck tomorrow ruby

Had my scan today, everything looking as good as it possibly can at this stage :) I need my next mini-milestone to concentrate on now - booking in appointment in a couple of weeks I guess, although I'm dreading having to go through it all really as its a new mw.

Waves to all lurkers

I'm just de-lurking to let you know that I gave birth to my rainbow baby two and a bit weeks ago via planned section. She was a little poorly and spent a week in hospital having all manner of tests including a lumbar puncture but we are home now and trying to settle in. She is very precious and I am very grateful. We miss her brother incredibly but feel very lucky to have this special gift.
Congrats to the other girls here who have safely delivered rainbow babies and good luck to everyone going through treatment or trying.
I hope everyone else is doing ok... Thanks to those who asked after me.
Hugs to all xx

Hi everyone, am new to these forums!
This is the first time I have used forums like this .
My daughter was stillborn in feb :( it has been very difficult but have found posts like this giving me hope for the future

Miss A I have everything crossed for you that the embie sticks. Sending positive vibes your way.

Jules, absolutely fantastic news, it must have been a scary start to her life for you but I'm glad you are home now and I hope that your little girl continues to go from strength to strength.

Blue-so pleased you are pg again.

Jodie-I'm so sorry to hear about your little girl. I don't post very often anymore but the ladies on here are so supportive and wonderful. It really is a safe haven to share thoughts and feelings that you don't want to or can't say out loud.

Sorry for not catching up with everyone else, I will try to do so soon.

Thank you star.

It's a horrible thing to have in common and it's amazing how supportive people are on here!

And congrats to everyone on their rainbows

Ducky glad you had already found us! I am so sorry for your loss. Tell us more about your little girl if you feel you are able. Everyone on here has been through the same darkness, so we are all here for you.

Jules so thrilled for you! It must have been a terrifying time, imagine you held your breath a lot that week but glad you are back home and have lots of cuddles!

MissA good luck with your IVF will keep you in my thoughts and prayers x

Blue fab news on the scan. I reckon you are right to take it one stage at a time. Hopefully time will fly for us both!

Nervous about today but am feeling hopeful as due to early bleeding have already had 3 scans which all looked good so that's got to be positive right.....? I feel pregnant and still have some morning sickness.....it's going to be fine isn't it? Will update you this afternoon.

How r u doing Sleeping? Hope you are ok and days are gentle x

Hi ruby!
I came off the pill and getting our little girl took a bit of trying, we pretty much gave up in the end and I went to work one day and was constantly throwing up for the whole week, one of the girls started laughing saying I was pregnant then I took a test and it came back positive so was a bit of a shock!

Had a difficult pregnancy with very bad morning sickness and I kept tellin my midwife I couldn't feel her move much but he kept shrugging it off then on my 31 week appt someone was covering for her and thy couldn't find a heartbeat so sent me to the hospital where they confirmed my little girls heart had stopped beating :( I delivered her 2 days later and she was the most beautiful thig I have ever seen

Hi all, welcome ducky, sorry you find yourself here. Sosorry to hear about your daughter. There are no words adequate, but I an thinking of you. These are early days, so be gentle on yourself. I lost my daughter due to a traumatic birth in Sept 2012. I've just had my rainbow son this month. Like you, it took quite a while to concieve the first time, but much quicker the second time.

Lots to catch up on here. star hope you are enjoying your rainbow son. Jules congratulations on your rainbow, must have been a very scary time while she was in hospital, glad she is back home with you now. I'm cuddling my rainbow now, still look at him and can't believe he's finally here and I'm a mum again.

blue glad your scan went well, day at a time as we say on here. Ruby hope you are feeling good and yesterday's scan went well. Keep looking after yourselves.

missa glad to hear you have got to this stage of the
IVF, make sure you rest up now. Hope your IVF is going well too orm.

tulip good to hear from you, thanks for your kind words. I'm glad you are having better days.

Blue fab news about your scan! I think you're right about setting your next milestone not too far away, I've found it easier to cope when just taking things day by day. And sometimes hour by hour. Did you manage ok on E's anniversary? How are things going with your new coworkers, are they being sensitive?

Jules what wonderful news! Been wondering about you for weeks now. Sounds like a pretty hairy start for your little girl, thank goodness everything is fine now. Enjoy every minute of her.

Star hope the newborn snuggling with your precious rainbow is going strong!

Ruby was thinking about you yesterday, hope the scan went well

Ducky so sorry you find yourself here, we all know just how sad you must be feeling. Its very early days for you and though you wont believe it right now the days eventually will become a bit more bearable. As you can see on this thread there are lot of ladies who go on to have their rainbows. We lost out little girl on Xmas eve just over a year ago at 35 weeks.

Owl saw an article in a mag in the dentists waiting room yesterday, it featured a baby monitor called *Owlet Baby Monitor" couldnt help smiling and thinking of you! They sound really good, its like a baby sock with all sorts of sensors in it that measure different stats and lets you know via smartphone if theres a prob. Must be a Godsend for someone who's lost a baby to SIDS, or simply worries a lot. Hope Owlet is doing fine

AFM driving myself crazy imagining the worst. I have ordered a pack of twenty FRER tests from the Internet and they still havent arrived - probably a good thing or I'd be doing one every 4 hours

Hugs to all xx