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New thread ladies. Come in here for support.

Kayleigh implantation bleeding usually is between 6 and 10 days after ovulation. Are you controlling yours? Its not bright red like period blood, more browny, and not ususally much of it. The times I've been pregnant I have actually felt the implantation as a really sharp pain down low in the womb area for a few seconds, follwed by other lesser ones for a while. But not everyone feels it and maybe it something to do with all mine being IVF? Fingers crossed for you.

Critter you could always suggest the Clexane, see what they say? Re: acupuncture. I never had any success with the Chinese type, I go to a Korean man its different they do it in your hands mostly and there's a different thinking behind it apparently. Its been great for me, massively helped various problems/ailments and I think it also helped me with the grief/stress, which can only be good when your TTC. I would be careful to go to one with a very good reputation though. I'm going this afternoon for my monthly top-up, I'm hoping it might help with the diabetes.

I had acupuncture too and I feel it really helped me manage my anxiety and grief. I had the traditional Chinese acupuncture but the lady who did it was so lovely it was a bit like a counselling session each time so I couldn't say whether it was the acupuncture that helped or just talking to the lady. She specialised in fertility and pregnancy. I think if you can afford it then it is worth a shot.

MissA, am I right in thinking that your acupuncturist hasn't got the best people skills? Really glad you feel it is helping though. When is your next scan?

Thanks ladies for your replies, i only noticed the funny reddish stuff the once, and had nothing since, so think i'm going to wait it out until next week and see if AF appears. I've had some uncomfortable cramp like pains last week, and been to the loo more than usual (number 2's)- which was how i was before finding i was PG with DD, but as i said i'm not overthinking it, well trying my hardest not to anyway.

Hope your acupuncture session goes well missa

Waves to all xx

Kayleigh Just to clarify, when I said it happens between day 6 and 10 post-ovulation (actually meant to write day 12 not day 10) I didnt mean that it lasts for six days. Mine is usually just the one time and on one day, like you had. Will try and not get excited for you

Earth yes I've heard a lot of people find the acupuncture sessions therapeutic and relaxing. Your'e right mine does not have the best bed-side manners. But he is very old and there's the language barrier and I really dont think he means to be rude or cruel. Not long ago he told me he was very happy for me, and now I usually get a few pats on the back so I think things have improved! I dont really care as long as it works. My next scan is next Thursday, its a growth scan to make sure the diabetes is not making the baby grow too much.

Thanks for that MissA i'll just wait it out, i just feel odd, if that makes sense. Like the other month when i felt majorly overemotional, this month i don't, but i don't feel like myself- no unwell, just odd lol x

Hello everyone - sorry I've been awol for a while, had visitors, and lots of them! Didn't quite manage to take my mind off things but I have felt more positive at times.

Ducky - with the movement anxiety I eventually gave in and bought a monitor at 28weeks. Has been good for dealing with the panic, just for long enough to allow myself to lie down & feel more movement iyswim. I actually wish I'd bought it a bit earlier now. Might be worth it for you, just thought I'd mention it.

Kayleigh - I had implantation bleeding which sounded a bit like that with my first. But I also had a little bit immediately after ovulation a couple of times before we started ttc after E, so I think sometimes hormones can do funny things. Will have my fingers crossed x

Madem - good look with going back to work & I hope other people are more sensitive to you. Personally, I'm with Ducky on the weather though ( love autumn!)

Ruby - I can't remember how many days it must be now but can't be many. I'm getting excited for you!! How are you feeling?

Missalex - thanks for asking after me. My scan last week showed growth ok, which I am v relieved about. I think E started slowing down at this point, although I didn't have a scan to show it. I also saw my consultant, so I now know I will be induced at 38wks with fortnightly scans before then, which is a relief too.

Critter - hope you're doing ok. i know v little about ivf, other than that it can make people feel rubbish, so i hope you're feeling ok atm. more fingers crossed, too x

Sorry not to name check properly, I know I'll have missed people but I ought to be working really! Waves to all x

Thanks blue this is the first month i've had the strange red stuff, so was just a bit concerned about it. Glad your latest scan showed the growth is ok x

Thanks everyone for thinking of me and wondering how I am, what a great support you all are.

I'm doing good - just taking each day as it comes, crying at times, laughing the next... It's all so surreal! I have a few glasses of wine most evenings and this helps me to relax and chill out a bit.

We have Lenny's funeral tomorrow at 11am and I'm very nervous. But we have very supportive friends and family who will all be there - some of whom we haven't seen since it happened and I'm kinda worried about how they will act around us. I don't want people to feel like they're treading on eggshells. We're going to the pub after for a drink so I'm sure after a few it'll be less awkward.

I've set up a JustGiving page in memory of Lenny as people kept asking us if they could donate to a cause in his name. The link is www.justgiving.com/natalie-cunningham1

If anyone wants to check it out please do. Not necessarily to donate obviously, just for curiosity's sake if u like haha. Hoping to raise lots of money for Sands xxx

Lady will be thinking of you tomorrow x

I hope it goes well tomorrow Lady. I'll be thinking of you x

Lady will be thinking of you and your family tomorrow. I can relate to you saying you don't want people to feel like they're treading on eggshells- i felt exactly the same. And also, that's a lovely idea to set up a page so others can donate in Lenny's name xx

Lady Will be thinking of Lenny, you and yours tomorrow x

Thinking of you and Lenny today Lady x

Thoughts will be with you and your beautiful angel today Lady x

Love to you and Lenny today lady.

Hi Lady, how did it go today? I hope Lenny's send off was beautiful. Lots of love and hugs to your family x

Sending lots of love lady x

Lady, you, your family and your beautiful baby Lenny were in my thoughts and prayers this morning. I hope it was beautiful and what you expected. Huge hugs and a to gentle days ahead.

How is everyone else these days?
I'm getting weird pink and brown discharge so either AF is finally on her way, or it's implantation. I've had all sorts of promising signs - but they're so similar to a period that I don't hold much hope. Let's try not to get too excited/terrified. My stomach actually churns when I imagine myself getting a +ive test.

Thoughts and hugs to all of you wonderful ladies. I can't believe how wonderfully supportive a thread full of internet 'strangers' can be, particularly in comparison to real life people

mademoiselle i know what you mean about promising signs, i've had a slight increase in appetite the past couple of days, trying not to read too much into it. With all the stress about my mum recently i'd resigned myself to thinking it wasn't going to happen this month.
I have to agree 100% with you about the ladies here being so much more supportive that people in RL. I can speak openly here about things without worrying.

lady i hope today went as well as it could have done, and that the days ahead are kind to you.

Love to all xx

Lady Hope everything went OK yesterday and today is being gentle on you. I remember 'knowing' that we had to move forwards but just thinking, I don't want to. I don't want to go forward without 'H'. Even if the service gives you some peace it's a difficult time. We are all thinking of you x

Mad & Kayleigh We had an 'implantation' bleed, (that's what they said it was but not sure) at 5.5 weeks. It lasted for 12 days in all and to be honest I thought we'd had it and were miscarrying. It went from pale pink to rusty brown to bright red. Will be keeping everything crossed for you.

Blue Glad you are feeling good after your visitors and that you have seen your consultant and have a plan. It gives us something to work towards doesn't it?

MissA Hope everything goes well with your scan next week and you are doing OK and thanks for asking about our birth plans. We had a repeat scan on Tuesday and the amniotic fluid is still low but importantly has gone up slightly so hasn't dropped. Consultant was very good and the plan is to rescan for growth next Tuesday and if there is any signs of growth plateauing we will bail out at 37 weeks and induce then (which is a week tomorrow!) I did ask about CTG monitoring, as a friend who is a midwife suggested with 2 low fluid readings this should be done. The consultant said as the Dopplers looked good he was happy to wait a week for another scan but if i wanted CTG monitoring I could go in every day if I wanted. I said once would be fine and went in today and bear was having it's own little disco in there! You are right MissA they did thing I was heading for a section but at 28 weeks the placenta had moved up and was clear of my cervix so we are all clear to go 'old school' with the delivery. I'm stuck between obviously really wanting the growth to go well and just really hoping that next Tuesday they say "right, this Saturday, let's just go for it!".

On the upside it's spurred us into action and I have started washing some bits. Also made DH move all the furniture in the nursery and our bedroom yesterday and shampoo all the carpets, clearly the dust behind out bed is a deadly force potentially conspiring against the unborn Bear! Jesus someone have me sectioned!

Thank you ruby. I'm glad your scan on Tuesday went well, and that you have a plan in place. Also well done on starting to get things sorted.

AFM i'm going to be brave in the next few days. I haven't yet printed off any pictures of Ben as they were all on mine and DH's phones. This wouldn't be a problem but the only way i can get them off my phone is to put them on facebook first then download them to my mum's computer, so i need to be brave and post them :(

Waves to all xx

Kayleigh, I'm pretty sure you can make the album private so nobody else can see it, you just need to check the privacy settings when you create the album x

I've just checked-on the facebook app go to photos, then albums then click the "+" button to create an album then bottom right it has a little icon of people-kind of looks like you might tag people in it, but if you click on it there is a section called "audience" and then you can select "only me". Might want to check this actually works with a random photo first.
Anyway, I know some people find it important and helpful to share, but if you want the photos printed without the whole world seeing them first this might be an option for you.

Ruby-well done on preparing things, it such a big step. I remember doing my prep in a bit of a daze, almost like it was for somebody else x

Kayleigh, could you email them to your email account instead? I've done that in the past. Obviously if you want to share them, that's a different story, but if you're not sure, that could be an option.

Ruby: so little time! So this baby want be dressed in crisp wrappers after all - we are all rooting for you. I totally understand how you want your baby out earlier - let's hope that it's the best outcome for everybody's health.
MissA, how are you feeling? How is the GD diet, not too bored yet? And the anxiety?
Ducky, how about you?
Big waves to everyone else x

AFM: still no feckin' period. It's over 6 weeks now and before you ask, of course I've done a pg test and it's negative. I'm back to school with toxic colleagues Tuesday and totally dreading it. I'm strong when the day goes well and I'm surrounded by nice people, but what about if I get challenged? What if people ask? I was quite obviously pg before the summer - to anyone just a bit observant anyway- and now I'm obviously not. I hope it's going to be ok...

Hugs all round

Mademoiselle sorry to hear about the BFN and the lack of AF. Your body has been through a lot, maybe it just needs a few more weeks to get back on track. Going back to work with toxic colleauges....hope its not the case but youre probably going to get some idiot making some insensitive comment. Maybe prepare what youre going to answer first. Dont feel pressured to go into details though, I personally think people dont need to know more than the fact that you "lost" G. Try and keep well away from "stupid cow" maybe? Will be thinking of you Tuesday

Kayleighmaybe I'm going to sound silly here cos youve probably already checked this out, but didnt your phone come with a lead that you plug directly into the USB on your (or your Mums) computer? That way you just directly download them and then decide whether you want other people to see them or not. Dont share them with anyone until youre ready. Are you still feeling "odd"?

Ruby yikes you are so close. I'd never believed what they say about the "nesting instinct" just beofre birth but from what you say about your cleaning-fest its obviously true LOL. Its great that your placenta has moved (didnt know that could happen!) and it looks like you can avoid a section after all. Also the amniotic fluid increasing sounds good. Hope Bear keeps up the reassuring disco dancing right up until departure date! Let us know what they say Tuesday

Blue glad things are going well and the scans are showing good growth. At what point did they start to tell you what percentile she is? We still havent been told, they just say its not applicable or useful to know until about 28 weeks, whereas with A we were told at each monthly scan right from about 12 weeks I think.

Critter how are the preps going? How are you feeling?

Ducky are you managing the anxiety?

Lady did Lennys funeral go well (as well as a babys funeral can go)? Are you and your family coping ok? Sending hugs

AFM junior seems to be quite active these past few dasy so thats helping a bit with the anxiety. Not doing too well with the blood sugar past two days, even though I'm sticking really strictly to the diet. Lost almost 2 kilos in 2 weeks so am starting to worry about that a bit too, feels like I might be 'depriving' the baby of his food too although thats probably nonsense. The obstet said not to worry about losing weight, the endocrinologist said I shouldnt lose any. I always seem to get confliciting advice . My FIL has been rushed to hospital with a chest infection and I'm dithering over whether I should go and visit him. A serious chest infection was initially what put me in hospital with A, and I'm terrified that I will be in a place where there will be germs and I might pick something up. On the other hand I will feel terrible if I dont go, he has Alzheimers and strangely I am the only one of the family he now recognises so seeing a familiar face might brighten him up? Is it worth the risk?

Waves to all and anyone I've missed x