Hello Ladies, sorry for being AWOL for a while, been having a bit of a mega-wobble
Ruby gosh you are so close to holding your rainbow 
yes, it will work out fine this time! Dont worry about the chip wrappers the only important thing is that your little one arrives safe. Sorry to hear about your Mums crap reaction to H's birthday. Sending you and DH a big nearly-there hug
Blue sorry to hear youve been having a tough time these last few days. I know what you mean about being overwhelmed once again by the grief, seems thats whats happening to me too. How did the MW visit go? did you start with the pyscologist and does it help? I'm still seeing mine, if nothing else its just a place where you dont have to feel guilty/uncomfy talking about your loss and having a good old cry. Nearly-there hugs for you too
Earth hope youre feeling a bit better, those flashbacks are so hard to bear. I wonder if they ever go away completely? How is your little man?
Ducky How are you doing? I often get calls from magazines/freebies I registered with, they seem to have a standard response ready, it so p*es me off when they say how sorry they are in a happy, sing-song voice 
Kayleigh well done on getting Bens tattoo done even though you were scared. Sounds like youve been dealt a pretty crap hand in the past, I so hope your future is better ((hugs)) I've never had hair loss but in the past DH lost huge clumps and was told it was down to stress. It grew back again and is fine now. How is your Mum?
Mademoiselle your cherry tree memorial sounds a lovely way to remember G. I completely understand your not particularly wanting to have many people there, we were the same in fact we decided to only have us two there it was just too hard to share with anyone. So sorry to hear about your Dads comment, I have reached the decision I might need a tattoo on my forehead saying "NO I dont need to just get on with life thank you"... that bloody comment has been so regular especially from my MIL. By the way your SIL needs a good slap
Lady how are you doing? Its good that youve been told you only need to wait 3 months before TTC, I was told 12 months post section. Did the house move go well? can only imagine the stress of that on top of everything else youre coping with.
Critter how awful for your Mum, I suppose things were done so diffeently back then but still I can imagine how she must have suffered over the years wondering what her little one was like. So sad. How are you doing? any news on the TTC front?
Betty i think it took me about 3 months to go back to normal periods after my section, and the first ones were really quite heavy then went back to light. Have yours settled yet?
AFM been having a a really tough few days, just been hit head-on by a huge wave of grief again, plus the worries. Feeling quite regular movement now but still no definite pattern, and now I have got it into my head that when I feel the really strong kicks/punches that its because the baby has got the cord wrapped round his neck and is choking, or is not receiving enough oxygen and is trying to let me know he is about to die or something equally awful. Utterly fatalistic and pessimistic I know, but just cant seem to help it. Why cant I just be happy that I'm feeling strong movements?? 
Been diagnosed with gestational diabetes, have started the diet and checking blood 4 times a day. The diet is quite easy (lost a kilo already) but the worrying part is both the obstet and the endocrinologist have told me it slightly raises my chance of another stillbirth, so anxiety levels have gone even higher than they already were.
Waves to all and apologies to people I've missed x